http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2713027/ check it out! kinda cute, don't you think?! ^.~

...about me.

First I have to tell you that I'm in moody state, so the text could get swampy.
Second - I'd like to yell to the world that my birthday is coming, soon. I will turn 29 in this month. Last twenty-something in my life. I would really like to make a big fiesta/party for that occasion but I'm out of 'green salad'. My wish would be - be surround by fur/people that I like in my day, and give them home baked b-day cake and hang out with them for few hours.

So... If this would be my last twenty-something I would like to do some achievements list that I gain from the year 2002 to now:
1. in 2002 I started my fight with overweight and won - I lost 47 kilos... and still fighting (I wanna get about 94 kg) If I got it then I will tell you, all. Right now I could only say it's close enough.
2. in 2009 I gain a master of arts degree against all the teachers, "friends", and family. In your face! >x3
3. during those years I gain experience in various jobs, and hopes that it will help me to find my job-come-true!
4. and I think that I learned to control a lot of my negative emotions. (not all but I hope it's a lot)

and some negatives:
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(I decided that I will not reviled those ones... 'cause some inappropriate furs/people could read it and used it for my bad)

Cumulatively: those all situation that occurs me, people I met and decision I made, makes me stronger and I try to not to feel bad or to regret about it, but sometimes I just wonder... like the ancient philosopher would do ^_~

So... soon I will turn from 28 to 29, and the years of cub will be gone but not forgotten :3

Thanks for reading me, and you all: look out for each other and Take Care ^.^

I liked the idea, so here it goes...:



stolen from x_panther who stole from straydog

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
[x] You own a credit card.
[] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[x] You've done your own laundry.
[x] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 6

[ ] You show up for school late a lot.
[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[x] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday.
[x] You like to take walks by yourself.
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week.

TOTAL SO FAR: 11

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When you say you're going to do something you USUALLY do it.
[] You can mow the lawn.
[x] You study even when you don't have to.
[x] You have hand washed a car before.

TOTAL SO FAR: 16

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick.

TOTAL SO FAR: 19

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You have been to the beach.
[x] You use the Internet every day.
[ ] You have been outside of your home country 3 or more times.
[x] You make your bed in the morning.

TOTAL SO FAR: 22

[x] You have filed a tax return
[x] You have used a pay phone
[x] You have been served alcohol without being ID'd
[ ] You have purchased stamps at the grocery store
[x] You have purchased a lottery ticket
[x] You still have and use a VCR

GRAND TOTAL: 27


so... I'm younger than I really am. So it's kinda good news ;3 and I was thinking that I'm sooo old x) <cheers>
It was fun. Try it for yourself and give a sign that you did it :3

Take Cares

... and I Must Scream.

~kinda feel like it, right now.~

under the touch of: Therion ~ Adulruna Rediviva


Instructions:
Start with 100%. Bold everything you've done and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as you're __% pure.

1. Smoked
2. Drank alcohol
3. Cried when someone died - (yes, when my Dad died {†} when I was 13)
4. Been drunk
5. Had sex
6. Been to a concert
7. Gotten/given a hand job
8. Gotten/given a blow job
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed (hmm...)
10.Verbally/sexually harassed somebody

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 92%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend
15. Been to prom
16. Cried at school (high school,2nd grade - that was the horror and terror - I cried, but my co-student lost her mind, and ended in mental hospital)
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store
18. Went streaking
19. Given or received a lap dance
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 86%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house
23. Kissed a stranger
24. Hugged a stranger
25. Went scuba diving
26. Driven a car
27. Gotten an x-ray
28. Hit by a car (no health damage fortunately)
29. Had a party
30. Done serious drugs

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 80%

31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball
32. Got paid to strip for someone
33. Run away from home
34. Broken a bone
35. Eaten sushi
36. Bought porn
37. Watched porn
38. Made porn {but not for sell or anything commercial, do it for myself - to know and accept my body =3 }
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex
40. Been in love

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 74%

41. French kissed
42. Laughed so hard you cried
43. Cried yourself to sleep - when I was a child, during those days it was one way out to fell asleep x3
44. Laughed yourself to sleep
45. Stabbed yourself
46. Shot a gun
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 68%

51. Watched a person die
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present
53. Pranked somebody
54. Put somebody in the hospital
55. Snick into someone's room and/or your own room after being out
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex
57. Dressed punk
58. Dressed goth
59. Dressed preppy
60. Been to a motocross race

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 62%

61. Avoided somebody
62. Been stalked
63. Stalked someone - long ago, when I was a growing up teenager, I thought it was a good idea - now I don't think so...
64. Met a celebrity
65. Played an instrument
66. Ridden a horse
67. Cut yourself
68. Bungee jumped
69. Ding dong ditched somebody
70. Been to a wild party

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 55%

71. Got caught stealing something - when I was like 4 or 6 years old - I stoled a bubble gum from a neighbor
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend
74. Gone out with your friend's crush - I think that could be possible, if I do it, I didn't do it on purpose
75. Got arrested
76. Been pregnant
77. Babysat - once but I didn't like it, and never again do it
78. Been to another country
79. Started your house on fire
80. Had an encounter with a ghost

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 51%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by
83. Cried over a family member of the opposite sex
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for 3 months or more
85. Sat on your butt all day
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself - old days...but gone
87. Had a job
88. Gotten cut from a sports team - in primary or secondary school - old history x)
89. Been called a whore
90. Danced like a whore

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 46%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity
92. Been in a car accident
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes
94. Been told you have beautiful hair
95. Raped somebody
96. Danced in the rain
97. Been rejected
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face
100. Been raped

INNOCENT % = 41


so... I have been bad... so waht? get used to it x] and live with it x3

. . .

Something that I wanna do :SCREAM: but can't,
so I scream in silence... wanna but can't...
that's kinda hurt...
I feel like that from february this year to now.

I wanna give you links that I feel connected to:

http://th04.deviantart.net/fs13/300....._by_manitu.jpg

http://i112.photobucket.com/albums/.....ove/scream.jpg

http://www.marcusleatherdale.com/im.....unum_05_fs.jpg

and the last,but not least:
http://rasputina.typepad.com/quoth_the_raven/images/scream-thumb.jpg


sshhhhh

P.S.
...and some polish goth: Closterkeller "Ktokolwiek widział" (whoever saw)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9WkMGBD_FZM

Stole from  shubert who "Stole it from my dad  meanbeard "

[ ] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[X] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
[X] You own a credit card.
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[X] You've done your own laundry.
[X] You can vote in an election.
[X] You can cook for yourself.
[ ] You think politics are interesting.
TOTAL SO FAR: 5

[ ] You show up for school late a lot.
[X] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[X] You've never gotten a detention.
[X] You have forgotten your own birthday.
[ ] You like to take walks by yourself.
[ ] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[X] You drink caffeine at least once a week.
TOTAL SO FAR: 9

[X] You know how to do the dishes.
[X] You can count to 10 in another language.
[X] When you say you're going to do something you usually do it.
[ ] You can mow the lawn.
[X] You study even when you don't have to.
[X] You have hand-washed a car before.
TOTAL SO FAR: 14

[X] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[X] The people at Starbucks know you by name. (in Poland we don't have a Starbucks, so I presume that I choose any store with coffee)
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[X] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[X] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[X] You can type pretty quick.
TOTAL SO FAR: 19

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[X] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[X] You have more bills than you can pay.
[X] You have been to the beach.
[X] You use the internet every day.
[X] You have been outside of the United States 3 or more times. (I live outside the USA)
[ ] You make your bed in the morning.
TOTAL: 24


... comment from me: if total is 35, then this test is not a truth worthy... but I liked to check the right answer for me. That was kind of fun...

!!!Attention!!!
Wanna read it & live with it - then pls enjoy; if not - don't read it.


The second one prediction made by me using Tarot cards. Enjoy.

Work: look out there, you sexy Aries - your female boss got you on her eye. She don't care if you are single or involved in relationship. She would do anything to close you in work place... look out for her 'cause she could use the law about molesting in work place agains you. If you don't have any female boss around you it could be your co worker (this one will be loving and carrying). The last thing - the work-meeting is comming and you will be surrounded by women (maybe it's a women's firm, or in strip club). Other stuff will be quite normal, nothing out of ordinary.

Money: If you plan to invest your money you should think twice or even three times before you do it (maybe consult it with someone, try to ask about everything). DO NOT go into those region if you don't know the ground. The money will come to you if you use your gained knowladge and brilliance. The wisdom is a key to your prosperity

Love: You should be aware that your motivation in realtionship (or gaining one) is burning out. Maybe too much of monotonny in there could be the problem. You should change some metods in this sphere. Maybe take a break in work and go out more with your love or maybe you should hear out more carefully what you partner says to you (don't turn the back on him/her). {in my opinion you and your love need to visit places that wouldn't be so crowd and loud....you two need a lot of space for yourselfs to take breathe in). If you are still single you should think about you being shy. This thing made you go out from the scene of social life.Use small steps to come out to "the lights" (maybe your friend can help you out there - like take you to some home parties, and after few of them - the clubs). !!! ARIES - you need to swing your legs in air again to recall you childhod dreams and made them come true!!!! It will help you to smile often than now ;)

Have faith.

Take care,

XO

Money:The month is for you to make a wise decision on spending the money. Try to think twice before you buy anything 'cause there would be some other thing that you will need money for (and it's quite a big amount of it). It's a good month to take chances to invest or start the business - but You must remember one thing when you will start on your own - that for 2 months you will not earn much (it will be close to 0 in your budget) and you must be preper for it.

Work: I see two ways of interpretation: first one (that are born in the first decad of the sign) can take a relax moment and slow down a little - look around and see the beautiful things that sourrounds us. That's a good time for those to try a diplomatic talk in workplace or in home (try to calm down the atmosphere between you and relatives/or friends). The second - those that were born in the third decade must not lay on grass. You should work hard and then in the next month you will have big and good harvest.

Love: For those that in relationships: You should go on vacation with your love (even abroad) to renew your relations and that will makes the things goes better and healthier. For those that are still single and looking : you should open your eyes wider 'cause you don't really know what you have near your hand/paw/heart/soul (and try not to close yourself totally in home/house/etc or even in yourself - try to "open up you window" for whole world).


Done by Teddy, using Tarot cards.


I will not take any letter of complaints.
I made it for your pleasure (and for to touch the Cards again ^.^)



Take Care. *hugs*

... from  drex150 and change it to my pleasure ]XD

< drex150 wrote: "Taken from  drakesapphire>

1. Are you single or taken?
Single

2. Chocolate or flowers?
Chocolate flowers - to look and eat it, when I will feel the need :>

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Yes - I will dock in my house, in the darker corner of my room to plan How to rule the Wolrd ]X>

4.Do you like anyone?
hmm... I like my friends? that's the spirit? XD hmmm ... if you ask about my Heart - hmm... so NO!

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
Once I was in the school to take a papers (diploma) of ending the past-secondery school... that counts, riiiiight? o.O

6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
the dream one...hmm... lol... I didn't think about that earlier ^^"

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
...somehow... but I don't yell about it.... just look at the question 3 ]:P

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
admirers... but I don't think that tey were "secret" :P

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
I did that... hmm... >.> ... It was a burn up idea...^^"

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
hmm I belive in Eros... it's the kind of Cupid from the ancient Greece ... (yea...it's the deviant thing for me, as a student from classical filology ;3 )

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
mhmm.... @^_^@"" ..... yea ...... @X_X@ (my Mom do it....) @+_+@ XD

12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
I stopped it when I was 13... it was a lame idea for me, then.

13. Do you like candy hearts?
... how they tastes? .... can I have real hearts? *_* plsss ;3

15. Is Valentines depressing?
It depends... Usually during that day ... still look in the question mark 3 :P hehehe

16. How do you feel about PDA?
Hmm... I'm polish Bear so I could not really understand all this shortcuts so I guessing PDA means Pathological Demand Avoidance - hmm.... look at the question 3?! XD

17. How is your love life?
My love life it's like on the Sea - when I'm alone the wind stops to blow, when I meet someone the wind will blow exactly directed to canvas, and when I or partner ended relation(ship) x3 then it's like a storm on the Sea :P

18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Happy to write - No... and I hope it will never happened.

19. How many roses would you want?
I like black roses... but I don't feel that i NEED them.

20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next Valentines?
hmm don't think that I will make it to this V-day... but I can have a hope for the next one ;3 :P


Thx for the mame... I kinda enjoy feeling it ^^



Take Care

Teddy Bear ;3

POLISH VERSION, ONLY!!! :P

http://yumik.wrzuta.pl/audio/jCWZ7qGTMd/

I dedicate it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kU_BBNeumLI to all furries with best wishes from the bottom of my heart. I hope that new year will be better for you than 2008.
That you singles fur will find your dream and perfect love and the furs with their partners will be happy with each other for another years :D and Lot of good health - NEVER GET SICK!!!


*Hugs&Kisses*

I stole it from kruczek who "I stole meme from arthien

1. Where did you begin 2008?
...with drunken furries laying all aroung the floor x3

2. What was your status by Valentines Day?
Single as a lolipo, or even - Ice sickle during the night xD

3. Were you in school anytime this year?
Hmm... study perhaps... and working... and trying my best to make it all work out x3

4. Did you have to go to the hospital?
nah... fortunally x3

5. Did you have any encounters with the police?
Mhm... nah... but with the sexy ones... I would love too ;3

6. Where did you go on vacation?
During vacation... I was on the other planet with witches and warlocks...yea yea...and... hmm.. dragons with fur and ...hmm... hard scales bunnies...and ... and.... working all the time in my home town. xD

7. What did you purchase that was over $100?
..hmm.. on the credit... it was a new monitor with flat screen, 20'' in fact with all the sh*t that needed to watch porn in only more than good quality ;3

8. Did you know anybody who got married?
married not... but propose - yes... and she said yes... I was invited to the their wedding in the year 2009 ;3 and I will come to see ... I'm really curious ... xD

9. Did you know anybody who passed away?
yes.

10. Did you move anywhere?
no...still in my Bear lair. ;3

11. What sporting events did you attend?
I tried the gym... 2 months... but it comes to the end... it's boring.... I'm looking for new activity... not know what will be next x3 we will see x3

12. What concerts/shows did you go to?
hmmm I was in the Theatre on "Oresteia"... the tradegy - about mother killing husband, the son killing mother and ancient greek gods and goddess fighting with each other and about the justice and Katharsis... and a little of... @^_^@ too ;3

13. Describe your birthday.
hmmm... it's usually planed very well .... but since 3 or 4 years I choose to spend them alone... but if somebody will invited themself to my b-day I will welcome him/her warmly ;3

14. What is the ONE thing you thought you would not do, but did, in 2008?
work for the company whole year.... in the end of 2008 they fired me, as they told me, it's 'cause about the economical crisis xD (kwak that :P) ... I got new chnces now... and I will not tell :P

15. What have been your favourite moments?
... that's funny thing that comes to my mind first - fav moments for me is when I read fantasy books that I will choose for myself... and I usually choose the book from only looking at it... Usually I have a good taste in the pictures at the firsts page ;3 ... hehe

16. Any new additions to your family?
...family? is it something to eat? XD

17. What was your best month?
hmmm maybe the march... kinda fast the month is... only for me x3 ;P

18. Who has been your best drinking buddy?
non furry type... the human ;3

19. Made new friends?
yes and no - yes for trying and making new ones... and no... for renew the old ones ;)

20. Favorite Night out?
there is a few night with one speciall person to my heart, that I burried it deeply inside.... and it's not a man/male :P if you are interested :P

21. Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
WORK... for sure xD ... but there was one place that I spend a lot of time... but it changed...so it's work ....and sometimes Uni ;P

22. Have you lost any friends this year?
I lost ...but those wasn't friends... strangers or lovers... nothing really special... to recall :P

23. Change your hairstyle?
hmmm only haircuts... from down to upper part of the head the hair got 3mm+6mm+9mm+(sometimes)12mm Hope that I described it enough clearly ;)

24. Have any car accidents?
I love to be taking for a driver... I love having drivers on my left side.... and I don't have a license :P

25. How old did you turn this year?
too old to write it down...hahaha xD.... nah.... it will be 28 ;3 nice numbers ;3

26. Do you have a New Years resolution?
Take care of myself better (in few things)
Be more evil...
Be more cold in emotional sphere.
Find the job of my dreams.
Be more creative.

27. Do anything embarrassing?
in this 2008 year? hmmm I don't think so... others years yes.... but this year I was really good boy... too good to be true x3

28. Buy anything from eBay?
Wanted... but I changed my mind... ;D

29. Get married or divorced?
hmmm is this a game? XD

30. Get hit on?
I know that others did.... 2 furries where interested in me... maybe even now... ^^"

31. Been snowboarding?
rolling in the snow can be?

32. Did you get sick this year?
not serious... but I was.

33. Are you happy to see 2008 go?
Kinda hope that 2009 will be even better... I got faith in that ...^^"

34. Been naughty or nice?
A lot of told me that I'm the nice one... but I don't think that true enough... 'cuase I made few things... @^^"@ :P

35. What are you looking forward to most in 2009?
to new relaxive activities...for new job... for - hmm - a long vacation :D ... and for a big win in the lotter :3

...hmm that was hmmm fun?! x3
Hope you will stole it from me too


GOD NIGHT ;*