Sooo GUESS WHOSE HAVING A PREGNANCY SCARE

MEEEEE

Yall im so worried. Like i know we last did everything like a few days ago, but we did it literally every day except last Monday, like the past 9 days we had for Christmas break (including the weekend) we went at it so it could’ve been from that first day to any day after, im so worried about this, i really want a girl but whatever im blessed with will be what i get so, my boyfriend said he’s okay with either so yeah, but the part im worried about is one our parents and community’s reaction, my family isn’t the best off, we’re like the poorest out of my entire family, every single branch(??) of my family tree whose yk still alive they’re well off, except my bio mom and my grandparents whom I like with. And like my house every room is full, my brothers sleeping in the garage (more of a room now cuz there’s no garage door or anything anymore) it’s mainly storage type thing with a laundry room, and I mean we could go there and just switch rooms with my brother, but one, that would be a lot of moving, and two, my garage doesn’t have ac or heating or anything so here in the Deep South, the weather is brutal in the summer and the winters seem to get harsher every year, so I can’t have my child out in those irregular conditions.

If yall don’t know, I’m 18, a senior in high school, in a small town in the Deep South, the town I live in, atleast the part I’m in and the people I’m with, they’re very conservative and all so.. yeah. I don’t know how I’m gonna go about this. I am on the pill and all, the mini one to be specific, and ofc I just so happened to miss a few days like twice that week so.

My boyfriend, his family is also rough, there’s 8 kids, and I’m pretty sure their house is smaller than ours. They have five rooms and like omg, the three youngest kids are under I think 7, a toddler, a like four year old and the 7 year old, the rest are about 13-20 or so

But like, neither of us have jobs, and he’s a junior in high school btw, neither of us have our license, only permits. I’m just really worried how we’re gonna care for this baby, how people are gonna react, yk, the usual.

I can’t drop out because I’m literally about to graduate, I would do online school but the program we have here they switched this year statewide or something and I tried it at the beginning of the year and they kicked me out cuz I couldn’t keep up and I got sent back to regular school which is fine but now I’m possibly pregnant.

Does anyone have any tips or advice I lowkey don’t know what to do at all. I think like maybe three people besides my boyfriend know, one friend from school, one friend whose in college who lives within walking distance but is in college, and another from my hometown who has a one year old and she’s 18. I just I don’t know what I’m gonna do. This is gonna be a long, long stressful two weeks.

Srs question for those who $h.

Ok so yall know when your doing it yk and your like js satisfied. Like the urge is gkne and your js done. Like i usually do it at night, so like i mean im usually tired after so i clean up and go to bed, would it be possible for that to happen but like the urge js never come back?? Like i go from sh everyday or often for years (im kind of forced into recovery/ being clean atm) but could it js go from that to me never getting the urge again??

Deadass finna start sobbing. I have trypophobia (the fear of a cluster of holes) AND BRO. my DUMBASS SELF decided hmmm lets go on tiktok and trigger ourselves and find people who also have this. LIKE GIRL. BFFR.

The reason it started was because i have an intense fear of bugs and insects. And maggots are one of them. And maggots create clusters of holes in skin and meat and all. And im terrified of that happening to me. Because well insects scare me and maggots yk yk and like the holes remind me of the maggots and its js a massive loop of everything reminding me of each other. I cant escape it. Anyway yh. The only time you will be hearing about this from me. Byeee

Any of my moots who were in the wlw pinterest community thing, are yall still in it cuz its not showing up for me and i was wondering if i got kicked :(

Js passed the exit to my exs house

(Ive never been to her house i js know(im built diff))

But uh bro has me falling apart rn. Im so paranoid shes gonna show up or some shit oml.

Im otw to my uncles house then to my aunts which is like a 8 hour drive to his then four to hers from his which is not too bad anyway

if you couldnt tell i miss my ex (js a little)