Hey guys. :) Honestly this might be my first time actually writing something down like this haha. If you're new around here, my name's Aurora Nova. And unfortunately, if you are new here, this is my last post...

Maybe. I honestly can't tell but, who knows right? One can say something today but, it'll be something different tomorrow! I don't know if I'm making sense but, to keep things short, I've been trying my hardest to draw and improve my art skills but, no matter how hard I try, it really is just a hard thing to do. I tried and tried but, nothing seems to be working out for me, plus I'm carrying some heavy responsibilities while being in college so, there's that. Whenever I do stumble upon FA, seeing all these wonderful works that others make, it makes me feel happy! But on a deeper level, it hurts me, but it's not really their fault, no. Its just a me thing, because ever since I started drawing, feeling like I was getting somewhere, I see these artworks that are just really impressive. Then, I look at my own artworks and man... they suck ass compared to other artists haha. Sure, there are those that will say my artworks are great, that they look good, and I genuinely do appreciate it. But deep down somewhere in me, where I guess my vision always is when it comes to these sorta things, something just screams at me that I am not really that great of an artist, and that I might as well just stop. You've no idea how much art I've seen my friends made, their simple and/or complex characters, the beautiful artworks that they have of them (and also the spicy ones hahaha), I'm envious, I really am, and I believe that saying this makes me sound quite selfish, and so I apologize for these words of mine. Man... the amount of promises I made that if I were to become a better artist, I will make sure to draw for them free of charge, or as a gift for teaching me techniques to further hone my edge but, I guess I let them down. I let you all down, and I am sorry for that, really. I want to make things right, but I'm just not really cut out for this sorta stuff, drawing and letting my imagination be able to flow. I can write them and describe them clearly in words, but unfortunately making them come to life through artwork is an impossible dream. Hey, at least I tried right? Meh... I tried, but I'm a total failure when it comes to it. Ohhh good grief, I'm a mess.

Well, anyways. I've taken more than enough time from y'all. If you were able to read up until this point, thank you. It means a lot that someone at least hears what's been going on inside me for the past couple of years haha. See ya when I see ya. Bye for now, and thank you once again guys, to my watchers and the new people that happened to stumble upon this journal of mine.