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  • siriuspiggyback -> cowboyklaus

    #url change #catch me pretending jkr doesn't exist
    Oct 10 2020
  • mompleaser:

    opiumvampire:

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    this one. fuck this poem.

    i wanted to share this not to come off as corrective but because i actually think it really adds to the text to know that not only is it not from a poem, but that there’s a fuller version of this quote that is just as good. and it’s actually really good advice on how to a write emotion without becoming sentimental. james hall, the interviewer, is himself a poet worth looking into if you’re unfamiliar.


    James Hall: I love that you risk sentimentality in the poems. Can you talk about how you construct a poem’s emotion without letting that emotion subsume the poem? What tools are available to a poet to mitigate emotion successfully?

    Richard Siken: I didn’t see it as risking anything, and I suppose the tool for mitigating emotion is undercutting, but I’ll try to answer the question sideways: Even if you don’t believe in God, you have to believe in narrative. Things happen, one after another, world without end. Just because you’re self-aware doesn’t mean you can change what’s happening. Eventually someone is going to break your heart. Eventually something you love is going to be taken away. And then you will fall to the floor crying. And then, however much later, it is finally happening to you: you’re falling to the floor crying thinking “I am falling to the floor crying” but there’s an element of the ridiculous to it—you knew it would happen and, even worse, while you’re on the floor crying you look at the place where the wall meets the floor and you realize you didn’t paint it very well and when you’re having sex with your next lover on this very floor they will also notice that you didn’t paint it very well and they will think less of you for it. And then you think “Is that sentence too long?” And then you have to hold the  contradictions of sobbing uncontrollably and wondering about grammar in your head at the same time. I think if you are true to the entire experience, not just the sad part, you don’t risk sentimentality because you’re not overloading the experience with fake, melodramatic feeling. I also hear that whispering helps.


    here’s to everyone who looked for this in crush and was confused because it isn’t there. the original interview is kind of hard to source nowadays because of how often it’s misattributed: https://web.archive.org/web/20060501211545/http://www.gulfcoastmag.org/GCIssues/gc18.1%20folder/18.1%20Samples/18.1IntSiken(Hall).html

    (via inkinhart)

    Jan 16 2026
  • unraveling-plot:

    The Murderbot Diaries was like here’s a person. The person doesn’t feel like a person.

    The person is starting to believe it’s a person, and its pronouns are still it/its. It’s uncomfortable with eye contact, it hates being touched, it doesn’t like social interaction, it doesn’t have great control of it’s facial expressions. And the person’s friends all know this and respect it, and it can show affection how and when it feels and it’s ok if it isn’t “normal.” It isn’t questioned or doubted in its care because of this.

    The person processes emotions through media, and uses it to figure out what to do in social situations. It has complicated feelings about what it was meant to be and reconciling that with who it wants to be. It doesn’t always feel like a person but it’s starting to accept that it is one.

    Also it has laser weapons in its arms.

    (via jauntylittlefrillyboy)

    Jan 16 2026
  • jwolfes:

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    NEXT TO NORMAL
    West End

    (via cabeswatersedge)

    Jan 16 2026
  • fipindustries:

    if i ever become a showrunner i will actually do the fake series finalle followed by the true ending where the popular gay ship is confirmed just so i can forever poison fandom with the idea that it can happen for real and then they will truly never let that hope go for all other subsequent shows they watch henceforth. just for the sake of making the world a worse place

    (via ancientstone)

    Jan 16 2026
  • sometiktoksarevalid:

    (Source: tiktok.com, via theresatvjoe)

    Jan 15 2026
  • cutemothman:

    i loveeeeeee nonlinear storytelling. show me where we are. now show me how we got here. the end before the beginning. show me how it was inevitable or how many chances we had to change things(nothing was ever going to change). let’s meet in the middle as all the puzzle pieces slide into place hell yeah that’s the good shit.

    (via myeyesarenotblue)

    Jan 15 2026
  • calamitydaze:

    they should invent a disproportionate emotional response that goes away when you rationally understand the cause

    (via myeyesarenotblue)

    Jan 15 2026
  • boycritter:

    i need a boyfriend. i need a girlfriend. i need to be single forever. i need a toxic situationship. i need a problematically older man to be homoerotically involved with. i need to have gay sex. i need no one to ever touch me ever again in any way. i need top surgery. i need a hug.

    (via anglophile-rin)

    Jan 15 2026
  • the-spaced-out-ace:

    maybe happy ending is great because it said “fuck the trope that all non-humans are autistic coded. oliver has robot autism. but only oliver” and i really appreciate that

    Jan 14 2026
  • captain-price-unofficially:

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    You couldn’t publish this today.

    You’d have to hide it under seven layers of metaphor.

    (via jauntylittlefrillyboy)

    Jan 14 2026
  • daughterofsarenrae:

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    Sometimes i randomly remember “who are you? I love you too” and have to have a little cry about it

    (via jettreno)

    Jan 14 2026
  • jimmythejiver:

    un-monstre:

    un-monstre:

    Hate it when TikTok farm cosplayers and cottagecore types say stuff like “I’m not going to use modern equipment because my grandmothers could make do without it.” Ma'am, your great grandma had eleven children. She would have killed for a slow cooker and a stick blender.

    I’ve noticed a sort of implicit belief that people used to do things the hard way in the past because they were tougher or something. In reality, labor-saving devices have historically been adopted by the populace as soon as they were economically feasible. No one stood in front of a smoky fire or a boiling pot of lye soap for hours because they were virtuous, they did it because it was the only way to survive.

    Taking these screenshots from Facebook because they make you log in and won’t let you copy and paste:

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    (via ashfae)

    Jan 13 2026
  • throwupgirl:

    i have to say it was really bold and innovative for maggie stiefvater to say. in my YA romance series centered around a dark prophecy of a girl being destined to kill her true love. the girl and her true love will actually end up being in a throuple with another guy who has absolutely fuckall to do with the prophecy. who without warning just sort of showed up when no one asked him to one day. sat in between them. and very seriously said. scoot over. i love yall.

    (via deep-hearts-core)

    Jan 13 2026
  • jwolfes:

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    JACK WOLFE
    Broadway debut as ORPHEUS in HADESTOWN
    September 2nd, 2025
    📹 @bikinibottomdayz

    (via pancakehauses)

    Jan 13 2026
  • felipeiv:

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    (via anglophile-rin)

    Jan 12 2026