• i love hitting characters with the disability beam. we should all be hitting characters with the disability beam. my favorite activity

  • I think one of the most important things you can do with your main character sometimes is have them be wrong.

    Not wrong but it turned out to be better than if they were right wrong or they thought they were wrong but that's just because of their self esteem issues wrong or wrong but it was just because they had to be so brave and self-sacrificing and noble wrong but fully, flat-out, wrong.

    Have them be wrong in a way that's a little bit unsympathetic. Have them be wrong in a way that's uncomfortable. Have them make the wrong decision and have that decision have consequences.

    One of the ways that an author often deals with a main character who they are making Special is by softening all of those places where they could be wrong. Every choice is the right one, and even when it's not the right one, it's the right one. They are The Smartest and The Coolest and The Most Traumatized But In A Hurt-Comfort Whump-y Way, and eventually it becomes clear to the reader that any bad thing that happens to them will be because it's happening to them, not because they have screwed up in some way.

    And even their trauma responses are often romantacized. They're just so disciplined, and so caring about their people, and so determined and so stubborn, and if they have eating issues it's always that they don't eat enough, because that's a romantic form of disordered eating when overeating isn't, and if they have sleep issues it's that they don't sleep enough because, because that's a romantic form of sleep issues, when sleeping too much isn't. Their flaws are what people view as "admirable" flaws; they're rarely lazy or uninspired or happy to let everyone else go first while they hang back.

    None of those are inherently bad, but there's often a certain sameness that settles on characters who are written this way, a sort of glossy shine that takes away some of the tension of the character because the reader doesn't ever need to wonder if they're going to really screw up.

    So have your characters be wrong. Have them make mistakes. Have them make bad decisions. Have them screw up. Take away some of that gloss.

  • if you ever find yourself writing fanfiction and thinking "this is too indulgent" that is the devil talking and he can go ahead and shut the fuck up

  • hotch tries to look at everyone individually in 7x01 as he's coming clean about emily being alive, he owes them that much...but he's quickly drawn back to morgan each time. is he thinking about the grief assessment? is he thinking about emily's blood on morgan's hands? is he thinking about the way he ran all the way to pakistan and he still couldn't outrun that lie?

    hotch may be many unflattering things, but he's not a coward. at least there is that. he doesn't make eye contact a lot as a general rule, it's something he avoids whether intentional or not, but never when it matters.

    especially not when it's morgan.

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