I still think about whenever I would lash out in front of my friends because of my mood swings. I think about how I practically ruined my friends’ and their friends’ Christmas last year. I hate how I kept on making empty promises on how I’d change and how I would never lash out again. My mood swings were always tied in with my mom. She would always call me “incompetent”. She would say that I made her feel worthless. I could have let out my frustration by writing the things she says down, but for some reason I would always let out my emotions in front of my mutuals. I hate having a period. I hate being a girl because my mood swings will always take over me and turn me into a monster.
I just want some forgiveness. That’s all I will ask.