well, it is that time of the year again. and i really don't feel like THAT many years have passed, but by 2026 i'll be celebrating a whole 8 year anniversary on making stupid songs. my first song ever would now be in kindergarden, wth??? so in 2-3 years i'll be celebrating a CENTURY of making stupid songs? it's surreal.
and that's the word i'd describe 2025 as; surreal. it wasn't great nor ass, after all, it was 365,25 days of raw unfiltered life. i guess i didn't go through a pandemic, war, or a global economic crisis this year, so it is a regular average year in the grand scheme of things.
music wise, this year was, i guess, the 2nd or 3rd most productive year of mine, after 2024 and 2020. but it was my most successful in numbers i'd say, since i've had 3 original songs frontpaged! this year was all about polishing the styles i experimented with last year, and even diving my nose into lyrical songs, -sing-songs if you may- and it seems to have (paid?!) off!
paid, yes! this is the first time i've ever made a dime from my music, starting from the ripe age of 11 years old to now, i have not received a single cent from my songs, until this year, and it means a ton to me to see the love some people have in themselves to spend their hard-earned money and time on a still underground and barely known NG artist. i got both the ability for the first time to withdraw the money i made from streaming services (starting from 2020), AND i had some sales from some wonderful people on Bandcamp.
life wise, this year has been another one of the first-time everything, roller coaster type year, if that makes any sense. i mean, every year in puberty is something new, however this year pulled a full 180 degrees on life. i finished school, got a job, leaved a job, joined uni, got a job again, met soo many people, like SO many, like exercised-my-face-recognition type many. this year was like a 1+1 year of experiences sale offer.
however, as you know from my last post (if you even follow me and check regularly for my news like a sane person would) i don't have the time i had while still in school, the game is a lot different now. the concept of free time doesn't exist, every tick of the clock is dedicated to something; work, transit, uni, night out, and finally rest at the end of the long day. its the first time i've ever lived like this, and maybe this IS adult life after all, and i'm finally getting a feel for my parents and the "grown ups" now. it doesn't bother me, but i have a lot less time on my hands for music. maybe i'll figure it out.
SO yeah, that's mostly life, a big inconsistent mess, and maybe that's not necessarily bad. isn't it wrong to strive for consistency in a world where even electrons move at random? maybe that doesn't make up for my messy room though. some consistency is good, i guess.
2025's dim is out. happy 2026, or happy MMXXVI for my fellow romans.