when you want to go home, but home doesn't exist yet
when home is a place in your future, walls you have yet to decorate, beloveds you have yet to meet. when home is unpainted walls and unhung wallpaper and objects on a shelf in the back of your mind, a thousand small memories you can't remember because they haven't happened yet, because you are still in the process of building the foundations, still gathering your materials together
when you can't return home because first you have to build home


