2025 was....a clusterfuck. I do not want to go in to full detail (or try not to lol) nor in to political shit, but....
UK and Europe are putting censorship on their people's lives, with this ID verification bullcrap. US is doing the same thing to, but not fully, but it's wild that some states passed these kind of laws without understanding the risks of identity theft even though it's been around for a long time, and it's getting worse. Prices continue to go up while our wages remain the same or going up by just a few cents because why not. People going mad about AI is growing massive and is taking over, which I totally understand why, but some overreact too much thinking the world is coming to an end. I dunno that's just me.

My point is, so much stupid negativity shit going on since the starting of 2020s, and it seems to be a very easy and very normal for everyone to feel pessimistic about how the world is going to. And me who has an annoying pessimistic mentality for many years, it made me feel so much worse and worsened my depression, bitching about things and how I hate being in my 30s. Plus, working for 12 hours a day which drains me mentally? Yeah, that made my depression and my anxiety much worse to the point of having sleep issues again. Seeing all of this since the beginning of this year made me grow tired of how we all have become, seeing people doomtalking about AI, President Trump, censorship laws being passed despite our protest (or lack thereof), and so much more that I decided to get off of social media and news stuffs for good. They were all just fuel for my pessimistic self and I can't take it anymore. So recently I just focus on gaming, chatting on Discord and getting back to art. Not only those but I have been taking some exercises and slowly getting back to my hobbies which all has been improving my mental health. I am avoiding Twitter and BlueSky for now since those two places are nothing but political echo chambers. Losing weight is a good thing too since I've been focusing on better diet, and trying to bring down my blood sugar.

2025 is ending in a few days, some had a pretty good year, some didn't, we can love it or hate it, but let us hope 2026 is bring us something good. My bad side is expecting more bullcrap as usual, but I really do not want to dwell on to that side of the pan. I have no plans nor goals for 2026, I just want to focus on myself and get back to my old self where I can enjoy stuffs despite all crap happening around me, just dealing less depression and all. Hoping to find a job that doesn't murder my soul for 12 hours a day, keep losing weight, keep paying bills and rent to continue living, avoid any social media and other stupid drama from any sort of media.

As for New Year's, just gonna treat it as usual. Family visit then work. Just gonna try to enjoy my own life as much as I can. But, wish you all a Happy New Year! Drive safe, drink responsibly and say NO to censorship! c: