Sorry for disappearing on you guys. October wasn't a good month for a lot of reasons. Primarily my absence has been from the standard depression/anxiety/ADHD combo getting out of control, even though I've been working my ass off to get by. A few days last month, I'd sit down to eat or feed the fish or something, and I'd entirely zone out so bad that I'd forget what I was doing or where I was, and when I'd come out of it I'd find hours had past. On "normal" ish days, I'd be busy working on stuff all day only to not... have anything to show for it? Or not remember what I had done. I'd know I'd been busting ass all day, but only remember doing one chore. Despite this, my psychiatrist isn't convinced that my medication isn't working, and there's been no change in my prescription.
To add to this, I can't afford school. I still have to pay for it, though. And the workload on top of routine housework and pet care is impossible for me right now without fucking up my commissions sideways, as you may have noticed. That drives me mad. So I'm dropping out to work full time. It'll be next week before I can get this shit together, but I'll make it up to everyone I have late orders with. Sorry again.