how can we go back to being friends?☆⋆
SUMMARY: You hook up with your best friend, Jason, and now you don’t know how to act around each other.
WARNINGS: implied sex, mentions of sex (obvi)
TAGS: FLUFF chat it’s fluff, idiots in love, confessions and kisses, flower bouquets girlies i’m here for you, reader and Jason are overthinkers i fear, jason’s been down bad for a long time, implied(?) size difference? non explicit flash backs to the sex. ‘fuck’ is said like twice.
ᯓ★ NOTES:was this inspired by that sombr song? no actually but it fits perfectly hence the name. i hate the ending ngl, i wanted to write some lovey-dovey dialogue but im so tired that i blanked out so bad😭😭
You couldn’t bring yourself to call it a mistake.
That’s because it wasn’t. It wasn’t a drunken onetime shenanigan or a ‘spur of the moment’ collapse in judgment from both sides. It was, however, a deliberate result of endless teasing, ‘harmless’ flirting, casual codependency and being the literal centre of each other’s worlds.
There was no denying it anymore, you were in love with your best friend. In love with Jason.
…What the hell are you supposed to do now?
Well now, or rather for the past 10 minutes, you were panic walking through your entire apartment, gnawing on your lower lip. Precisely, 11 minutes ago, Jason texted you that he was coming over. Already a red flag, Jason never announced or informed when he was going to come over, he had an extra key, he always just let himself in.
Onto that, for as long as you’d known Jason, he was never one for relationships, one-night-stands here and there. A singular serious-ish relationship. But other than that, nothing, zilch. So there was a very very real possibility that he’s about the end your friendship—whatever the heck you too have now, all for good. Gone. Just thinking about it made your heart burn.
Your entire body flinches, snaps out of your thought bubble as the sound of the doorbell shrieks through the space.
He’s here. He’s here and you still haven’t decided what to say or do or what direction your friendship is going to take now. You are neither equipped for this, nor were ready.
You walk up to your front door, stretching on your toes to look through the peep-hole to see the man you, contrary to the usual happiness, were dreading to see this time.
The sex was good, great, the best of your entire life. The aftercare was just as good. The two of you smiling, giggling, it was soft, precious, intimate and a million other positive adjectives.
But then Jason disappeared in the morning. Well, he didn’t ghost you. You woke up to an empty bed, a post it saying something about Bats needing to see him and that he’d already prepared your favourite breakfast which waited patiently on the kitchen isle.
Through the peep-hole, you can see he’s nervous, you’ve been around him long enough to know his ticks. He’s holding something behind his back, as his other hand reaches to ring the doorbell again.
Jason didn’t know how to do this. He hadn’t done this much at all. Between coming back to life, actually getting used to being an adult, and meeting you, he didn’t have time for entertain romantic prospects.
He did date Artemis, but it felt wrong. She was wonderful, the best, but…It was wrong. To be dating someone else when his heart, hopefully not too obviously, belonged to you.
Gosh, you had charmed him for the moment you two first stumbled into each other’s presence and no one has ever made him feel the way you have. The comfort, the trust. Can’t be replicated.
Jason had told himself that he’d kiss you, confess to you, ask you out, soon. Soon became next week when you told him you were going on a blind date. Next week slowly creeped into a year before he lost hope. Then last night happened. It just felt right. Meant to be.
Now he’s standing in front of your door, just hoping you’d give him a chance.
You take a deep breath, put on your bravest smile and swing open the door. “Hi.” You breath out as you come face to face — more like your face to his chest. “Hey, doll.” The nickname slips out his tongue as easy as always.
Jason looks at ease now, a red hoodie under a black leather jacket to battle the Gotham chills, looking unfairly well-built, a small flashback to how his body felt against yours. You finally got to study the muscles you had just seen ripple under his t-shirts or from afar when he’d randomly go shirtless.
He brings out what he was hiding, a bouquet. A thoughtful and deliberate arrangement of your favourite flowers in your favourite colours, wrapped in brown paper and secured with a red ribbon tied off in a bow. The fragrance hits you immediately, a soft smile gracing your face.
Frankly early on in your friendship, you had told Jason how you loved bouquets and how none of your ex-boyfriends ever got you one. After that, he made it his mission to bring them to you at least once a week. But this time, it felt different, it was different.
You go to grab the bouquet but he leans in for a…kiss? But when he realises that you aren’t going in for a kiss, Jason pivots, turning his head and wrapping an arm around your waist for a hug. He immediately cringes internally at the awkwardness as your hands come to rest on his back, giving him an awkward pat on the back.
Great. You two went from a entire night of passionate love making to awkward hugs. Simply. Lovely.
The hug is quick anyway, when he pulls away, his face is flushed red, the way you saw it so many times last night. You step back with a soft chuckle as he enters the apartment, holding out the flowers to you.
You blabber soft compliments about the thoughtful gift as you move around your apartment in habit, readying a vase for the flowers. Jason lets you rant off as he kicks off his boots, getting comfortable.
When you’re finally ready, you quiet down. Leaning your back against the cool marble of your dinning table. Jason strides towards you until he’s a respectful distance away. Distance that somehow felt loud, like a reminder that the following conversation could go down as bad road. He simply stuffs his hands into his pants pockets.
“We should talk.” You start.
“Jay, if you want to act like it didn’t happen then—“
To say you were stunned would be an understatement. The confession blatantly hangs in the air for a couple of seconds till you process what he said. He’s in love with you. He’s in love. With you? He’s in love with you!
You open your mouth and close it a couple of times as Jason watches with a scrunched face, wondering if he just fucked it all up. You bring up a hand, palm covering your mouth as you just blink at him for a moment before there’s laughter.
Now Jason’s the stunned one. You’re laughing. “Oh my goodness.” You push off the counter and close the gap between the two of you immediately, cupping both his cheeks and pulling him down for a kiss. The kiss is brief, before you pull back, “I thought you were going to reject me for good.”
Jason’s face is painted in genuine offence as you’re bury yours into his chest, your hands on his shoulders as his hands find your hips. Even before he can ask what the hell you meant, you continue, “You don’t date at all! I thought I was going to be just another of your one night stands!”
“Yes, woman.” He huffs as his chin rests on your head. “I haven’t dated because I can’t. Been in love with you for too long. Wanted no one but you.” You finally look up at him, biggest smile across your lips and oh, Jason thinks he just fell in love with you all over again. The things he’d do to see that smile.
“And you can never be a one night stand. I’ve been chasing after you for long enough. Can’t let you go now.” He huffs. You pull him back down into another kiss, slow. “I love you.” You mumble against his lips, unable to contain your smile. Jason peppers kisses down your jaw and neck, not wanting to show you his lovesick smile.
“‘Oh, okay’?”He mocks softly into your neck. “Who responds like that to a love confession?!” His words break into a soft manly chuckle. “I was shocked!” And he lets out a noncommittal hum.
“Round 2?” He mumbles against your skin, not even bothering to bite back his smile as you break out in giggles. “Needy bastard.”
ᯓ★ 's P.S. ‘Simply lovely’? y’all- y’all hear that?…du…du du du du? MAX VERSTAPPEN??