The new policy update is laughable. Now they're after adult characters who "look like" children, which I'm sure will be uniformly handled fairly, like when they banned Nazi furs (in art, not even real life), but allowed other extremist content and irl members on the site. It doesn't affect my gallery at all, but further reinforces why I don't interact with this community much anymore. Bunch of neurotic moral crusaders. I'm sure in the coming weeks anyone who is annoyed or even mildly concerned about things like this that could unjustly wipe out galleries is open to be attacked by these types.

Realized I had a few pieces I forgot to upload over the past several months. Here you go

I am so tired of watching people in the furry community be disgusting to others out of some moral high-ground justification. All I see on Twitter are people viciously attacking others for innocuous matters, attacking allies for not allying "correctly" and even going after each other. There are so many major issues that could be brought to light. I remember when people on here went after actual abusers and scammers, and people bragging about doing illegal violent shit, now it seems the trend is to chase phantom fascists, edgy jokes, and even constructive criticism. Every day I feel like am constantly being reminded why I want to distance myself from this community. I remember joining almost a decade ago and it being a safe haven of acceptance, but now it seems vile.

Too much artwork in my feed that is no longer interesting to me, or YCH spam/advertisements in general. I think it is time to do some pruning and unwatch some people. I am aware this information does not need to be publicly stated, but I like the idea of marking the specific day I do anything of note for my own records.

Not exactly spring yet, but figured it's as good a time as any to begin cleaning up my page, uploading the backlog of art I've accumulated, and removing artists from my feed whose art I've lost interest in.

More dragons in maid uniforms.

Make it so.

Apparently FA's staff is banning people for offensive content even OUTSIDE of the site itself. Seems like they really want FA to become a distant memory. I just wish there was a place to jump ship to.

..of sorts. Nothing major really, just been thinking about how the vision I had for my characters has changed due to unforeseen factors. I've gotten a lot of art of my cat boy as a human female, and I didn't plan on it, but I like it and plan to continue. Also this same character has received a lot of design updates and is now a chimera, although I still have procrastinated on getting a proper ref sheet. My pokemon characters have also changed around a lot mostly due to friends who have wanted art with me. Hmm not sure if there's really a point to this journal but I wanted to put my thoughts down into text for the sake of it. I don't really want to wade into the waters of gender politics, but I do have a fondness for androgyny and gender swapping, and these characters that I've developed, especially the ones that relate closer to my real life self are starting to reflect that more when I envision art I want to get of them. I'm not really good at figuring out what I really want in life and spend lots of time feeling unsatisfied with most things I set out to do regardless of how trivial or important as it is. It bothers me how decisive certain people can be with knowing exactly what they want and then actually acting on it, whereas I seem to be just as afraid of success as I am of failure. I feel stuck in neutral. I've been drinking and this wasn't planned but I'm going to start a venting tangent. I struggle a lot with my personal identity and have as long as I've been around on this planet. I have felt all sorts of ways about my sexuality and gender since I knew those were concepts up for debate, although due to my upbringing I've found it difficult to be able to express myself in a way that I really felt was personally satisfying, always wearing a mask of sorts for other people, as we all do to a point. The problem now is that I don't know what I truly want anymore. I legitimately don't know and at this point am leaning against the notion of being transgender, but it's been a constant thought for a long time. I loathe people who wear their labels on their arm like it matters though. This is part of why I've refused to talk about this in depth for so long because I don't want to be associated with anything. I tend to hate "movements" and have no desire to be part of anything "bigger than myself". wow this dove into deep personal waters but fuck it. no one reads my shit anyway so it's not like there will be backlash.

Girls with scales or fins are perfect

Am 25 now. Help

In case anyone wants to have a read

I'm looking into moving there to go to school and wanted to ask for advice regarding getting a flat

It's a complex one to say the least. I've been thinking about this for some time as I've been a member of this site and community for roughly 6-7 years at this point and have gone through a lot of different mindsets and personal evolution. This place has introduced me to some of my dearest friends, certainly my best online friends without a doubt, however I have also seen this place provide a safe haven for some of the worst people I've ever communicated with. The tolerance of furries truly is a double-edged sword as I've been welcomed to explore and discover my sexuality and kinks,but unfortunately also dealt with stalkers, literal textbook psychopaths, and threats from a real-world terrorist group that is allowed to exist and is protected by this site. I've grown increasingly apathetic and reclusive from wanting to associate with people in this community and attend events so I've decided to seek out people of quality whom I hopefully can gain quality friendship with. I really have no idea why I wrote this or where I was going with it. I've had a bit to drink and wanted to vent. Sue me.

- The Doktor

A lot has changed in my life, and as I've matured, so has my sense of self identity and true desire has blossomed into something I can be infinitely more satisfied with. My art has been lacking not only due to being financially destitute but also due to my lack of knowing what I truly want for my characters. I know not many will read this, but for those who do and those who care, I hope you enjoy my future art and content.

Because I look at my favorites, see mainly lewds and wonder if people judge me :/

Seriously...been waiting for 2 weeks on a reply from the staff about my avatar not being able to upload.

test journal~