Hellu everyone and Happy New Year!

On my end, it is now 2026 on my end and thus, 2025 is no more. I will try to summarize my 2025 for you all. To start, in January of last year, everything was going decently, and I mostly focused my attention on work and getting my college stuff further situated. February is when I think I signed up to go to the Megaplex picnic for the first time and otherwise, I think it was mainly focusing on work and college related stuff as well as trying to figure out the status of the fursuit I commissioned from my maker. March was when I was getting excited for the picnic and even made a few pans of scones to take with me the day before (I even took pictures the day before with Vincent on before all the baking commenced). That day, I made 6 pans of scones whilst also having to have time elapse in between for work. I also was still working on my college stuff as the college kept pertinent information from me that would've sped the process of getting into the college.

Onto April, everything was mostly fine, up until the end of that month, then my dad started having more health issues (I won't go into detail). May, same thing mostly fine up until the end of the month where it was apparent my dad's job as a case worker was starting to affect his physical and mental health to a noticeable degree (once again, I won't go into detail). All the while, I'm only hoping that my maker is also keeping in touch with me about the suit I commissioned. June and July were both arguably the worst, my dad had to get an angioplasty, and his mental health had taken a severe dive after the events that led to that procedure. The only good was when I went to my first furmeet in I think June and my second in July.

Into August, I had all my college stuff lined up, I went to orientation, and everything seemed fine. I also had Megaplex lined up and ready to go and I was looking forward to the time I could have to unwind, be myself and spend time with my friends who I considered fairly good friends. Well, this month in particular was still not an "out of the woods" kind of month, as more stuff popped up. To start, one of the 3 classes I signed up for was cancelled on me without my knowledge (no email, no notice, just cancelled. Until I would later find out that it was cancelled and the email was lost in my inbox). Second to happen, my dad's job was not only making the whole "going to Megaplex as a vacation for myself and my parents" thing I had planned not possible, but he actually didn't have the ability to show up until the next day in the morning. Then along with this, I'm mentally unraveling incrementally on account of the year I had thus far, I was not well most of Megaplex. So along with this, my mom says she's leaving early so she can go home and make it to church. I won't lie, that did upset me to some degree, but me spending the money I was gonna use for the dealer's den on another suit (which also ngl I felt pressured into buying), that kinda sent me into a downward spiral. That plus, the next day I had to (or rather I tried to) face the maker who I commissioned for my next suit to ask about what was finished (if anything) and what the ballpark was on my suit. Well, needless to say I had an anxiety attack just walking into the dealer's den trying to find her booth. I panicked once I walked by and panicked even more when my dad said he would take care of it. He talked to her, was very nice but firm, and told her he wants my suit done by October 3rd but if she needed extra time, he was fine with giving her until the 10th. Now I thought him saying that wouldn't have meant anything, especially since you can't really force a maker to work faster or to you tune when you wish (that would be both a bad idea and also it just doesn't work that way with makers). I tried telling her about what my year was like over the last few months and what my dad's been going through with his job, just to kind of tell her that, "Hey just so you're aware, when you don't message me, after my dad has had literal health problems, both physical and mental, it causes my anxiety to sky rocket." Then, I eventually after not feeling great mentally and just getting riled up, my parents and I started walking around and I tried to enjoy my con from there. I however, just couldn't shake the anxiety that was welling up in my body, and it eventually spilled over ((won't say what made it spill over, just that it did). We go back up to the room, and I just start melting down, cannot be quelled or even appeased by anything. I won't go too far into detail from there, instead I will summarize by saying this, I was completely unraveled, I felt shattered and I felt that my entire con was already going completely wrong. I do not EVER want to cry as much as I did at Megaplex 2025. My parents eventually were able to calm me down and we went to the dessert social. For the remainder of the convention, I only wore Vincent and not the new suit (considering my first outing with that suit, I didn't feel comfortable putting that suit back on for the rest of the convention).

So, we go to the dessert social, and it went ok, minus the guy outside saying "the dessert social used to be free to everyone and now you must pay, so I brought ice cream sandwiches that are free to anyone who wants them." (even if that was a joke, it was ill-timed). I sat with my parents and just tried to mentally reset and recalibrate, trying to get back to me essentially. I won't go too far into detail on the entire con breakdown, but I will summarize: the dessert social was nice, my mom leaving made me upset, trying to hang out with my friends I made was honestly not too great as I only hung out with them for only about an hour for each and aside from a few highlights here and there, most of my Megaplex in the beginning was just flat out terrible.

Now into September, this month was good in the beginning, a bit rough halfway through and then bad by the end (my dad having more health-related problems). October would've been better were it not for of course, more issues. November was the month that everything changed for the better after the looming hurricane finally broke. My dad's benefits were finally approved; my dad got a new job on the same day as his benefits going through (Black Friday) and I got a refund from my college which helped drastically to help me afford my mom's Christmas present. It was as if the storm had finally broken and sun was gleaming through the clouds. That of course would be the end unless it wasn't for my dad having one more hiccup in December which was taken care of and one other looming issue, my suit is still not done.

I kept mentioning it throughout, but the person I commissioned to make my next suit back in April 2024 has yet to finish my suit up until today, where it is now 2:21am at the time I'm writing this, it has gone on for way too long. It's almost a year and three quarters now (on my birthday it'll be 21 months) and my suit isn't finished! I get being understanding, having compassion for a maker who's possibly dealing with things IRL, but also so am I, and so is everyone. This is ridiculous at this point! I've read on Twitter from one maker who posted on one of those "My fursuit commission experience" posts, they said "I would be embarrassed if I didn't finished a client's work with 7-10 months and at max a year." Now that's just one of a few makers who wrote something similar on the same post, but it also further exemplifies my point of how it shouldn't take this long for one suit with a simplistic design! Also, out of everything, I'm not too terribly upset about the money that went into commissioning the suit (though that's tied in), I'm primarily upset at the fact that Watson is a character that I care for dearly and rather have a personal connection to (as I created him) and I allowed someone to essentially take a crack at making him (which I thought, his palette is simple, he's an easy character to make) and I would have him by maybe Christmas of 2024 or maybe by my birthday in 2025. Well guess what, now we're into 2026 (the 1st day still though so) and I've gotten zero updates since November and I've messaged asking about updates only 3 times, all different times in December. The other thing I find to be a bit of an insult is how this maker said she was gonna put me at the top of her priority list and then turns around in December to work on someone else's suit. I do plan on figuring out what the maker is doing and whether or not I'm to expect my suit or not, but I also will not be so willing to wait until April of this year for a suit that is nearly done and yet a maker of over 10+ years, can't seem to finish it! This is just (excuse my language), this is bullshit, that I ask someone to make a character I care for dearly like Watson, I give them money I bled for, sweated over and cried over to get, working in the blazing, boiling sun, the hurricane force winds and freezing, frozen cold rain, days where I was sick and yet working and the days where I was barely awake, only being driven by the purpose of saving for a suit as one last good thing before starting college.

Now then, I apologize for the venting and to those who might see it as someone just not being patient, I've just had an entire year that has taken it's toll and the fursuit commission is getting to me still. Onto other matters; What I've accomplished in 2025. I made a list of what I wanted to improve on for 2025 and I may make a list for 2026. So here's some of what I accomplished in 2025:

No. 3 (got a new keyboard for Christmas. It's a Corsair K100 RGB :3)
No. 6 (after jumping through hoops, spinning plates, juggling balls and pins, and balancing on a beach ball, I got in XP)
No. 8 (Kinda, I went to Megaplex, but my performance at floor wars was lacking and I wasn't ready)
No. 9 (Kinda again, mainly just hung out with him for a little while).
No. 10 (Kinda once more, didn't do the plushie thing, and I also didn't get a photo with Raze this year ;w;)
No. 12 (KINDA? I mean I learned how to draw almost in Valkorey's style but I put my own twist on it and then I barely drew anything all year)

I wasn't able to fix my sleep schedule, in fact it's just as bad (current time now: 2:52am), Number 2 I did save up some but I'm not anywhere near the goal marker yet. Number 4 and 5 were just a bit too far out of reach. Number 7 kinda, but I didn't upload those. Number 11 was a bit much considering the year I had, so no surprise there. Numbers 13 through 15, too much that didn't go right.

Now onto some resolutions:

1. Fix my sleep schedule (part of it is my friend's live in other time zones and the other is my work)
2. Save up maybe to the halfway mark for MoreFurLess (I think it's possible as long as things go right from this point)
3. Finish Keter's fursuit (we'll see on that, gotta get the fur and the material for lining and such)
4. Maybe make some vids with Vincent on (baking or otherwise) and maybe my suit that may or may not get done (after I get over the bitterness I'll have)
5. Go to Megaplex this year and just have fun (Floor Wars, Dance comp, panels, a massage, swimming with friends, spending time with family and not spending too much at the dealer's den)
6. See some of my favorite suiters at Megaplex (Raze, Astro, Gnar, Hallow, hopefully Mangusu, hopefully Hope Collie, hopefully Jinlong and hopefully Bemani)
7. Maybe start learning to animate properly and get the ball rolling on animation?
8. Try to work on myself a bit (essentially trying to work on being better mentally, physically and trying to get back to being Jeffery or like Vincent, happy and more positive)
9. Maybe make and sell some fursuit parts? (we'll see)
10. Maybe go to another furcon (FWA, Furpoc or something. I know Anthrocon isn't happening x3)
11. Upgrade my PC (it needs to be upgraded, badly)
12. Take a vacation aside from Megaplex
13. Create my 2.0 hooves (brown fur with red or black maybe)
14. last but not least, this is the year of Jeffery. So, all sorts of Jeffery pics for his 10th anniversary

Lastly, the art count. Last year was a total of 44 considering the fursuit. This year's total (not counting duplicates) is: 12 (also not including the traditional pieces I drew during school). That is essentially one art piece every month which is not bad but not great. However, I will be focusing on maybe adding more artwork for this year as it is "The year of Jeffery Wolfe" for me, but I also want my art pieces I show to be quality and not just quantity.

Well, that's all for now, I'm extremely tired now and cold from typing this at 3am so thank you all for being here and if you made it this far. Let's make 2026 "the, year" like how 2015 and 2016 were (at least for me they were). Thank you all once again and I will see you all in the next journal/submission :3