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About Me/FAQs

You can call me Avital. I am a non-binary traditional egalitarian Jew living in the US. Any pronouns except they/them are fine. (!היא/את בעברית, בבקשה. תודה)

I really appreciate human interaction. That being the case, if you follow me and I don’t already follow you, please send me a DM with the following:

What you want me to call you (internet name, username, nickname, whatever)
What brought you here and made you want to follow me
Something random about you that you feel comfortable sharing (pet pics are always welcome too <3)

I had a whole lot of other rules on my previous blog to weed out the faint of heart, but I genuinely don’t know how well that worked, so instead I will simply put roughly the same information below as resources and recommended reading. Fair warning: I will operate from a baseline assumption that you’ve done the reading and therefore will not be explaining anything in them.

I also had a listing of my firm opinions and other miscellaneous information. That got long and unwieldy, but a lot of people seemed to appreciate it, so I will post roughly the same list under the cut.

The current username refers to my current symbol of a tree of lanterns in the starlight. This is related to my desire to create self-symbolism, old school style (like I really want to create a family crest, a flag, a seal, and other heraldic nonsense. Why? Because it delights me, of course.)

This page is under construction and subject to change at any time.

B'vracha,

Avital

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goldensunset

idk who needs to hear this but if you have been putting something off bc it doesn't need to be done until the end of the month. we are almost done with the teens we are approaching the big numbers (the twenties). that date shall dawn upon you swiftly and without mercy before you know it. psa for everyone except me i got plany off time

I am just straight up gonna queue this for every 19th of this year tbh

grapesofhappiness

goldensunset

idk who needs to hear this but if you have been putting something off bc it doesn't need to be done until the end of the month. we are almost done with the teens we are approaching the big numbers (the twenties). that date shall dawn upon you swiftly and without mercy before you know it. psa for everyone except me i got plany off time

I am just straight up gonna queue this for every 19th of this year tbh also! happy 1 year anniversary to this post

grapesofhappiness

goldensunset

idk who needs to hear this but if you have been putting something off bc it doesn't need to be done until the end of the month. we are almost done with the teens we are approaching the big numbers (the twenties). that date shall dawn upon you swiftly and without mercy before you know it. psa for everyone except me i got plany off time

I am just straight up gonna queue this for every 19th of this year tbh

grapesofhappiness

goldensunset

idk who needs to hear this but if you have been putting something off bc it doesn't need to be done until the end of the month. we are almost done with the teens we are approaching the big numbers (the twenties). that date shall dawn upon you swiftly and without mercy before you know it. psa for everyone except me i got plany off time

I am just straight up gonna queue this for every 19th of this year tbh

grapesofhappiness

goldensunset

idk who needs to hear this but if you have been putting something off bc it doesn't need to be done until the end of the month. we are almost done with the teens we are approaching the big numbers (the twenties). that date shall dawn upon you swiftly and without mercy before you know it. psa for everyone except me i got plany off time

I am just straight up gonna queue this for every 19th of this year tbh

grapesofhappiness

goldensunset

idk who needs to hear this but if you have been putting something off bc it doesn't need to be done until the end of the month. we are almost done with the teens we are approaching the big numbers (the twenties). that date shall dawn upon you swiftly and without mercy before you know it. psa for everyone except me i got plany off time

I am just straight up gonna queue this for every 19th of this year tbh

grapesofhappiness

goldensunset

idk who needs to hear this but if you have been putting something off bc it doesn't need to be done until the end of the month. we are almost done with the teens we are approaching the big numbers (the twenties). that date shall dawn upon you swiftly and without mercy before you know it. psa for everyone except me i got plany off time

I am just straight up gonna queue this for every 19th of this year tbh

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Hey folks —

I know I just did this a year ago, but I'm gonna transition blogs again.

This last year has been the hardest year of my life since maybe 2012 when I was so depressed that I didn't leave my bed for almost anything except work for months and I quite literally don't remember most of it. Possibly even since the implosion of my relationship with my abuser in 2009. Idk. It's bad and I can't carry this anymore.

I am tired of looking at the ruins of who I thought I was and what I thought my life was going to be. I hate remembering what I used to feel like, even when times were hard. I need to stop sitting shiva for a life I buried in a picture frame.

It's time to rebuild.

It's time to reinvent.

It's time to reimagine.

I don't want to do any of this. I want to just curl up in a ball and hibernate until I can wake up from this nightmare. I want to wallow in thoughts of self-injury or worse. I want to drink myself to sleep every night so I don't dream anymore and do whatever else I need to do to not feel anything anymore. I want to self-destruct. I want to stop taking my meds so that I can be depressed enough to not care about the consequences and actually go through with it.

But I'm not going to do any of those things.

I'm going to do a controlled burn of the past so that new things can grow in.

I've done it before; I can do it again.

This time I'm not just closing a chapter; I'm starting the sequel. If you want to follow me along, message me for the new url. If you are feeling done, no hard feelings — I wish you well on your journey and hope that only good things find you on the way.

etz-ashashiyot

Hey for all the folks waiting for info on the new URL, I'm not ignoring you, I promise! Between work, moving, Life, and yontiff, I have not had much time to set up the new space. Rest assured, I'm working on it, and so far I have not yet received a request that I intend to turn down. Thank you all for your patience, your support, and your kind words!

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Reminder that this is A Thing and that I believe I’ve answered everyone who reached out about the new url

If I haven’t answered you yet, please poke me about it, because I am going to start winding down this blog asap

Important Announcement personal dumpster fire tw for bad brain stuff of several types blog maintenance

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vigilantsycamore

So...

Gay single-party dictatorship
Gay secret police
Gay Russian imperialism in the Caucasus, Central Asia, and Eastern Europe

lordadmiralfarsight

Gay concentration camps for political opponents (you can put a rainbow above the gulag's door!)
Gay genocides, both cultural and by murder
Gay repression of religious and ethnic minorities
Gay colonization of areas depopulated by aforementionned gay genocides
Gay cult of personality

etz-ashashiyot

The OP of the screenshot owes every queer person living in or from former Soviet countries $10,000 and an apology

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See, that’s what the app is perfect for.

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