Hello Everyone,

I know to many of you this is probably not something that will be a surprise, considering my frequent periods of absence. But today I wanted to make this announcement to finally close this damn book for good.

I have decided to no longer take commissions. Especially not as a business.

The reasons for this is simple. It ate away at me. It very nearly killed the passion I held for drawing for people, it started to feel at some points like I was getting worse at what I was doing. Even if that isn't true, the fact of needing to draw to live really put into perspective just how little freedom you have working for yourself, and having a near unsustainable income at all times. And the worst part was realizing that my job was influencing the way that I made my own personal art. The business side of this gig is parasitic as fuck, and many people can manage it way better. I'm just not one of those people, constantly thinking about my socials and worrying about what kinds of drawings will rake in the biggest pool of clients was stressful and physically painful. The pace I worked at lead me down a fast path to carpal tunnel, putting me out of commission for a long time anyway.

There's a lot of factors that have gone into it, but at the end of the day I've just learned a lot about what I do. And at this point I'm realizing that I have a finite amount of time on this earth, and that the way I make money should be completely divorced from this. My tf kink. The thing I've been telling myself for the past 10 years I liked but never really expressed in much of a meaningful way. I need to make room for myself to play, because that's what this space is to me now. It's my play pen. And I want to use it for that. I know that down the line, I'll be making better stuff because it's something I really wanted to make. And I have a feeling that you'll see that and your experience in this space will be made better as more art is released.

I will say this though. Thank you all so much for supporting me throughout the years. I don't really think I'm an easy person to be around. I've had many moments where I've fucked up, I was bitchy or something in that ballpark. I definitely am not a punctual person in the slightest. But I appreciate you all for sticking by me anyway. It was really good to meet a bunch of wonderful people, and some of you became really good friends. I value the experiences that I had with everyone. I would not be here if nobody gave me that chance to find out.

Don't be a stranger though, because more stuff is on the way. I have two more commissions I will be bringing to the table, and then I'm free and basically going to be doing whatever I want! I have no idea what I'm going to be doing after, but anticipate it!

Thank you,
Pessimist