BIG VENT INCOMING

For the last two months of 2025, I couldn't at all bring myself to draw, not even just something small. Finals for classes hit me hard, and I've generally been feeling really disparaged when trying to make anything.
I was discouraged, and was miserable when trying to bring myself to take up a pencil or stylus.
I really hope that once I'm out of college, maybe some weight will be lifted off my shoulders enough for me to draw more consistently, but until then I'll be struggling to get anything out every month. I know that my output isn't indicative of my worth as either an artist or a person, but I just can't help but beat myself up over my inability to draw quickly, especially when so many other artists have no trouble with output at all.
I just feel that if my circumstances were just slightly better, that if not as many external factors were weighing me down then I could keep up with art, but I also know in truth that my internal locust and willpower are just awful and that I need to improve them. But then, the time I spend fixing my problems is also time I could spend drawing, and I feel stressed over missing out so much and... like, idk man

TL;DR, I'm feeling pretty low all winter, really

But thankfully, tonight I found a bit of motivation that sparked me to draw for a good while, and surprisingly I enjoyed myself while doing it - which doesn't happen very often anymore - so I really hope that it's not a one and done and that I can keep this fire going
I hope y'all will stick around and see this next year through along with me :)