i keep falling maybe half the time
  • remember to cry for help without guilt-tripping. i know it feels like you’ve been abandoned and betrayed, but it’s probably not true, and it’s not okay to accuse the people around you of something they might not have done.

    “i guess none of you like me” could be better phrased as “i feel unloved right now”

    “but nobody cares anyway” could be better phrased as “i feel insignificant and i need reassurance”

    rather than assuming others’ feelings, give them time to explain them. you’ll usually get a much better answer.

  • This is really important for future predictions, too. “You’re eventually going to leave me” is impossible for someone else to disprove without just sticking around forever, but no one wants to stick around when they’re being constantly accused of future abandonment. Giving someone no choice but to either stay with you forever in order to prove you wrong or leave you and prove you right is incredibly emotionally manipulative, whether you mean it to be or not.

    “I get scared sometimes because I’m afraid of being alone again” is easier to address and doesn’t leave your partner(s)/friend(s) feeling as though they’re being preemptively accused of something.  

  • Well, I have quite a few thoughts about Black Sails episodes XXVII and XXVIII (3 x 09 and 3 x 10), but the one that resounds the loudest is the thematic confusion caused by Silver.

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  • better put some thoughts in a post.

    i think that the writers aren't sure how to cast the revolution tbh. i think they want the drama of the sea battle but they don't really want to let flint appear too 'good'? i genuinely think they are afraid of letting him look too much like a nice guy at this point. (and in s4 they kinda sideline him almost?)

    i think that is sort of works for me that silver pulls back on it, because it's too hard and too much and he doesn't really have any trust in people and so on and so forth. and i also think that perhas flint isn't fully committed to a revolution just yet?

    idk overall i think it may be a doylist problem of not wanting to give the narrative too much direction just yet.

  • You reminded me of that often memed moment of Silver's from the second season.

    Silver: So I actually have to fight him?

    Flint: Well, what the fuck did you think was gonna happen?

    - Black Sails, IX

    Sometimes I feel as though Flint and Silver exist in entirely different realities, and Silver (at least in the first three seasons) is surprised when these alternative worlds clash.

    I agree with you about it being "too much" for Silver. I find his partnership with Flint shaky at best, by the third finale, and that he shows himself to be less than desirable as a brother-in-arms. (How is it that Jack Rackham, of all men, fills this role better?!)

    I have some thoughts to pen regarding the season four opener, especially concerning the time skip, and how Flint and Silver's partnership happens entirely off screen. For someone like me, who was not sold on the two of them as a dynamic duo as of episode 3x10, this jump forward ends up being the weakest part of my viewing experience.

    I agree that the writers did not want to commit to "Flint is entirely in the right" in the third season, and I wish they would have framed the ideological conflict more as Flint versus Rogers, than as Silver questioning Flint.

  • ahahaha you’re someone after my own heart!

    i think silver being so shaky and kinda mismatched with flint is what makes shipping them for me so impossible. it’s like silver never quite sees who flint is. even when he has it explained to him, even when he sees flint in action.

    i think the s4 opening isn’t weak visually, but i remember watching the episode straighter after s3 and it just not matching anything i thought it should match. and i mean i think that is by design, but s4 is pretty weak to me. it never really feels like all the little strands of plot quite come together and coalesce. (in my weaker moments i pretend the show ended with s3)

    i think the writing was supposed to lead up to treasure island ( i mean, obviously) but the betrayal had to be personal and this is why it makes sense to make it a conflict between flint and silver, but it would have been more interesting to me, to have flint face off with rogers, for sure.

  • Rackham: ...a war to plan for.

    Silver: I've heard you use that word a thousand times. A war against England, now a war to reclaim Nassau. But hearing him use it just now, so near the actual arrival of it, it sounds different. It feels different. Not far from here, the fortifications are already built from which in a few days' time you'll look out and stare down King George's navy.

    Flint: Are you having second thoughts?

    Silver: Aren't you? All of the blood that's about to be spilt, all the things about to be lost... aren't you?

    Flint: Well, I wish it wasn't necessary, if that's what you're asking.

    - Black Sails, XXVIII

    I can never decide if Silver is meant to represent a rough sort of Quakerism or voice of the modern viewer.

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  • not to make this an argument about authirty or anything, idk if you have heard interviews with steinberg (that’s his name right, i hope that’s his name). he’s said he nted the conflict to be about the cost of war, vs i guess the potential revolutionary achievements.

    i mean, the show is several years old now, i wonder if he’d write something different now, something more akin to andor, and if he’d think his story was cowardly.

    i mean, silver is a coward. he stays a coward, that’s for sure.

    i feel like, on a personal level, black sails was one of the first times that the story succeeded in bringing me on board with violence. i think because flint feels so convincing to me. and i think in s3 he is definitely convincing as a leader of the fight, but in s4 it feels like he’s also good at actually convincing people of his ideas (except siler, never silver).

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