Hello everyone!

I’m sure you already realized that I'm the kind of artist who works on her projects in almost complete silence. This is one of the reasons I usually don't write journals :) But for a long time I felt that something wanted to burst out from deep inside of my mind. There are so many of you who like my works, and I'm sad I can't thank you for that individually for each one of you… So this would be the original purpose of this journal.

First of all, I’m sure I would haven never be able to reach my goals, and make a living from art if you guys wouldn’t be by my side. You guys help me feel special, and that it's really worth doing what I'm doing.

I often get a lot of comments and message, and sometimes it feels like I don't really deserve all the recognition. Occasionally I overthink this situation, and I feel I have to work more and more to satisfy everyone, and nobody will be satisfied until they don't know I did everything I could, and completely exhausted myself with the work. You know, like “Look, I'm on my knees, sweating blood, I'm worthy!” I have severe anxiety, and I can make such a ruckus by imagining bad situations in my head. It's not easy to free myself of its painful grip. Time to time I find it difficult to accept good things, and I usually accept the bad ones more easily. When I get this feeling, I try to drive it away by trying to get into a different mindset. I think the best way I can be thankful for the lot of trust toward my projects is to put a lot of care into them. That's what really matters the most. The stories, the characters, and to make all of them consistent in their worlds.

Because drawing is my job, I treat most of the parts of it as a real job. Sometimes I just have to sit down and keep up, do what I can. I try to make as much and as varied contents I just can. Let it be happy, sad, silly or funny, I love making all kinds of stuffs, so I built my life around work, and to be able to make as much content I just can. Sometimes it can be a lot, and it can be painful to keep up with everything. But when I look through all the work and effort I squeezed in my projects, I never feel regret. Of course I'd like to be better and would like to do some things differently in the future, but that's another thing. I feel I'm climbing an imaginary ladder, and as I get higher, I think I often see more clearly where I want to go next. I already reached a level in art that makes me very happy, and I try to include this feeling in my projects. My only wish is to keep it that way, and be better in many aspect.

First and foremost I want to say thank you to my Patreon supporters for all their appreciation, because they support me with their hard earned money. And I want to say thank you for everyone else on the internet, who follows or shares my works, who comments, or gives any kind of feedback. I feel I'm spoiled to death by you guys. Thank you for helping me to be a better artist, and fueling my drawing engine in many ways.