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Star | 18 | She/Her | Current Fixation: Deltarune

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My ROTTMNT fanfictions are For A Better Time, The Sky Is Still Red, and A Tear In My Eye (and a Shell on my Back). More information here!

My art tag is #this seems good enough as an art tag and things related to my fics will be tagged with #Star's fanfiction shenanigans. General blogging is #Star's yammering. Traditional drawings will also be tagged with #My kingdom for the pen. Things related to my original stories will be tagged #Certified Star Originals. Find my reblogs at @cartooncaptive.

sometimes i wonder if we have forgotten that sharing creative work is, fundamentally, a bid for human connection. like I'm not posting art or fic for 'engagement' i'm posting it looking for other sickos to play with! i'd be making it anyway for my own gratification because there's something wrong with me, i'm sharing it hoping we can have something wrong with us together <3

For those who don't know, a few days ago Toby posted several snippets of dialogue from Deltarune Chapter 5 on his Twitter, and these included the start of a conversation with Seam about the Shadow Crystals. https://x.com/tobyfox/status/2006883392516927960

So I've been thinking about the Shadow Crystals probably being vessels for Determination in Deltarune and Determination in general. I haven't been into UTDR for very long so most of my knowledge on Determination comes from Mollystars' Device Theory/analysis series, which brings up that Determination works demonstrably differently from its behaviour in Deltarune, one reason being that the player has three save slots but obviously not three souls.

Determination in UT grants the ability to create save states to literally de-terminate, to go back to before one dies or to halt death for the Amalgamates. Determination in Deltarune, however, is possessed by both human and monster Lightners, all Lightners in fact, and while it's possible Kris's Determination has a hand in allowing them to revive, they don't have total power over their save files whereas the player or Soul and Gaster do, which leads me personally to believe that saving is not necessarily a power of Determination.

We know that all Lightners possess "this power of Determination", implying Darkners don't, and that Darkners can be driven mad upon attempting to use a small amount of it. So what is Determination? I feel that Determination is the power of control over one's own actions, life, or narrative, the power to determine... well, anything (This may have also been present in Undertale as Flowey and the player were able to determine the ending of the game because of their power to reset, again idk very much about that, sorry).

Since ch4 I've largely been looking at DR as a world where agency truly cannot exist because it's fictional, the actions of every single character are quite literally determined by a script, and the prophecy is a representation of the plotline that the game will follow no matter what, so under this lens, how does it make sense that any character can have Determination? The answer lies in the mechanics of a Dark World's creation by the hand of a Lightner. Everything about a Dark World is determined by the Lightner that created it, although probably subconsciously. The world and its inhabitants are based on the Lightner's experience and memories relating to the space the Fountain was created in, thus the majority of the aspects of a Darkner's life are determined by Lightners, and that is why they are perceived as having Determination by Queen.

Perhaps when a Darkner uses a Shadow Crystal, it allows them to see the power of Determination, but not truly use it. Jevil realized that no matter what he did, he could not change the course of events and he had no tangible impact on his own existence. He may have found this revelation "freeing" since it meant he could do whatever he wanted, but he was shunned for his behaviour and became isolated in his knowledge of the world. An intrinsic part of Spamton's character was that he was "unlucky" as an Addison, no matter how hard he worked he could not become successful on his own. It wasn't until he got help from a mysterious entity that his work could have any effect on his status in life, he may have been determined, but he lacked the power to determine his own fate. For his entire existence his failures and successes are determined for him, he literally could never have gotten Neo on his own because his failure was guaranteed by the powers that be, he needs someone with the power to create change in the world to decide to help him.

Gerson is a mysterious case. He was a Lightner possessing Determination in life, and he chose not to use the Shadow Crystal. Is this because he already understood Determination and his relationship with reality, or because he still had it? Going by the logic that a typical Darkner cannot independently act in ways that will affect the story and he very much can, I would say that he must in fact still have Determination, however the mechanics of all of this is still not set in stone so at this moment we can't really know for sure.

I don't really know much else in regards to this particular theory, like what the Knight having a Shadow Crystal implies, why they wanted Gerson to use one, what the flavour text for using them in the Light World has to do with Determination at all, how exactly Ralsei works (he closed the Great Door in ch1, does this mean he has some amount of Determination, or does that not count as affecting events? My head hurts). It does draw one last thing to my mind though...

Ever since I learned about Friend's heavy association with RNG/chance/luck, I've sort of assumed that they're an entity with power over it, and (also making a pretty big assumption that they're Spamton's benefactor) that they literally changed Spamton's luck value, or odds of success, in order to let him become a big shot, then set it back to zero after the last phone call. It's only now though that I realize how important random chance might be in a world where so many events are predetermined. There is a tangible relationship between luck and fate. I wonder what it could mean...

(Please don't take any of my interpretations as attacks and try to fight me over them, I'm just having fun speculating out here! Be kind to your fellow fans 🙏)

It was probably inevitable that I was gonna make a lyric page for this AU lol. Don't like these as much as my previous ones, but I love Spencer sm I can't just not share it!

Fic progress has been disrupted so I might just make a comic instead idk

Dead Air AU belongs to @ecto-hazard and 2 Dead 2 Air is by @34521509436720948and2. Lyrics are from The Medical Anomaly by Riproducer

imagine me pointing at this with enthusiasm and babbling incoherently because that is how i feel about this. i also know and love riproducer's medical anomaly so it's like i'm, as they say, "seeing a celebrity" right now

this is so evocative and raw. i love seeing these, thank you for making this art. i need to finish chapter 2 so bad

I freaking love Spencer and your fic and all of your Dead Air/2 Dead 2 Air art ghrhfghrg. Quite normal, I am! Very normal also about RIP songs and may or may not have noticed one that fits Spencer even better. Maybe :]. I don't think I'll be putting this one down for a while

Happy two and a half-ish years to me drawing my favourite characters suffering while listening to The Medical Anomaly by RIP on loop

It was probably inevitable that I was gonna make a lyric page for this AU lol. Don't like these as much as my previous ones, but I love Spencer sm I can't just not share it!

Fic progress has been disrupted so I might just make a comic instead idk

Dead Air AU belongs to @ecto-hazard and 2 Dead 2 Air is by @34521509436720948and2. Lyrics are from The Medical Anomaly by Riproducer

HI THIS FUCKS SEVERELY <3

Hi!!! Your AU also fucks severely!!!!!!!!

It was probably inevitable that I was gonna make a lyric page for this AU lol. Don't like these as much as my previous ones, but I love Spencer sm I can't just not share it!

Fic progress has been disrupted so I might just make a comic instead idk

Dead Air AU belongs to @ecto-hazard and 2 Dead 2 Air is by @34521509436720948and2. Lyrics are from The Medical Anomaly by Riproducer

I finished zero rendered art pieces this year. I spent the first six months depressed and unfocused with no consistent hyperfixation. But I'm happy with my art this year. I progressively switched from drawing digitally to drawing with pens in my sketchbook, and I didn't post most of it because I drew it for friends. It's been a difficult year for me creatively, but I am proud of the art that I've made. If I never make another full digital piece I will still be proud of my art.

Drawing in pen has made me very happy, and I plan to continue posting it when I can. I love my art. I love making art. If you're seeing this, have a happy new year, and be proud of your accomplishments, even if they're not up to your previous standards.

Well OBVIOUSLY they just need SOMEONE to possess the body and walk it off a cliff. This couldn’t possibly go wrong.

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when this popped up in my inbox, i honest to goodness cackled

(dead air au by @ecto-hazard)

these ghosts are so needy man

Im absolutely glued to this idea. Its so fucked up i love it. I really like the idea of Spencer trying to puppet their own body. The angst and humor potential of this whole idea is off the charts. And the name 2 dead 2 air is fucking sending me

“the green pippins is named battat” common misconception! battat is the name of the minigame. you’re thinking of battat’s monster

WARNING: Nosebleed, scroll past if squeamish

So I mayyyy have binged the entirety of @ecto-hazard's Dead Air AU and fallen in love... this isn't that, this is the spin-off, 2 Dead 2 Air LMAO I just really like Spencer and it's more fun when they're going through maximum horrors. 2 Dead 2 Air is @34521509436720948and2's baby

Transcript under the cut

i am still in disbelief at this art and i wish i could fully express my appreciation for this in a way that felt satisfactory. this comic is awesome. i love your art style; the script is great and the characterization is consistent; and delightfully you hit a particular atmosphere with this comic that i feel suits the spin-off AU so well.

and, additionally, spencer is so cute here. as is stan but i like spencer a lot.

the last five panels have a dramatic yet humble framing to them. the fourth-to-last in particular has a sense of liminality to it that i love.

this is a wonderful gift. thank you for making it, and for sharing it.

Thank you so much for the kind words <33333 this spin-off has been giving me so many thoughts for the past few days. I'm writing a fic that's a sort of sequel to this comic right now actually, writing is quite a bit harder than comics so it might take a while but I'm very happy with it so far, stay tuned <3333

WARNING: Nosebleed, scroll past if squeamish

So I mayyyy have binged the entirety of @ecto-hazard's Dead Air AU and fallen in love... this isn't that, this is the spin-off, 2 Dead 2 Air LMAO I just really like Spencer and it's more fun when they're going through maximum horrors. 2 Dead 2 Air is @34521509436720948and2's baby

Transcript under the cut

Oops I did more. You can tell who gives me the most thoughts by the amount of blood they're covered in

Diagram I made to explain the importance of me having a hyperfixation at all times

Many people seem to have the misunderstanding that if one doesn’t have a hyperfixation, they will have more time to think normal thoughts. This however, is incorrect. The amount of normal thoughts thunk by the average neurodivergent stays relatively the same, it’s the amount of bad thoughts thunk that changes depending on the intensity of ones’ hyperfixation. Yes I am a neuroscientist trust me

Hoo boy the hyperfixation is hyperfixating. I wanna make Spencer sadder so bad. Let them taste life again after walking through death with their eyes closed and hit them with the brutal reality that what they have been doing is not "living." Even with their soul inside it, the body they've been wearing, though breathing it may be, has remained a corpse.

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