I'm sorry you're feeling that way, but just know they're people who care and love you for who you are and I hope you don't forget~.

Yeah this hits me hard as well. It sucks we can't be the genders we should be.

Technically, we already are.

unfortunately there's not a surgery that can make us transfems be able to have kids atm

Well, except for Uterus Transplant Surgery.
Yes, it's real.
Yes, it can do pregnancy.
Yes, it has been done many times.
Granted you do need to have an SRS before that.

Hell, they can even breastfeed their babies.

That’s news to me, has there been any successful uterine transplants on trans women? I couldn’t find any articles on the subject. I did see there were a handful of cis women that had the transplant surgery

Well, to date, there has been no trans woman UTS reported, but, it is indeed possible.
It just hasn't been done yet, tests have been made, they've successfully made a (male) mouse give birth, it CAN be done, there just hasn't been a human volunteer yet.
It's only a matter of waiting.
It is an expensive surgery, after all.

Coming from a medical science background, I'd say we should be hopeful that progress is made here but I would not suggest holding one's breath 5 years for it to happen.

The situation is much much more complicated than it may seem. There are also many biological reasons why it would be much more difficult to translate this procedure from cis to trans women and significantly fewer motivations to push said clinical trials, ESPECIALLY in the current political climate of defunding any research with LGBT attached to it.

I'm not saying that it's impossible or will never be investigated, but I would temper those expectations with POUNDS worth of salt grains.

At least there's hope for the future of trans ladies. ^w^

I assume one of the hurdles to making it work would be getting the vascular system in a trans women to be sufficient to supply a uterus, much less a uterus with an embryo?

I'd give it 5 years.

I know that feeling. Be in peace as I try Tyroo. You're are not alone.

Big hugs

Damn, you really have been through a lot.

But listen, you were born in 1991, that means you're 34, right?
That ain't bad! You still have PLENTY of time to have everything in this image! People live up to 120 if they're healthy! Plenty of time to make up with your family and maybe make one of your own! ^w^
Don't let it get to ya, hon, everyone has a chance for a lovely life and God ain't about to make an exception for you.

"Would things have been easier"? Absolutely, but "Easy" isn't how one earns a life to be proud of.
Hell, maybe one day in the future, you'll be showing this very image to your kid saying "See that little roo, sweetie? That's you.". ^w^

Don't lose hope.
Nobody knows what the future holds, but that fact has yet to stop anyone from trying to achieve theirs.
Your life is in your hands, so I suggest having a lovely one, Tyroo.

This image may look like pieces of your life is burning away to darkness.
But who knows, it may just be the darkness that's burning away, revealing the life you're about to have. ^w^

I wish I could be so optimistic.... I heavily related to the picture above. While technological advancements are increasing, I doubt it would improve fast enough to give us longevity in a way that matters or allow us to change our bodies and our experiences with it to the level many of us desire.

Doubt about the future is the only thing that can get you down in the present.
Yeah, it's pretty rough, but it IS getting better, we live our own lives to the fullest, worrying only makes us waste time.
Complete Medical Transition for genders has been plausible, sure it takes time, but I greatly doubt it'll take 2 decades, hell, just 2 decades AGO we getting married wasn't even legal!
Progress is progress, beggars can't be choosers.
But I am absolutely certain that there will be a bright future for trans people. ^w^
And that's coming from an Iranian Enby, honey. :)

I’m sorry to hear you’ve been experiencing this, I Sadly all I can say is that I hope you’ll feel better and to let you know there are a lot of people going through the same thing as you and others here to help support ya

....Fuck. You know how to hit a girl hard.
Right there, with you. Being Transfem isn't easy in today's age. My relationship with my own family isn't the best. It hurts to imagine at times, but we can imagine and dream and picture, it right? What could have been.
.... I'd love to have my own family as well, but, as they say, it's not in cards hun. We play the hand we're dealt.
I know it's forward to say, but I'm here if you need an ear to vent to, or a shoulder.

It's little comfort from a stranger but I know the exact feeling. It's intoxicating falling into that pit of 'what-ifs' but we got to keep on keeping on for our own sake and the ones we love

Honestly with the title I had a strong feeling at what it represented. As a trans person myself I totally get it. My Mom always wanted me to make her a Grandmother, but that whole topic is just a sore spot. Even her getting "worried" about me being trans it just hurts.

I too am greatful for all of the allies I have found, and being a part of this community. That said it isn't something I would have ever wanted or chosen. I tried living as a man, and it did nothing but hurt me. As does the feeling of loss and morning my ability to be a mother.

I would give just about anything to be able to be a mother, and to be able to just live my life without fear of percussion over being a manufactured boogie man, pervert, villain or whatever people would try to brand me and people like me as.

I have just learned to treasure those who stand with me, and to be myself through the good and the brief bad times. I just always push through to the best of my ability, and honestly I do feel happy with my life. I am also so happy for the opportunities given to me.

The trope of parents disliking the truth about their children seems to be quite common.
My father reacted similarly, he's pretty religious, so go figure.
But then he told me that he's just worried that other people here might hurt me for who I am, and he was telling the truth, he really didn't care if I wasn't gonna make him a grandfather anymore, he just wanted me to be safe and happy.
He said I'm free to be myself when I am living in a safe place.
I'm still living with him, his home is the safest place I know.

REAL parents care about their children, they couldn't care less if what made their child happy didn't fit society's criteria.
Those who didn't want kids or did it out of tradition are not fit, they drag the title of Parent through the mud.

Yeaahhh! You get it!

I somewhat know this feeling.
I've had these thoughts many times. Its a very easy hole to fall down, but having people around you that care for you makes it a bit easier. But those feelings never truely go away.

I understand what all this means. Occasionally, I also get similar thoughts and feelings.

This picture has stirred up quite a few things since I saw it yesterday, particularly the maternity panel.
Even after having gone all the way through transition and it now being firmly part of my past, it still stings so hard to remember I'll never give birth. Ouch x_X

I'm glad and sorry that it spoke to you enough to come back a day later with it in your head. It's an unfortunate truth that no matter what we do some things will still be out of our reach. Sometimes it helps me to think that we're not alone and just another category of women unable to bear children for one reason or another and that our feelings of yearning for a traditional motherhood that we can't have is shared with some of our cis sisters as one of the varied experiences of womanhood.

Yes, that's what I also try to remember when such thoughs hit me. I dare to hope that scientific advances will maybe make it possible one day for future generations (who knows, stem-cell science could do wonders). In the meantime, I'm already glad that the current medical and social progress has made transitions possible and at least allow us to be who we are, even if some things are still missing.

When thinking about things like this, I ask myself if I'd even be the same person. As much as it hurts sometimes, I don't think I would be.

Same. I am the result of my life, all the good and bad things that have happened to me. Without them, I wouldn't be me. So I try not to pine for what could've been, because it would have happened to a different person.

stares at the Tassoth in the wild

unfortunately relate to this quite a bit. I hope you can find relief, or at least focus on the good things to overshadow the dysphoria.

I totally understand how you feel

This made me tear up. I can relate.

i understand that feeling so much.

These are both beautiful and so sad.
"The life that could have been" is such a melancholy feeling.

It is the lives we have lived who make us the people we are... but it never stops that feeling of how things could have been different.

Different reasons, shared feeling.

yeah....

I remember as a kid, hearing that my parents wanted a girl, and constantly wondering to myself if I could've been that, if I could've been more a part of my family instead of the "nothing" I grew up as.

Oh, oh this is the biggest fucking mood. I know it probably doesn't mean much, but I get it...
-Kiri

I'm glad I saw this. This year has seen a lot of changes for me, and this stirred up a lot of deep feelings I wasn't aware I had. I've been thinking a lot about my identity recently and this has helped me understand my thoughts a little, thank you for sharing this.

I feel this. Feel it a lot. I always wondered what my life would've been like as well...i feel that and you're not alone.

God, this a fucking mood.

yeah this one hits hard for me too

i feel this so hard. most days are kinda fine on the existential dysphoria front. but some days it just punches me right in the gut and i get caught up thinking about the what ifs. what might my life be like now if i had been born a girl? heck, sometimes its just "what if i had found out i was trans sooner?"

but yeah, excellent piece. really evocative. :>

Beautiful and poignant, Tyroo. *hugs*

I'll never be able to personally understand yours - or countless other's - pain of not feeling like you weren't born as the right thing. All I can share are my sincerest condolences, and that hopefully there can be something of a brighter future ahead.

Really feeling this rn. Had to excuse myself at work cause I saw a mom playing with her toddler and... yeah.

Trust me Tyroo, I have those as well. I had dreams of seeing my other life as a Cis-Lady. She still looked a bit miserable, but I can't be too sure.

Everyone always thinks about the things that could have been. It is a part of life.

What I can say is that you are a truly great friend and one of the kindest souls I know. I am proud to call you a friend. Love you hun.

Maybe. But maybe not. Fate is a recluse like that; either it stays tight lipped or is just making everything up as it goes along. At the end of the day it's better to assume you made the better choices.

Oh shit that hit too close to home. Hope you're handling it well

*offers great big hugs*

I know I've never spoken in your comments before or whatever, but i had to say a thing just because this piece reminds me of an earlier time in my life.

I don't have gender dysphoria but i dealt with something similar, used to have these kinds of thoughts a lot when I used to be a dragon otherkin as a teen. I wish I could offer words to help, but I know it's not something you can dull the pain of with a pat on the back and a "everything's gonna be okay."

What I can offer is to say that in your life now, you've brought a lot of joy to many, myself included. And this piece you've made will speak volumes to people in their own struggles with dysphoria, and let them know they're not alone. You've made a positive impact on the lives of others despite what your own life threw at you. That's something to be proud of. Thank you, for being you ^.=.^.

This specific life is as terribly unlikely as any other...all i can think to do with it is live it well.

It's hard some days to not lament what I don't have. I'm grateful for the experiences I've had but it's hard not to sometimes wish the coin landed on the other side and that i was born female.

Coming back and I still can't stop thinking about this piece. How I'd been if I was born a cis girl. How everything i want to do would be acceptable. How i wouldn't need to worry about losing so many people for living as who i am.
Thanks for making such an amazing, emotional and provoking piece.

Been here many, many times. Sending love.

<3

In life, sometimes the we make decisions and those decisions can either be good or bad, but sometimes the decisions we make make us who we are and if we decide to be more than what we’re supposed to be then so be it because what really matters is that being human is not about standing for a status quo It’s about deciding who or what you wish to be and sometimes even when others don’t agree with this decision of who you are, it doesn’t matter if you’re happy if you’re grateful to be who you are then that’s all that matters

Those are are true and meaningful sentiments but what I was trying to express wasn’t regret over transitioning but mourning the life I’ll never get to live as a cis woman.

Like I’m doing what I can to live how I want now but it doesn’t change the circumstances of my birth and certain differences that I’ll never be able to overcome.

These feelings aren’t something that can be solved but I felt it important to at least acknowledge them alongside all the joy that transitioning has brought me.

A powerful piece, thank you for sharing.

That's... entirely understandable...

I know how feel hun. Just getting to be trans is one thing but being born the way you wish you were born is entirely different, sending you all my love! *currently crying as I'm writing this* ;;

Yeah… yeah no kidding. The struggles have shaped me, yes, but how much happier, how much *easier* could things have been without this curse in the first place?
…and would I really have turned out any worse for the easier life?
…or would I just have been happy. Fulfilled.

Holy hell this hit me hard...amazing art and I just absolutely feel this so goddamn hard. Going through a divorce right now because of my transition and I'm right in the middle of the "if I hadn't put it off for over 15 years for her, what could have been different?" along with "well, I love my kids so could I really change anything?"

Maybe things would have been easier. But they wouldn't have been yours.

WOW i forgot this was my username i'm so sorry to flashbang you with that

LMFAO great name!

Also did someone link this somewhere? Lol I've got a sudden influx of comments haha

I found it on traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns2: https://www.reddit.com/r/traaaaaaan.....ife_not_lived/

good news is you can change your user name on this site.

Someone shared your post on Reddit in r/traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns2 along with the link to your post. It touched something inside of me, something deep so I wanted to answer you :

When terfs are telling us we could never be real women because we didn't to go through what a young girl go through and that we cannot bear children. We.. We know that.. I mean, it doesn't diminish us as "lesser-women" but we know we didn't went through those step and it haunts a lot of us.
I cannot count a day where I didn't tell myself "What if ?", how my body would be different, my relationship with my family too, how my view of the world would be different.
But then I think of all the person I met inside this community, all the good people that crossed my life being a transgender woman. All the strength I gained just wanting to be happy fighting a system not made for us to try to fit like everybody else (plot twist : it doesn't work really well and I'm happy with it).

I'm not able to remember what it is to be raised as a young cis girl but my path isn't to be forgotten, I went my own way and it's still beautiful.

You are all beautiful for what you are now despite all the "what if" you may tell you. Never forget that. Dysphoria is a poison that can be cured by outliving it.

I'm sorry you're not feeling good :(

🫂🫂🫂

I used to think the same way, but if I was born the gender of identity with it doesn't mean my family would be less shitty. In fact I may not be the same person, because I may not have the same lived experiences.

I feel that.
Not sure, I will ever have better relationship with family if I am trans but having your own family and bearing your own children?
God, what I would give to have that.
Also realizing that we were born same year kinda make it hit me hard

Well this hits hard :(

God, this hits hard. It's one of those things I try my hardest not to think about, but they do flare up. It's painful, burning, even. You captured that so well. Wishing you the best. 🫂🫶

Been feeling this a lot as I've been making the progress through transition. I think what hurts is more the idea that bearing children isn't an option, even if being a parent isn't a strong desire I have right now. It's entirely possible I'll go my whole life without the feeling of wanting children, and that's perfectly fine, but what absolutely pains me inside is just the lack of that option. I wish I could make that choice if I ever wanted to, but I simply can't.

I have almost no regrets with my decision to transition, and I'd feel empty if I had to go off the hormones, but if there was anything I feel any remorse over, it's the infertility aspect. I wish I had frozen my sperm beforehand, but I also really needed to be on the medicine, and now I worry it's too late to save any sperm, and really the only way I could attempt to do this would be to stop being on hormones for a certain amount of time, and that just sounds absolutely awful to me. I'm sure someone could make a moralizing transphobic argument over this paragraph, but it's by no means of me to make ANY argument like that. Hormones is something I NEEDED, I needed it to be happier in life, and I don't regret it, but it can't be perfect.

The idea of growing up cis is something I've thought about too, or wishing I realized to transition when I was younger instead of as a young adult, but then, like you say about being trans shaping you and your social network, it's that confliction. If I was born a cis woman, or transitioned before puberty, would I be the same person? Would I have the same interests? The same friends? Same life perspectives and experiences? I'm happy with who I am, on some level, and there's a part of me that feels pride over being trans and how it's affected my view on the world, but of course I wish I was cis, it pains me I'm not. I wish I could just suddenly be cis but keeping all the memories and experiences I have now. And biology is so subjective, what we consider our biological sexes are so subjective, and so much can be changed, but atm some things just can't, the lack of a womb, and it makes me want to cry.

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Awww man, how did I miss this being posted? This is beautiful.