Agloe

studyambitiouss-deactivated2022

littlebirdofprey

all I do is listen to music and think about my silly little fictional people

agloe20

The amount of fictional people who live in my head information I constantly hold is staggering and my ability to comprehensibly keep this imaginary world alive in my brain astounds me because I generally have the memory of a soaked potato.

Pinned Post

Don’t know what to do

Hey! I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to live my life.

The laptop’s fan needs a bit of a clearing up.

There are these ideas that I have but then there is this set structure of each day in my head and I don’t mean a set structure as in something akin to a daily routine where you wake up and brush your teeth and have breakfast. I mean that there is a set structure of each day in a sense that I can never reach “One day” where I’m doing the things I’ve always wanted to do. Where my life looks completely different because all the small choices I’ve made differently from what I was expected to make have led to a life that is unrecognizable to my fears about adulthood.

I talk in hypothetical and never really in particulars. I know. But that is because everything I encounter is never about that thing in particular. Why I get so mad at people staring at me or why I feel like change is impossible or why I dislike people who move my stuff without asking me - none of these are simple answers. The answer to each question that pertains to me is all of me. I am a stack of cards - not a house because there isn’t any coherent structure to me, but I am a stack of cards and the 6th card is the 6th because it is not the 36th. I am a circle and all the points in a circle are making me up and if you pointed at one then I’d be a point and I have no points to make because I’m a circle.

Wow. I’m making a lot of sense to me right now but I don’t really know what to do with it.

I want to live each day consciously, active, and exploring. That is what I want to do with my life on a day to day basis.

But I can’t be active because other people’s decisions (read: family’s) decisions impact my life. So, I can be conscious and I can explore? Apparently not. It is a triangle with the horizontal side being autonomy.

But is autonomy a valid expectation? Is it justified for me to expect autonomy?

How much autonomy is justified?

How long will I live?

What is stopping me from living how I want to? Why am I reluctant to live how I want to? Will I ever become the person who breaks away to be themselves? Is it justified for me to be myself? Aren’t I dependent in more ways than one on others? Wouldn’t it be cruel to take away the support I offer others because it inconveniences me?

What should I do?

What will I do?

rocktheholygrail

charl0ttan

does anyone know why youtube videos from 2020 have had that 5y on them lately

charl0ttan

ooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh🫶 fuck👍

recny

dreamstat + appearing whenever louis gets the ick

agloe20

Apart from Lestat’s hair, this was my favourite thing about Season 2.

samd1o1

My experience with queer media lately:

Epic handshake meme format: Left side states "Queer dramas that are surprisingly funny". Listed below are posters for Hannibal and IWTV. Right side states: "Queer comedies that are suprisingly uttery devastating". Listed below are posters for WWDITS, GOMENS, and OFMD. Meeting in the middle it says "Children of divorce (at least once)".

agloe20

I love that we’ve all agreed Queer is where Hannibal canonically belongs :P

loopnoid

Digital art depicting Claudia and Madeleine Eparvier from Interview with the Vampire (2022) in various outfits from different decades. On the bottom left, they are laying down together and looking at each other, wearing styles from the 1960s: Madeleine wears a striped top with high-waisted red shorts and a headband, while Claudia wears a yellow miniskirt with blue nylons. Both wear 60s sunglasses. On the top right, they are sitting side by side smoking cigarettes wearing styles from the 1970s: Claudia wears a loose green bodysuit with a white fur coat and her hair styled in an afro, while Madeleine wears a purple knot top with a long red skirt and some jewelry. On the bottom right, they stand together in styles from the 1980s: Claudia in a purple powersuit and Madeleine in a yellow turtleneck, brown jacket, and mom jeans, also with a perm. On the top right, Claudia sits looking at us over her shoulder, wearing a 90s leather jacket with a maroon dress and dark nylons, sunglasses, and her hair in a braid ponytail, while Madeleine has an arm thrown around her shoulder, wearing a dark satin 90s dress over a dark lace top. Both of them have blood on their mouths. The background is a bunch of magazine articles and lesbian zines in English and French.

claudeleine thru the eras

agloe20

thank you, this is beautiful!

turnipoddity

pressed up against your longing

agloe20

uwu

alltears

all-timer daniel molloy questions:

1. did you eat the baby?

2. are you schizophrenic, louis?

3. and then what?

4. fuck, man, are you the zodiac killer?

5. YOU BOTH FUCKED LESTAT?

jeyneofpoole

crazy face to make at one half of the couple you’re impromptu divorce lawyering for after you’ve just exposed seventy years worth of his lies including but not limited to aiding abetting and directing the death of two beautiful lesbians one of which was sort of his stepdaughter also btw this couple is comprised of nuclear warheads in the shape of beautiful men and you sort of had a thing with both of them that one time in the seventies when you thought you were going to get high and your dick sucked but instead got saw-trapped by a renegade botticelli angel with all mental illnesses in the dsm-5 and a couple others we haven’t categorized yet. daniel molloy you will live forever

agloe20

what a beautiful day to be able to read words in english