HAIIIIIIIII IM SO SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING THIS IN SO LONG
SO
when i first posted this gofundme at the start of the year, i was staying my first night at a homeless shelther in downtown memphis that was
not very good, safe, or reliable
so i went to stay with my boyfriend and his mother at their apartment (despite the fact that their lease only allows two people)
after a lot of hard work, i got on food stamps, and thus i tried my best to pay for as much of the house's groceries as possible as a way to make up for being physically incapable of paying rent
i had ZERO luck getting a job due to trauma-related seizures, and due to this i am and have been unable to get a driver's license (look up how long you have to be seizure-free in tennesee to not be a danger on the road TvT)
i was able to keep a job before i went homeless because of my bike, but i got hit by a truck and my bike got totaled
i lost food stamps because i could not get past the horrible walking conditions needed to apply to local (terrible) jobs, thus obviously i had no way to properly land a job
all of my income has been based around incredibly generous but horribly sparse donations to this gofundme, but that began to dry up
luckily (kinda), i moved back in with my mother around April and was told i could stay for a year to get back on my feet before my mother sold the house
turns out, she got an offer within a month and, without any consideration of how badly it would FUCK me, she sold the house out from under me and moved away to Arkansas mid-June.
she gave me around $1500 and told me to travel.
I did not do that for obvious reasons.
instead, having nowhere else to go, i went back to my boyfriend's and have been staying with him and his mother for about a month and a half, under the same "pay for groceries to lighten the load and make up for my inability to pay rent"
however, it came to light that his mother didn't want me in the apartment by the beginning of August, and I needed to find somewhere else to be
i slept outside, behind apartment buildings with blankets and a backpack full of generalist supplies (im relatively clean, have a set of clothes on me at all times, and have things like my laptop and a book to read.)
i mention all of this to clarify that as of earlier today, i was officially caught and notified by my boyfriend's apartment complex's security that i had been seen "skulking around" and that they're gonna have to ask me to leave
i clarified my situation as best as i can, but they said that if i kept doing it that the police would eventually be called, and so to avoid that theyre going to be """making calls""" to find a place for me to be (there are Absolutely No reliable shelters or organizations in memphis for walk-ins aside from ones that operate off of months-long waitlists that i'm already in contact with.)

all of this to say that I sincerely have been trying, but due to how the cards have been dealt i'm going to have to make changes that will most likely end up with me staying either with estranged and non-memphis friends, or estranged (possibly transphobic) family members in nashville
now more than ever, your donations, reblogs, sharing around of this gofundme, it doesnt go towards medical bills, it doesnt go towards car payments…
it goes towards allowing me to keep trying a little bit longer at surviving.
i dont know what im gonna do…but i know that it won't be giving up.
thanks to what i do have, alongside a generous benefactor in my irl personal life, i will be getting my broken phone repaired tomorrow and will be paying for a couple of months of a data plan so that I won't be stranded without contact with anyone.
these are the facts of my situation.
i hope that even if you cannot donate, but still want a 19 (soon to be twenty, woooo) year old trans woman to survive, you will share this post to whoever you can.
i sincerely appreciate and thank all who have already donated, you are what has allowed me to make it this far, and anyone who may donate now that i've refreshed this.
i truly love you all and have no greater desire than to continue existing alongside all of the wonderful and unique freaks (/affectionate forever) that i have met, haven't met yet, and may never meet
i hope that you all have a wonderful night, day, etc, and that i see you all around.
-vera
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My last reblog got me $5.

We've officially hit $0.00 in my account.

We're under threat of eviction.

Our cats our starving because we can't afford food for them.

I'm starving because there isn't enough to feed us all more than once a day.

I beg of you.

Anyone who sees this, I appreciate reblogs, but anything helps.

I have two strong legs and can walk to get food, but unless I overdraft my card there is nothing left to pay for it.

Please help.

Fuck it.

C□sh□pp: $Verawawa

P□yp□l: @verawawa

I have been forced to stay in a christian men's only shelter because no others take in people who have no other place to go. I spent my first night fully outside in below freezing.

Please help me.

I am sacrificing who I am to live here.

I have survived twelve days here.

This is the most soul crushing thing I’ve ever experienced.

I’m physically separated from my entire support system.

I have to pretend to respond to my deadname every second of every day.

I am required to attend a chapel service twice a day or else I’ll be kicked out.

The mask I wear over my true self is damaged and worn, not because my true self is weak, but because diverting the pain to a fake self is starting to cut through to my true self.

I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I’m suffocating I’m suffocating I’m suffocating I’m suffocating I’m suffocating I’m suffocating

Help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help

"I'm sad because I'll never see a quetzalcoatlus" consider: you live alongside pelicans and flamingos! Really sit and think about unbelievably strange a filter feeding bird is, and how lucky we are to be around them!

think about the fact that you and everyone you know gets to live at the same time as the blue whale, *the* single largest animal that has ever lived, water or land.

You crush Miette like the grape?

brick up mother in basement for ONE THOUSAND YEARS

[nervously shuffling in front of you, not making eye contact] hey yeah… i just…. i wanted to see if you wouldn’t mind… just letting me lay my head in your lap… i don’t even need pets just… can you call me a good puppy? sorry i know it’s weird just… forget it it was a joke…

[profusely sobbing and heaving breaths] c-could you please just… take some of it off me… i don’t…. i don’t know if i can take it all… can i at least… forget about… some of it? just… just for a minute i’m sorry- i- i know it’s a burden to you i just… i wanna forget- i wanna just be… i wanna be…. f-forget about it don’t worry im… im fine actually sorry…. sorry im so much….