HEATED RIVALRY 1.01

80% of unrivaled has to be ilya being incredibly uncool at all the casual intimacy he gets to have with shane now. they go to a bar with the team and shane puts his hand on ilya’s knee midsentence and ilya chokes on the rest of it. at the grocery store and ilya is holding up an avocado to see if it’s ripe enough and shane walks up behind him and puts a hand on his hip and ilya drops it. yes they’re having freak sex but now it’s because shane was on the phone with the dog groomer and they’re asking about appointment times and shane says “hold on let me ask my husband—“ and now he’s face down ass up in the middle of the kitchen and ilya is like say that again say that again say that again say that again

a follow-up to this as requested by a few lovely individuals

[Begin Voicemail Transcript] Please call me back. [End Voicemail Transcript]

[Begin Voicemail Transcript] Evan please call me. [End Voicemail Transcript]

[Begin Voicemail Transcript] Okay I guess this is how we're doing this. I'm sorry about Hen. I hope everything's okay. I'm more worried about you though.

Evan. They're your family what do you mean they didn't ask how you were? Not once? [Laugh] Wait no on second thought I see it. Fuck they really only keep you around when you're useful huh? Thought it was just me but they're doing it to you too. Wow.

I’m sorry I wasn't there for you. You… [Sigh] I knew you weren't doing well but I thought you had them so I didn't push. I thought… You said you didn't have feelings [inaudible]. I thought I was the last person you wanted to hear from. Fuck. [inaudible] . . .

I shouldn't have said that about Eddie. You're not the only one who gets jealous. Just instead of maiming my best friend about it it looks like I maim you about it. Or maybe I maim myself about it I don't know. You have all this history and not romantically but you do love him and I thought you didn't love me since I was just… I was just your trial boyfriend.

Did it even help though me being your first boyfriend? Was I sheltering you or something? I know you're an adult I don't mean you couldn't make your own decisions but did I make it worse? Dating isn't easy and being queer isn't always easy trust me I know and I'm not saying I know exactly what you're going through because it is different for us but… But I'm sorry if I made it worse. I wanted you to be happy that's all I wanted was to see you smile because…

Because I love you Evan. [Laugh] And the only reason I was ever worried about you breaking my heart is because you have it. It's yours. You're not too much. You're all I've ever wanted. . . . Fuck I wish I wasn't doing this over the phone. Can you call me please? Or just come over. Please. [End Voicemail Transcript]

teensy buck (sorta) crashout anyone?

[Begin Voicemail Transcript] . . . Hey Tommy. . . . I know it's uh it's been a while but you said um you said anytime so I'm hoping you meant it. 

I just got back from the hospital. Oh not for me! For Hen. So still you’re right the 118 needs its own wing. [Laugh] But uh she's not doing so hot. I don't know if it's my place to say anything but the doctors say that with meds and stuff she should be okay sorta? And I'm so so happy to hear that but…

But I'm pissed. [Sigh] I’m so fucking angry Tommy. She said no one asked how she was doing. I asked. I asked everyone after– after. When I had nightm– hm. When I couldn't sleep I did so much research on grief and grief counselling and I did grief assessments on everyone and– and no one asked me how I was doing. 

Until you. And I forget what I said because all I could think about is he was gone and even his real grave is across the country and what's the point of going to the grave marker here? If I talk to him here will he hear–

I don't think I ever asked how you were doing. And then the funeral was the last time we talked and that's entirely my fault. I should have texted or called. I need– I need you. I [inaudible] you. I’m trying not to since– I went on some dates so I could stop. And they were good. But they were married and unicorn hunting me actually? Which made me feel so…

I looked it up after– after you said you were a Kinsey 6. I'm uh. I’m probably a 3. Maybe a 2? 2.5? And I never thought about what it meant to be into guys because all I wanted was you Tommy. All I want is you. And man it felt so good and so right with you I never thought– it can kinda suck sometimes. Being bi. I spent a lot of time reading forums and personal experiences and I thought oh unicorn hunting won't happen to me though now I know what to look for. But it did. 

And what's next? My next girlfriend breaking up with me because I'm too close with my male best friend? No wait that already happened with you. [Laugh] 

I moved out of Eddie's place. Well it's Eddie's place again now. I'm renting a house. I thought I had a home of my own and I thought it was mine and the fucking previous tenant was living in the ceiling. Can't have shit in this fucking city…

I also thought Bobby was haunting the place. Finding out he wasn't felt like– like losing him again almost. In a smaller way. What happens when I can't remember the sound of his voice Tommy? 

Sorry that's – that's too much. I'm sorry. You were always just so good at making me feel like I wasn't too much. . . . I [Inaudible]. . . . I’m sorry I never told you. I’m sorry that I do. I’m sure you're doing good now away from the fucking garbage fire that is my– me honestly. 

I shouldn't have called. I’m fine really. I uh shit how do you delete a message [inaudible] [End Voicemail Transcript]

part 2 here

i just realized they let chimney yoink hen's captain plot the same way they let hen yoink buck's "everyone let me down" plot

i mean while i'm at it they also let chim yoink buck's spot as the second most important person in bobby's life

… this speech would hit harder if we’d actually seen them cracking on screen. (and also if we didn’t know that buck had tried to ask questions and hen shut him down multiple times)

NEVER MIND THIS SPEECH SHOULD HAVE BEEN BUCK’S

ilya + smacking and grabbing shane

that should have been bucks crash out but okay

buck after going above and beyond to check in with everyone after bobby died only for hen to say she had no one

Originally posted by quiet-minds

Robbie, Nadine & François in the Spotify mirror

“rip tumblr” girl i’m literally still here

au where buck became a cop instead of a firefighter. joins swat. this is a crossover. he’s on hondo’s team, killing it. he knows rocker pretty well and they mostly get along. they hangout at work and like, spar and stuff. causally pals. but one day rocker’s twin shows up and he’s fully like 👀👀 rocker who is THAT? and rockers like, just my dorky brother tommy. and buck looses his mind. he asks tommy if he wants to hangout. they do the tour of harbor, they go get that beer, they hangout. and then tommy kisses him and it’s like? buck had no idea he was into tommy or men at all but his eyes are OPEN and later rockers like, dude! crush on my brother but not me? and bucks like idk what to tell you he’s hotter.

harassing françois, the only openly out cast member, is fucking disgusting. all for… taking the same flight as his coworker?

i’d say grow up but the truth is a lot of you probably already are. you’re just like that. and that’s gross.

request: the stairwell kiss