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who gave oscar wilde permission to write stuff like “death must be so beautiful. to lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. to have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. to forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace. you can help me. you can open for me the portals of death’s house, for love is always with you, and love is stronger than death is” with such ease? to touch my soul so casually? like who gave him all that talent and can i have some

for any queer person feeling discouraged and mocked by the state of the world, politics, media rn (rant ahead because genuinely idk who needs to hear this):

the highest rated television episode in the world is from a gay tv show. say what you want about it being excessively explicit, but you cannot deny this was a breakthrough in LGBTQIA+ media and making it mainstream. heated rivalry broke barriers.

the main character of the biggest netflix series in the world harnessed superpowers by *literally* accepting himself as gay.

oh, and also, phan hard launched this year. so.

i know it can feel discouraging when we’re mocked on live tv, on the internet, or in politics. sometimes it feels like it’s one step forward and three steps back.

but for every time i have to hide my sexuality from a family member, there is also a moment where i can say it loud and proud in public. i never thought i’d be bonding with my heterosexual sisters over a gay hockey show. i never thought i’d be jumping for joy at work and ranting to my boss about my favorite youtubers as a teen coming out of the closet. i never, EVER thought i’d be sitting in front of my tv with my family, fully bawling my eyes out, over my favorite fictional character finally accepting who he is.

for every person who laughed at that cheap snl skit mocking will byers, a closeted teen heard robin’s monologue to him and wept. for every weird yaoi fetish joke, someone was watching that heated rivalry coming out scene alone in the dark and realized that they could be brave. media is so important. it’s not all we have, but it’s important.

times are changing. slowly, but they’re changing. it’s 2026. we’ll be okay.

the concept of us being in 2026 and dan and phil are allowed to make jokes about having such loud sex together in their hotel room at vidcon that it would disturb hank green next door. how did we get here.

unexpectedly devastating part of the dan and phil reacting to ep 1 of heated rivalry was how aware they are of public invasiveness :(

“close the window” bc of drones, kissing on the roof “we would never” bc ppl would listen at the hotel room door. like. ouch

little dnp edit to "permanent sunlight" by no devotion (yes i know a video on the we-hate-videos site, forgive me <3)

my baby's proud; sweet and devout if i'm patient one day she'll love me out loud
Anonymous asked:

i saw ur tags about snokoplasm being a queer metaphor and oh my god ur so right and u should say it

i'm sure someone smarter than me has already touched on it but this has always been my interpretation of snokoplasm and i'm happy to spread my agenda 😌

straight away, we see phil ask for snokoplasm, to which the exo helper automatically assumes he wants blue snokoplasm. this implies that a person's preferred color of snokoplasm can be inferred just by looking at them (or at least, you might think you know). upon hearing this, phil laughs and says:

we don't know why, but clearly blue snokoplasm is viewed as something outside of the norm in society, undesirable, though not necessarily "wrong" (it's still being offered as a valid option, after all).

the exo helper responds:

phil takes offense to this and says:

from this, we understand that yellow = the presentation of traditional masculinity, therefore blue must be the opposite. part of the joke is that phil obviously does not have big muscles or a traditionally masculine appearance, yet in this instance, he wants to be perceived that way.

a curve ball is thrown when the exo helper says they only have green snokoplasm. this confuses phil. he insists that it's yellow, effectively forcing this green snokoplasm into the binary he sees the world through (it's blue or yellow, there are no shades of green). finally, phil purchases the green snokoplasm, though he still insists that it's yellow.

as he leaves, the exo helper says this:

which cements the fact that blue snokoplasm is something to be enjoyed only in secret. furthermore, we know the internet played a large part in phil's self discovery as he used it to interact with all kinds of people, gaining confidence that he didn't always feel in person. and, well, we know phil did "buy the blue snokoplasm off the internet" around this time. ie. meet up with guys he met online and was interested in, without going public about it.

later, he asks the viewer whether we think the snokoplasm is yellow or green. this shows that he's conflicted now and he can no longer state with certainty that it is yellow.

despite this inner conflict, the video ends with phil covering himself in yellow snokoplasm (which may or may not actually be green). he has chosen to align himself with the color society expects from him, even if it doesn't suit him. he's not ready yet to call it green, and he's certainly not ready to cover himself in blue snokoplasm for the whole world to see. but maybe someday 🥺

so anyway that's my argument that snokoplasm is a queer metaphor!! also it looks like lube. there, i said the obvious thing

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Also of course, blue is the boy color in our world, which is another point in the relation between blue snokoplasm and liking boys/queer themes. When I first watched it, I assumed that the reason they sell both normally in the store is related to the customer’s gender. So like normal women would get blue and normal men would get yellow. But the clerk assumes she can clock Phil as different despite his discomfort with that.

dan being flirted with by another blonde man and being like "u know who else is blonde.. my boyfriend 🥰" and then immediately texting him

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