In the end, our grandpa didn't do what he did because he's an evil pervert he did it because violating the rights of children is normal. He isn't an evil pedophile, he's an adult with power over me. I don't think he did it for sexual pleasure, I just think that it was a way to assert power of his grandkid. Painting him as an Evil Pedo only hinders understanding why he did what he did, and stops us from fighting this system.
Ultimately, he has nothing in common with like, my friends who find lolis hot. To say he does is stupid and actively stops us from dismantling the problematic systems. The hurt my friends have done to children is not comparable to A Parent.
I don't have a pretty story to tell. I didn't get to "kill my local pedophile". I had to live with it, he did that and got away with it, because that's how these things work. Fantasies must sound so nice. In reality like many others he doesn't have a secret stash of CP or whatever yall like to imagine.
I don't want him to die. He's my grandpa. I hate what he did but he's still my grandpa. I internalized what he did as okay, as acceptable for a long time, because he didn't fit the specter of the Pedophile that we're taught about. He was just an adult with power.
So yeah. You can sit with that dream, and know that the only thing you do is make it worse for girls like me. The only way to fight CSA is to remove adults from power over children. "Pedophiles" are an obfuscation, and I hate what you people do to victims.
