Check out my latest post; it reiterates the same things said here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53317042/

I truly thought I was going to die.

This is the first artwork I’ve made since I woke up from my almost four month coma.

My family stepped in, deciding to take the chance to save me after all.

I’ve only just relearned to walk since my muscles slightly atrophied over the course of the coma—though I still tremble some.

This artwork took longer to make than my works before the coma since my hand obviously wasn’t used, which you might be able to tell by the shaky brushstrokes. I’ve only been “up” since the end of July, only beginning to regain my senses.

For the story behind the artwork linked, basically, it’s meant to represent the time I first woke up and truly realized that I was still alive. I decided to paint myself as a “shadow” figure since it was like I was in a weird void for what seemed like an infinite amount of time—like I’m restarting almost as a blank slate. I could barely move my body due to the atrophy of my muscles, and I could not even speak, hence why I don’t have a mouth in this piece. My eyes are shot open because of the sensation of pain that seemed to blank my mind for a moment.

But yet, the bright light from the ceiling lights above me showed everything kind of coming back—mentally at least, and slowly, but coming back.

I still suffer from my chronic illness, but hope isn’t completely lost.

I’m not sure where I’ll really go from here. Uploads are definitely going to be slow as I recover. I’m not sure about my future—or even how long it will actually be—or how to deal with this situation.

Even while writing this, I still feel some pain—but thankfully, it’s not as bad as when I first woke up. My body is still damaged, but there’s been at least some repairing.

Even though this isn’t ideal, I’ll admit—I’m still happy to be alive.