sorry i'm being an absent friend i'm being an absent self too

when i‘m trying to go go sleep but then i remember and remember and remember and remember

Rest in Peace to Renee Good. ICE shooting an innocent 37 year old mother attempting to protect her neighbors is not an accident or an act of self defense, it is an act of terror designed to dissuade other people from stepping in, documenting ICE violence and reminding immigrants of their rights. Her son is now an orphan and the president of the United States is calling her a ‘professional agitator’ on social media.

may 2026 bring us closer to a Palestine liberated from zionist occupation, and a Democratic Republic of Congo and Sudan free from proxy exploitation. May 2026 see more people gain the courage to make the world a little better than before. May we all remember to tend seeds whose trees we may never sit beneath. Consider donating to/sharing The Sameer Project, or Khartoum Aid Kitchen or Focus Congo. All power to all the people. Happy new year.

DR. EMERY WALSH in THE PITT: 1.14 - 8:00 PM

Hua Xi, from "Night Drive Through My Own Life"

im doomed by the narrative but the narrative is a bunch of conscious choices i've made in the past

my 5 year plan? find the energy to use my human body to participate in the world in some form or fashion

i gotta remember this

I miss everything and will never get any of it back. whatever

homesick for an alternate timeline

iris by goo goo dolls really is insane though. I'd give up forever to touch you? you're the closest to heaven I'll ever be? all I can breathe is your life? and I don't want the world to see me cause I don't think they'd understand? when everything's meant to be broken I just want you to know who I am? does anyone hear me.

I don't think this is being widely covered by national news, but Western Alaska has been devastated by Typhoon Halong. Thousands of people are out of their homes, the coastal Yup'ik villages of Kwigillingok and Kipnuk had 6.6 feet of water above normal. Dozens of people were rescued swimming in icy waters, houses have been ripped off their foundations, one woman is dead, three people are still missing, and most people are sheltering in the community schools. This is a roadless, remote area where it's difficult to get supplies and help in, heading into winter. Consider giving towards the Native-coordinated disaster response sending food and other supplies if you can.

Everyone should read this statement by Napheesa Collier, even if you're not a fan of the Lynx or even the WNBA

I'd like to congratulate the Mercury to advancing to the finals. I want to be clear this conversation is not about winning and losing. It's about something much bigger. The real threat to our league isn't money. It isn't ratings, or even missed calls, or even physical play. It's the lack of accountability from the league office.

Since I've been in the league, you've heard the constant concerns about officiating and it has now reached levels of inconsistency that plague our sport and undermine the integrity in which it operates. Whether the league cares about the health of the players is one thing, but to also not care about the product we put on the floor is truly self-sabotage. Year after year the only thing that remains consistent is the lack of accountability from our leaders.

The league has a buzz word that they've rolled out as talking points for the CBA as to why they can't pay the players what we're worth. That word is sustainability. But what's truly unsustainable is keeping a good product on the floor while allowing officials to lose control of games. Fans see it every night. Coaches -both winning and losing- point it out every night in pre-game and post-game media, yet leadership just issues fines and looks the other way.

They ignore the issue that everyone in the game is begging to be fixed. That is negligence.

At Unrivaled, this past February, I sat across from Cathy and asked how she planned to address the officiating issues in our league. Her response was: "Well, only the losers complain about the refs."

I also asked how she planned to fix the fact that players like Caitlin, Angel, and Paige, who are clearly driving massive revenue for the league, are making so little for their first 4 years. Her response was: "Caitlin should be grateful she makes $16 million off the court because without the platform the WNBA gives her, she wouldn't make anything." [reporter says 'whoa' in the background]

In that same conversation, she told me "players should be on their knees thanking their lucky stars for the media rights deal I got them". That's the mentality driving our league from the top. We go to battle every day to protect a shield that doesn't value us. The league believes it succeeds despite the players, not because of them.

I had the privilege of watching my husband run a league where he has to balance a hundred different things at once. I won't pretend the job is easy. But even with all that on his plate, he always takes the time to reach out to players when he sees an injury, whether it's Unrivaled or even during the WNBA season. That is what leadership looks like. It's the human element. It's basic integrity. And it's the bare minimum any leader should embody. This year alone, l've gotten calls, texts, and well wishes from so many players across the league. Those moments remind me that sometimes there are things bigger than the results of this game we play.

But do you know who I haven't heard from? Cathy. Not one call. Not one text. Instead, the only outreach has come from her number two telling my agent that she doesn't believe physical play is contributing to injuries. That is infuriating and it's the perfect example of the tone-deaf dismissive approach that our leaders always seem to take.

I've finally grown tired. For too long, l've tried to have these conversations in private, but it's clear there's no intention of accepting there's a problem. The league has made it clear it isn't about innovation. It isn't about collaboration. It's about control and power. I've earned this platform and I've paid the price to get here, and now I have a responsibility to speak on behalf of the fans and everyone in this league that deserves better. Our leadership's answer to being held accountable is to suppress everyone's voices by handing out fines. I'm not concerned about a fine. I'm concerned about the future of our sport. At some point, everyone deserves to hear the truth from someone who I hope has earned the benefit of the doubt to fight for what is right and fair for our athletes and our fans.

We have the best players in the world. We have the best fans in the world. But right now, we have the worst leadership in the world.

If I didn't know exactly what the job [of running a league] entailed, maybe I wouldn't feel this way. But unfortunately for them, I do. We serve a league that has shown that they think championship coaches and Hall of Fame players are dispensable, and that's fine. It's professional sports. But I will not stand quietly by and allow different standards to be applied at the league level.

Thank you.

This isn't Greta Thunberg’s fault, she couldn’t have been a better ally, but it’s so disheartening how her kidnapping and mistreatment for five days have rallied so many people, when what she went through is only a fraction of a fraction of what thousands of Palestinian men, women, girls, and boys, who have been routinely kidnapped, tortured, and raped to unimaginably evil lengths for months or even years, often to the point of death, have endured and are still enduring as we speak.

And I know that’s the whole point of why she did what she did. She knew that, as a young high-profile white European girl, her mistreatment would result in more uproar, and she intended to use that privilege to raise awareness of what is happening to Palestinians. That’s why the first thing she did after her release, when the press asked her to speak in detail about her own mistreatment, was to shift the conversation instead to how Israel continues to escalate its genocide against Palestinians.

I just wish people understood her message and gave the same energy toward helping Palestinians without waiting for a White Westerner to risk their life first.

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