I am involved in way too many fandoms, so here is a place to collect them all. Current and ongoing interests: TLOU (both game and show), Arcane, Horizon (video games), Drarry, Star Trek, Heated Rivalry, and X-Men First Class. Come same hi!
I feel like you can sort of tell how long (or not) someone has existed in fannish spaces by how outraged they get about things like this. Like rings in a tree trunk lol. I’ve been in so many fandoms. At least one, but often multiple at the same time, since I was a teenager. I’ve seen just. Everything.
Sex pollen. Mpreg. Incest. Monster fucking. Tentacles. Pairings like Snape/Hermione that would be crazy abusive and illegal if they were real. Wild kinks. The babygirlification of all kinds of villains. So much RPF (the ‘I sincerely believe they are secretly a couple’ kind and the 'this is fictional but it’s fun to imagine they’re in love’ kind.)
You learn to just scroll past shit you don’t like or unfollow people or filter tags. The tldr of fandom is that humans are weird as fuck. And creative, and unhinged, and traumatized, and talented. And amazing. And every single thing that you clutch your pearls about 'well surely someone doesn’t want to read/write THAT!’ - someone does. Probably lots of people do. And those people are perfectly normal. In their offline lives, they’re parents and siblings and they have jobs and friends and they go about their lives and they don’t cause any harm. And that’s the sticking point. There’s this really concerning, frankly highly Evangelical idea that if someone enjoys the wrong kind of fiction, they are obviously a Bad Person. But nothing is that simple, and thought crimes aren’t real, and you definitely have some thoughts or ideas that someone else would find fucked up. You don’t have to like every kind of fic that exists. I certainly don’t. But shaming people for their harmless fantasies about fictional characters is so boring. I saw Goody Proctor enjoying a Toxic Ship! Good for you, I’ll alert the pope.
love that ilya is actually kinda confused when he meets shane for the first time but then as soon as shane goes for the SECOND handshake in a 2 minutes interaction his whole body language changes and hes like oh. OH hes flirting with me,, and he was !! ! (sighs) shane hollander youre so cute and lovable. ilya didnt stand a chance
I’ve talked about this in tags but I need it to be a full post. There’s something about Ilya wearing long sleeves here that kills me. I love that Shane is in a cozy hoodie, too, but it doesn’t grab my attention as much because he’s not dressed that differently from his usual wardrobe.
But Ilya? He’s constantly showing off his body whenever he has the chance. This man is allergic to sleeves. He usually rips his shirt off at the first opportunity.
Ilya’s usual wardrobe (or sometimes lack thereof lol) reflects the way he views his body as a commodity, like it’s the only thing he has to offer, so he’s constantly showing it off.
But then we have this beautiful montage showing the ways that Shane and Ilya have slotted into each other’s lives in a pretty regular routine. It’s a hot montage, but it’s also creeping toward a feeling of domesticity, especially in this moment.
Wearing this shirt to a hookup shows that Ilya has reached a new level of comfort with Shane. He doesn’t feel the same pressure to play the seduction game. Shane is going to kiss him the same way regardless of what he’s wearing.
That plus the fact that Shane is taking control and pushing Ilya against the glass. Ilya’s whole demeanor reflects the way he feels comfortable and taken care of in this moment and it does something particular to my heart.
I don’t think Ilya is consciously thinking about why he dresses all comfy cozy for this hookup. He still has a while before he internalizes the truth that Shane wants him just as he is. But Ilya also tends to act based on feeling before he fully understands the subconscious behind those actions.
I love this demonstration of instinctual comfort he’s feeling with Shane, even if he’s not actively realizing it.
