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18 | they/he/it | queer, neurodivergent, artist | not enjoying the fascism

Ok so I realized I made a pinned post for the new sideblog before even making one for my main so here it is!!

You can call me Rat or Bug on here. I use they/he/it pronouns, and I’m queer and transmasc.

I’m a scary radical antifa leftist who believes in human rights, taking down the system, and harm reduction.

I’m 18 and a freshman in college, taking whatever classes I think look fun and frankly putting most of my energy into activism and friendships and surviving depression. I care a lot about trans people, undocu people and anyone in danger of ICE, liberation from genocide, and disability justice.

I reblog a lot on here, yap about queerness, neurodivergency, politics, religious trauma, and art, and share personal stories/vents/opinions.

I love stuffed animals, cartoons, stop-motion animation, the muppets, colors, insects, and more :)

I need to make money for top surgery, so I’m trying to figure out how to sell art/porn/?? as an internet side job. Part of exploring that ⬇️

This is my nsfw sideblog (18+!!!):

But uhh yeah! My presence on here can be irregular but I love asks and I’m open to talking and making friends!

most true and real minecraft update ever i dont need new weapons i dont need new blocks i need little fucking guys

I love making my friends watch adventure time because they NEVER expect the absolute emotional devastation of it all. you don't know the toll adventure time takes on your mental health until it's already happening to you. adventure time will have you crying your eyes out with your gut wrenched and your heart broken right before hitting you with a fart joke. there's nothing like it. it's beyond comparison

things you will have if you watch adventure time in its entirety:

  1. newfound appreciation for the connections you have with others, even if they're fleeting, even if they end
  2. a weird knot of grief/fondness somewhere in your heart that gets tighter when you think about a guy with dot eyes that doesn't exist
  3. a bizarre kinship with a gag character because they're just like you godddddd they're just like youuuuuu
  4. twenty new expletives/exclamations in your vocabulary including but not limited to "I bunked it up", "what the bjork?", and "I floop the pig"
  5. autism probably

If this post reaches your dash after Jan 1st- YOU'RE NOT LATE to the party!!!

It's never too late to practice selective consumerism, and when companies try to pull bullshit it's up to us to say we won't stand for it by not continuing to use their product until they roll back the change. If we don't push back that's seen as consent, and more sites will follow in YouTube's (and Spotify's) footsteps.

And if this post reaches you before Jan 1st- GREAT! Please reblog (or even repost this on other socials- no need to credit!) to help get the word out as quick and as far as possible! [Edit: Please also keep reblogging this after the 1st as well to keep this circulating!!!]

And if you have more questions on the hows and why's they're under the cut:

I want white men to know that fascists will kill them.

I want ‘apolitical’ white men to know that fascists, once they have complete control of the state, will kill them. This may not seem obvious as fascists usually aren’t talking about killing you and that isn’t among their main intentions. But they will kill you. 

Maybe fascists will kill you because you were disobedient. A fascist regime requires strict unquestioning obedience to an illogical ever changing doctrine that frequently bites its own tail. Maybe you’ll tweet favourably about one prominent fascist and a week later he’ll fall out of favor with fascist leadership and they will kill you. Maybe they will kill you over a thing you put on your facebook ten years ago. Maybe your death will be entirely random. Because you were in the wrong place at the wrong time. Fascist states control their population through terror and random death is part of that terror. 

Maybe you’ll be lucky. Maybe you will be completely obedient, consequent in backing the right person as power changes and not a target of random state violence. In that case fascism will still kill you. 

You see, fascism loves nothing more than war. Fascism views war as an act that makes men ‘noble’. Fascism wants nothing more than to send it’s young white men off to to fight its dreamed of ‘Total War’. No really, total war is one of the ideals of fascism. And when the young white men run out, fascism will send the older men and the children and eventually it’s entire population. And since fascism values war above all else and hardly values human life, it will not hesitate to spill your blood needlessly. In 1939 there were in Germany roughly 34 million German white men who did not belong to any targetted minority group. In 1945 roughly 5 million of these were German white men dead. Do those sound like good odds to you?

Fascism, once in power, will kill you. Now that you know this, you can prevent it by making sure fascists do not get state control and by pushing back what power they already have. Targetted minorities have been pointing out the dangers of fascism for a long time. It’s time you started listening to them. They’re fighting for your lives too. 

Honestly I find this baffling about fascists. How do they feel safe supporting a movement with a history of turning on former supporters as soon as it’s in power?

Okay this is actually pretty valuable to understand, and it boils down to a few options

  • They don’t know. Never underestimate people’s ability to not know stuff. Maybe they had bad teachers, maybe they were sick that week, maybe they were sat next to the guy who never shut up and just didn’t absorb anything.
  • They do know and think it can’t happen to them. Maybe they’ve bought into the lie that the Glorious Leader cares about them personally and would never turn on them. Maybe they think they’re special enough to avoid being turned on. Maybe they did learn some surface level information about historical fascism but think they know how to fix it so that THIS time will be different.
  • They know it can happen, and they understand it will happen, and they’re going along for other reasons. This most often (but not exclusively) applies to people in dependent positions such as children/teens, who may go along with something because sure the fascism will kill them eventually, but the fascist with direct power over them will kill them today if they resist.

Crucially, I’m not saying any of these are right, or justified, or whatever else. You have to decide that for yourself, and you probably won’t find a one size fits all answer. But it’s hard to get people to change if you don’t understand how they got the way they are now.

In my experience most people don’t know this stuff. Fascism and how it operates is not a well-understood concept by the public because nazism and the Holocaust gets separated from the rest of history and treated as something that must never be compared to anything else.

I’d also add a 4th:

  • They think they’re not fascists. Most Trump supporters right now still don’t think of themselves as fascists. Neither do most supporters of the AfD, PVV, Reform UK party, etc. They clearly are fascists but they sleep at night by telling themselves that they’re not, that this is something different, that they’re the good kind of ultra-nationalist white supremacist authoritarian. And if you don’t think you’re a fascist, then none of fascist history seems to apply to you.

oh and bonus:

  • They think they’re going to be the one doing the purging, stabbing the inferior party members in the back, sending others to war, etc. Fascism is a supremacy ideology, and if you believe that you’re the best of the best at everything, it makes sense to believe that you’ll end up on top every time.

As a former librarian I'm actually required to remind you that many libraries that subscribe to Libby are opted into a program that lets you subscribe and access magazines for free with no wait

And that this is actually a really fun, low cost way to not only access news and larger cultural magazines, but also to get free patterns for many different crafts that you can screenshot if need be and that lower the financial barriers to entry for trying new things

From my experience working in both academic and public libraries, many libraries are use it or lose it funding-- I have to say this because a lot of patrons feel guilty for how much they use the library and how often they're using it funny enough, but the worst thing you can do for libraries is not try out new features and not use what's already given to you as much as possible.

The numbers that come as a result of your patronage are how most libraries justify their continued existence in times of financial hardship, which sucks but, go check out some magazines on Libby!

2026

  • FUCK HARD
  • FUCK FAST
  • FUCK BADLY
  • NEVER USE GENERATIVE AI
  • CREATE JOY
  • MUSIC ALWAYS
  • PSPSPSPS AT KITTIES ON THE STREET
  • YUMMY SOUP
  • go see the doctor about that thing
  • BE TRANSGENDER
  • KISS YOUR FRIENDS
  • EAT CHEESE
  • NEVER KILL YOURSELF
  • THRIVE

I’ve noticed some posts around about how you can’t romanticize your life during a fascist regime and while I deeply sympathize with this sentiment, I want you to try to understand that’s what they want you to believe.

Fascism thrives best in the cesspool of hopelessness. They want us so confused and hopeless that we give in. When you give in, you don’t fight back.

If you wait for life to look good to do the things that bring you joy; life will still be bad - you will just have less joy.

As someone who has struggled with my mental health a lot for the last thirty years, I know this struggle firsthand. And changing this belief system - the one where you spend all of your time expecting bad things so you won’t be surprised when they happen - it’s the hardest work that I have ever done. And I’m not perfect; I still have setbacks. I still experience really real fears about the state of the world and the US, in particular, because that’s where I live.

But I made a vow to myself that I will not let the choices of others ruin my life. When I made that vow, I was thinking of my parents - but it applies to the state of the government right now, too.

There are still flowers in my garden, and ripe tomatoes, and it’s almost pick-your-own apples season, and I have plans with my friends to go to as many cemetery ghost walks as we can find this October.

I still deserve to live. I still deserve to laugh. I still deserve to love. I still deserve to be as happy as I can be.

And you do, too.

Dan Savage.

*gestures broadly at the resistance movements in europe during the last reich*

“Where there's hope, there's life. It fills us with fresh courage and makes us strong again.”

— The Diary of a Young Girl, Anne Frank

“One is responsible to life: It is the small beacon in that terrifying darkness from which we come and to which we shall return. One must negotiate this passage as nobly as possible, for the sake of those who are coming after us.”

— The Fire Next Time, James Baldwin

at this time of year you might be tempted to create new rules for yourself, if you do, make sure that they are designed to serve you, not to punish yourself for imperfection.

sorry for being annoying [remembers that practicing gratitude instead of shame is better for my mental health and my relationships] thank you for letting me be annoying with you

i love seeing tendons move under my skin and being reminded im an awesome meat puppet #mypuppet

Free me from the meat. The meat. The meat. The meat the meat the meat themeat themeat themeat themeatthemeatthemeatthemeatthem

I have started unironically doing this. It is DEVASTATINGLY effective. You make friends SO easily.

Stop wishing people would do this and be the person who does this.

It also increases the amount of quality friends you get. Because people who are receptive to this kind of blunt openness tend to be people that arent going to look at you weird if you make a minor blunder

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