English translation: I've been called a monster for so long I can now only feel numbness at those words instead of pain, I'm satisfied with that
English translation: In some hidden depths of my heart I'm still disappointed and sad over what I now like to downplay as a "small setback" but is, in fact, the origin of my whole fucking problem. Just like when the two people I could consider similar to me - you, the "alien from outside", and Kusanali, "the rejected god", joined forces to oppose me. Which I have not forgotten, by the way
English translation: But things are different now. My astute, pain-averse mind now protects me with an additional layer of emotional suppression. Just as the rich do not quibble with the poor, I willingly distance myself from society, before you can reject me for the nth time, and will just shut my eyes when facing these """"trivial affairs""""