I just want to give up I’m tired from the bottom of my fucking soul like I don’t want to do this shit anymore like let me rest please I’ve had enough

guy who has a mental health condition that comes and goes: i’m cured this time actually i can feel it

same guy when they start having symptoms again: what the fuck is happening and why

those days where your entire train of thought is just “I CAN’T FUCKING DO THIS I CAN’T DO THIS I’M NOT GONNA MAKE IT PLEASE HELP ME” and whole time ur just like. sitting at your desk completely fine

Hanif Abdurraqib, They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us

when I forget to stay busy for one second and suddenly I get a wave of everything that has ever hurt me.

What if I’m unfixable? What if I’ll have to stay this way forever?

It is okay if the past still affects you.
You can understand why it happened. You can have insight. You can be thriving in most areas of your life. And still something small can trigger the old pain. This does not mean you have gone backwards. It means you are human. You are allowed to still be affected.

People love to say “At least you survived” as if survival erases the cost. Survival can be painful. Survival can be complicated. Survival can come with grief.
You do not owe anyone gratitude for experiences that broke you open.
Your feelings about what happened are valid.

i try to be nonchalant but i've only ever known being dramatic

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