another thing about setting hamlet at christmas is that it reflects the beautiful human experience of having a long holiday stay at your parents’ house that makes you feel like you are going insane

i am not well understood. which is also my fault

i dont let them research me

problematic will to live gap

plausible deniability remains highly erotic

let's convince ourselves that this is okay. let's rely on technicalities to exonerate ourselves. let's avoid looking what we're doing in the eye. let's live under its shadow, both aware of what this is but unwilling to say it out loud, since that will shatter the careful illusion we've built

They want me for my solemn yet tender acts of service and aura of barely-leashed violent intent

hannibal scene

art will save you, being unreasonably passionate about something niche will save you, letting past sources of joy show you the way back to yourself will save you, earnestness over composure will save you, the natural world will save you, caring for something bigger than yourself will save you, daring to be seen will save you, kindness not as a whim but a principle will save you, appreciation as a practice will save you, daring to try something new will save you, grounding will save you, love will save you, one good nights sleep will save you

someone is putting up pictures of me around town and they all say I’m ‘wanted’. which is nice

New and old stuff

one thing about me is im gonna be writing, im always writing. another thing about me is of course im not writing why would you think im writing

hi *without intention or ability to start a conversation*

what if i go to the doctor and they tell me im fine. what if they tell me nothing's wrong actually, this is how everyone lives and don't i know that?

they were nice to me actually. they stole my blood and told me im not crazy and i was very very brave about it.

insurance is a nightmare and im never going to the doctor again. Thank You