The only thing I've done so far is vent about dumb shit. I haven't done anything productive here or irl. I have two keystone tests (state tests) next week and I haven't studied for them at all. I really don't do anything at all. I'm not in any clubs and I barely hang out with my friends. I don't do anything productive with all the free time I have. Even if I spent just a little bit of time working on something each day it would have a lot of progress by now. I've always dreamed of having this game project I work on daily and enjoy. I want to make a boomer shooter type of game for a while. I haven't even brainstormed it. I'm never gonna work on it so I don't know why I even think about it. I lost a lot of hope I had for this year almost instantly. I really didn't do anything last year. I still have that same guilt and regret I have from that friend group. They all hate me. They've all moved on...

im ending the post here i dont want this to be really long