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Sometimes taking a step back from everything, biting your tongue and keeping silent is the best thing.
Not for me, for those I love. My existence in this world isn't good enough for anyone. ~
Should have known really. Nothing lasts. My life is a pit, i'm a fucked up mess and my mind is screaming bad things all the time.
I've tried to be a good friend, partner and be one of the family. Its clear. I don't fit in. I never did....and I won't ever. ~
Sure, my life on the outside view doesn't seem too bad. But dig a little deeper and find out how much i've endured, mentally - physically - emotionally.
My heart gets butchered every time, my mind breaks and my soul is pretty much undead, but still dying. ~
I feel broken without any resolve. I can't ask for help, because that adds to the problems of others.
I can't tell those I love i'm suffering, so I draw and vent. But the hole i'm in is so fucking deep I see no way out again.
Monday i'll be calling the doctor and begging to be put back on medication. I'd rather feel nothing, fucked up and dead than this.
I thought I could fight this without medication, without help, now I just want to be forever numb and never feel anything.
Medicated for the safety of others first, not myself. If people want me around, still breathing and with some recognised pulse? Keep my head deceased please. ~
I had hope, dreams, ambitions, I wanted to get some much done and the drive was there. Now I can barely function, physically my pain issues have fucked with my head so much I don't feel the strength of energy to fight...let alone protect others. I've failed. Again.
Not looking for pity, I needed to vent.
I'm gonna go stare at the abyss for a while.
Thrasher (C)
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Not for me, for those I love. My existence in this world isn't good enough for anyone. ~
Should have known really. Nothing lasts. My life is a pit, i'm a fucked up mess and my mind is screaming bad things all the time.
I've tried to be a good friend, partner and be one of the family. Its clear. I don't fit in. I never did....and I won't ever. ~
Sure, my life on the outside view doesn't seem too bad. But dig a little deeper and find out how much i've endured, mentally - physically - emotionally.
My heart gets butchered every time, my mind breaks and my soul is pretty much undead, but still dying. ~
I feel broken without any resolve. I can't ask for help, because that adds to the problems of others.
I can't tell those I love i'm suffering, so I draw and vent. But the hole i'm in is so fucking deep I see no way out again.
Monday i'll be calling the doctor and begging to be put back on medication. I'd rather feel nothing, fucked up and dead than this.
I thought I could fight this without medication, without help, now I just want to be forever numb and never feel anything.
Medicated for the safety of others first, not myself. If people want me around, still breathing and with some recognised pulse? Keep my head deceased please. ~
I had hope, dreams, ambitions, I wanted to get some much done and the drive was there. Now I can barely function, physically my pain issues have fucked with my head so much I don't feel the strength of energy to fight...let alone protect others. I've failed. Again.
Not looking for pity, I needed to vent.
I'm gonna go stare at the abyss for a while.
Thrasher (C)
Art (C)
Category All / All
Species Unspecified / Any
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File Size 188.5 kB
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