THE GUGGENHEIM??? (x)

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E | 18.7k | Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov

Everyone say Thank you, Canada! for facilitating me somehow banging out 18k in like a week. In state funded gay hockey romance we trust! Amen!

He had been reeled in by this annoying Canadian, and all that he knew was that he wanted to stay. He wanted to anchor himself to Shane and just...stay.

jacob tierney i’m going to hold your hand when i say this. You do not need to follow the plot of the books in season 2. i know rachel reid has been super nice to you and she’s probably a chill hang but a good writer that does not make. i’ve seen you do interviews where you say that what made the show successful is that it’s so faithful to the books but i’m here to tell you that is not true. you are a better writer. trust in yourself

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you are in ottawa, bro. and then on top of that, you come in all fucking blacked out, cut-offs, pipes, glasses, looking like the terminator. looking like the sperminator, dude. he went full sperminator, and then waltzed through the airport. people were probably fucking getting off the whole way, the whole way through baggage claim. you've gotta be kidding me no one recognized you. there's no one left alive back there.

casting directors be like can we get the waifish clowning bodybuilder with a facial posture like marlene dietrich to play the closeted bisexual macho top whose signature move could only be described as the “tornado blowjob”. please.

ok i’m rewatching e5 and it’s really getting to me how painful shane’s closet is. like he has to be closeted i understand the logistics and his position. i get it. but he uses it against himself all the time. it’s so painful for him. having sex with women is humiliating & difficult but he thinks it’s necessary. keeping distance between himself and his loved ones is isolating but he thinks it’s necessary. having his emotional and sexual needs only barely satisfied for ten whole years is agony but he thinks it’s necessary. everything he does is calculated, everything he does is a fight to not be Too Obvious. being closeted is hard enough, but shane is torturing himself inside his. he punishes himself for being gay all the time. it’s almost like self harm. maybe if he’s a little harder on himself, maybe if he pushes until it hurts, maybe if he tries and tries and tries and just never accepts failure and just works really hard on it then it’ll be fine. he takes that approach to hockey and it works. maybe if it hurts for long enough, badly enough, then he will become a better man by enduring it. maybe it has to hurt for there to be a positive result. maybe the punishment is necessary. and the only person who can punish shane for this is shane himself. so he does. but every time he goes back to ilya it’s a failure, every time he can’t get hard with a woman it’s a failure, every time he thinks about maybe letting himself be what he knows he is it’s a failure. do you ever want to just cry

shane hollander understanders summit meeting in the tags:

i'm literally always saying perfectionism as self-harm#i can't make more posts about the show's choice to show shane having sex with my rose when it happens offscreen in the book#but suffice to say i am still thinking about it - @thepoisonroom

do you ever think about shane hollander and want to throw up from how bad hes hurting#“maybe it has to hurt for there to be a positive result” ouch#also very hockey of him#he was born to be and a bit shaped into the perfect canadian golden boy hockey player and i mean that in the most pitying way possible#my sweet sweet boy#one must imagine sisyphus happy#one must imagine shane hollander having a moment of quiet in his brain outside of sex - @creamsiclemelt

There’s Scott-closeted & then there’s Shane-closeted#There’s I’m not wrong but the sport I’ve dedicated my life to won’t accept me & there’s my sport is 100% correct & why don’t I fit - @ohmystarsoverhead

shane hollander shame thesis colloquium you better be ready

pov: you're hudson williams partying out in milan and everyone you meet is obsessed with you

Every time fandom turns a beautiful pathetic service top into an aggressive daddy dom type a random person on earth dies

okay members of the jury. heated rivalry. is it a romance in a wattpad soap opera 50 shades twilight fanfiction with names changed selling as cutesy romance with a pink cover and the characters draw on the cover netflix show sex scene describing plot beats as tropes bridgerton sort of way or in a romcom norah ephron crying in the rain because i miss you mae martin coming of age sort of way. or in a mindy kaling ted mosby john cusack notting hill yes i showed up at your party sort of way. because im a sucker for a romance plot but it's in the second and third ways for me but i get the vibes that this show is more the 1st thing. also consider that none of these things are the movie the proposal because i hate the proposal. the proposal is wattpad with no sex. so we understand each other

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