i tried my best to wait for her, trying to fill my time with stupid chores or mindless activities, but nothing helped. and its not my fault. i'd been pent up since she left, the feeling of her lips on my skin and the smell of her cologne lingering all around me. maybe i should've went back to sleep. maybe i shouldn't have worn her shirt to bed. and i definitely shouldn't have worn her boxers.
i was a lost cause the second she walked out the door, but it wasn't my fault. the smell of her cologne fucked me up enough. it was fresh. soft. it was her. and laying in her pillows and blankets practically drowned me in it. and, it just happened. i didn't fully register it. my thighs squeezing together was innocent. out of my control. grabbing her blanket and bringing it between my legs was mindless, too. maybe it wasn't enough, i'm not sure, but soon a pillow was between my thighs instead. it really wasn't my fault. and at first, it was slow. needy. fervent. finding that perfect pace didn't take long, though, and soon i was rolling my hips and gritting my teeth to stop whines from coming out.
lines between needy and frantic blurred as i began to desperately chase that high. i leaned back with an arm behind me, balling her blanket into my hand and nearly shaking at the grip. i didn't want to be loud. part of me felt it was reserved to her, but another part felt it wasn't enough. only she could make me sound like that, and only she deserved it. so, i brought the hem of her shirt between my teeth, shutting myself up, but also baring my chest so i could play with my nipples. thinking of her hands instead of my own drew me closer, and soon i was a pathetic mess praying it would feel good despite her absence. she was in every corner of my mind. her hands, her mouth, her skin, and most of all, her voice. how smooth it is, how easy it rolls down my back, and how it's always the final nail in the coffin to make me cum. eyes screwed shut, trying my best to picture her tone while she fucks me so i can get what i need. her praise, her condescending laugh, her disappointed hums-
but. it sounded too clear. my hair was messy, cheeks flushed, and vision blurry the moment i hear that familiar hum. it was sharp. close. my lips part and her shirt falls from my mouth when i see her in the doorway, immediately slurring out mindless begs and stopping my hips under her gaze. but she wasn't mad, she was calm. sweet with her tone in a way that made my brows furrow. walking towards me, smiling soft and gently bringing my face in her hands as i nearly shook under her grasp. gently wiping my bottom lip while talking to me, "keep going, show me how bad you wanted it since you couldn't be patient." shaking my head, chin quivering, whining, even begging for her to not make me. but her fingers slowly push past my lips, fucking my mouth while she tsks at me disappointedly. "you can be good, baby. show me what you needed so bad." my hips would instantly pick back up from her voice alone, nevertheless her fingers fucking into my mouth and toying with my tongue. my pathetic moans would be suppressed with my mouth full, my mind racing, yet i'd listen to her. keeping my gaze steady on her, my hands on her hips, and my lips around her fingers while i continue riding it out. going until i couldn't anymore, or going until she said it was enough