Wow...It's been a looong time. Sorry I dropped off the face of the earth.

I was out trying to rebuild my life after a complete mental breakdown. I stopped talking to everyone online, and in my own life until I could get shit back together, and I realized that all the people that were my friends actually weren't, and the ones I never really expected were some of the best I've ever had. At this point in my life, I'm not really certain about anything really. I'm trying to get over this whole paranoid feeling that everyone's out to use everyone else, but I have nothing to refute it for now. The 'friends' that I had really fucked with my head.

I had to take a year off of school to help my dad out, and I was in and out of the hospital for a few months. Right now, I'm the only one in my family with a job and health insurance, so I'm constantly working... and I finally got all my community college out of the way, now I'm just about to transfer into SJSU.

I can't promise that I'll be as active with my art, like with Flash which I haven't touched in about 2+ years, but I've been doing a lot of writing and photography, and I'm enjoying the new mediums. I'm doing a photo profile series of California's Coast Line, it started as just a day that I just started driving and ended up in Santa Cruz to take photos, and it ended up being something that I really enjoyed doing. I'll post it when I have some more time.


Anyways, I'm kinda back. I still have a lot I need to take care of, but I'll try and be more active.

If you're still watchin', thank you for your support.

I hate asking for them, but I really need money to help with bills. :<

Ah, yes. It's already that time of year when I'm down to less than $40 in my savings, no gas in my car, and I really need money badly to help out at home.



Hand Sketched - $5 (add $2 for every char *)
Hand Colored (Not recommended :< ) $8 (*)

Digital Line - $7 (*)
Digital Colored - $10 (*)

SA IDs - $8

Animation - Varies on length

And since the Flash Interactive Menu came out very well, I'm going to start having that available. It can be used to make a free site look better. I.E. http://lichimae.bravehost.com/

A simple Flash Interface: Character Profiles
http://lichimae.bravehost.com/loading_profiles.swf; $20

A more complex menu like the one on http://lichimae.bravehost.com/ would vary. Please contact me about farther site details. Cuz it can basically be an entire website if you want it to be.

Any size, NP. ;3


If you have some spare cash, please consider commissioning me.

Okay, so for the last few months, I've been very sick, and in and out of the hospital, cuz I caught Hep. A from some dipshit at a fast food restaurant didn't wash their hands before making the food, and for 2 months, I've been throwing up non stop, turning yellow, and losing 30 pounds. I had to have 2 full liters of IVs pumped into me, and after 6 weeks of not eating, I never want to see fast food again. I can finally keep food down, and I had to drop this semester cuz I still have to stay at home in bed rest.

I miss school. :<

The lesson: Don't eat fast food. Or ask them if they washed their hands in front of all the other customers. :B

[21:29] Arblst1: hey
[21:29] Lichi Mae: :V i'm not leaving my room ever again
[21:29] Arblst1: o.O
[21:29] Arblst1: now what'd you do
[21:30] Lichi Mae: it's long...
[21:30] Lichi Mae: so i'm going to the bathroom first
[21:30] Arblst1: lol ok
[21:38] Lichi Mae: h'okay

My Quest for getting Head for the First Time:

[21:39] Lichi Mae: i woke up yesterday, and bri called
[21:39] Lichi Mae: complaining as usual
[21:39] Arblst1: lol
[21:39] Lichi Mae: so i decided just to go to modesto and see her, cuz i haven't seen her in a while
[21:39] Lichi Mae: so i map quest it
[21:39] Lichi Mae: and it's 100 miles from here
[21:40] Lichi Mae: so i'm like...fuck
[21:40] Lichi Mae: so i pack a small bag, and just get in my car 30 minutes later
[21:40] Lichi Mae: i turn it on, and i have my lights automatic when u start the car
[21:41] Lichi Mae: but aparrently, now, if u turn them on, it shifts the entire car into reverse
[21:41] Arblst1: o.O
[21:41] Lichi Mae: so i'm just like...um....
[21:41] Arblst1: uh
[21:42] Lichi Mae: but i figured if i turned off the lights, it'd fix it, and it did
[21:42] Lichi Mae: but now, i can't drive at nite
[21:42] Arblst1: how is that possible
[21:42] Lichi Mae: idk
[21:42] Lichi Mae: it's just the beginning
[21:42] Arblst1: lights should not be connected to the drive train at all
[21:42] Lichi Mae: dude....i know that....i just need to show u to believe it
[21:42] Arblst1: lol
[21:42] Arblst1: ok ok
[21:42] Arblst1: continue
[21:43] Lichi Mae: so i head out
[21:43] Lichi Mae: and 100 miles takes about 2 hours
[21:43] Lichi Mae: 1:45 maybe
[21:43] Lichi Mae: so, i'm going like....120 on I-5
[21:43] Lichi Mae: no...580
[21:44] Lichi Mae: and the turnoff i need is like hidden
[21:44] Lichi Mae: cuz u need to take another one to get to it
[21:44] Lichi Mae: so i see it too late, and it's a offramp thatmakes a loop
[21:45] Lichi Mae: so i slam on the brakes at 80, and being it down to 20 mph and live
[21:45] Lichi Mae: so i've driving more, i get there blah blah
[21:46] Lichi Mae: we pick up one of bri's friends who was in the process of dumping this guy
[21:46] Lichi Mae: just a lot of drama
[21:46] Lichi Mae: ...
[21:46] Lichi Mae: and i'm just there...like...um...
[21:46] Arblst1: "wanna smoke already?" lol
[21:46] Lichi Mae: i was saying that as soon as i got there...
[21:47] Lichi Mae: so the entire time, it was just weird...
[21:47] Arblst1: did bri make you get her
[21:47] Arblst1: the friend.
[21:47] Lichi Mae: no, she drove
[21:47] Arblst1: ah
[21:48] Lichi Mae: and also there's a HUGE gang war between the mexicans and the blacks, like just killing people on the streets
[21:48] Arblst1: uh
[21:48] Arblst1: damn
[21:48] Lichi Mae: so imagine me, bri, and a black chick who was the friend walking around all day
[21:48] Lichi Mae: just people looking all funny
[21:49] Lichi Mae: and i'm like, what? it's not the '50s anymore
[21:49] Arblst1: to their faces?
[21:49] Lichi Mae: a
[21:49] Lichi Mae: *ya
[21:49] Arblst1: [ [>.<] ]
[21:49] Lichi Mae: i don't live there, fuck them
[21:49] Arblst1: that's not why i made the face
[21:49] Lichi Mae: so, we were trying to cheer everyone up
[21:50] Lichi Mae: so we went to the mall, which is like.....1/10 of valley fair
[21:50] Lichi Mae: it's like a foot locker, a crappy EB, and spencers
[21:50] Lichi Mae: and a starbucks
[21:51] Arblst1: lol that's not a mall
[21:51] Lichi Mae: to them it is
[21:51] Lichi Mae: u know 120? up to yosemite?
[21:51] Lichi Mae: u don't know, 2 streets off the main road, it's all fields
[21:51] Lichi Mae: that's all the town is
[21:52] Lichi Mae: fields and a BAD ghetto
[21:52] Arblst1: i don't stop when i'm going to yosemite or w/e lol
[21:52] Arblst1: we stop in oakdale, MAYBE, or manteca
[21:52] Lichi Mae: u drive through though
[21:52] Lichi Mae: and it's all fields
[21:53] Arblst1: oakdale gas station is about all i remember
[21:53] Lichi Mae: that's all the town is
[21:53] Lichi Mae: and a walmart and target [*angry*]
[21:53] Lichi Mae: so bri mentions a hookah lounge and it happened to be ladies night, so i just jump up, and decided that that is a must
[21:54] Lichi Mae: so we drive to the lounge, and we smoke a little bit, and go in
[21:54] Lichi Mae: it may have been ladies nite, but men have to pay $20
[21:54] Lichi Mae: ...
[21:54] Arblst1: ow
[21:54] Arblst1: what's the normal cost
[21:54] Lichi Mae: that's important later
[21:54] Lichi Mae: $20
[21:55] Lichi Mae: they are free
[21:55] Arblst1: huh what's free
[21:55] Arblst1: admission?
[21:55] Lichi Mae: o nm, it was 28
[21:55] Lichi Mae: $28
[21:55] Arblst1: you pay for what you smoke?
[21:55] Lichi Mae: for a hookah
[21:55] Arblst1: oh
[21:55] Arblst1: what if you bring your own
[21:55] Lichi Mae: and to get in
[21:55] Arblst1: or not allowed
[21:55] Lichi Mae: no
[21:55] Arblst1: never been to one so i'm just wondering lol
[21:55] Lichi Mae: so there's a cover rate for guys
[21:56] Lichi Mae: plus hookah rental
[21:56] Lichi Mae: so i'm like....shit, i only got so much $
[21:56] Lichi Mae: so i paid, and we sat down
[21:57] Lichi Mae: so we were the first ones there, cuz it was 8, and people don't start to come in til about 9:30
[21:57] Lichi Mae: so we're hanging out, and since it's a small town, everyone knows everyone
[21:58] Lichi Mae: and there are 5 uniformed cops in there cuz of the gang war, and it's a popular place
[21:58] Lichi Mae: so i'm all ready like....'nice...place...?'
[21:59] Arblst1: lol
[21:59] Lichi Mae: so we're there about an hour, and this one big chick sits with us asking to take our pictures
[21:59] Arblst1: uh
[22:00] Lichi Mae: so i just said, 'don't u chicks have enough myspace crap' just as sarcastism
[22:00] Lichi Mae: and they're all like OMG I [ [<3] ] MYSPACE, proving my point
[22:01] Lichi Mae: so we're like 'ok, take the pics' and then she told me to put my hand around my gf's waist, and we were like, we're just friends
[22:01] Lichi Mae: so she automatically assumes i'm gay
[22:02] Lichi Mae: so i just stand up and start saying WTF
[22:02] Arblst1: wow
[22:02] Lichi Mae: and i ranted a bit, but i was told to shut up, so they took the pictures
[22:03] Lichi Mae: and then she decided the get in the pictures, with them and acted like i was their pimp
[22:03] Lichi Mae: and she started making moves on me
[22:03] Lichi Mae: ok, since u've never been in a lounge before, it's dark
[22:03] Lichi Mae: very dark
[22:03] Lichi Mae: but i'm desperate, so i was like....meh...y not?
[22:04] Lichi Mae: so the dj's playing rap, like all ghetto dumbasses do, and she says 'let's go dancing' and grabs my arm
[22:05] Arblst1: lol
[22:05] Lichi Mae: and by this time, there are 40+ people in the club
[22:05] Arblst1: oh god
[22:05] Arblst1: i hate dancing
[22:05] Arblst1: -.-
[22:05] Lichi Mae: and two big people on the dance floor freaking
[22:05] Lichi Mae: ...
[22:05] Lichi Mae: ain't pretty
[22:05] Lichi Mae: for anyone
[22:06] Lichi Mae: so i'm trying to dance and just not think that the entire club was watching
[22:06] Lichi Mae: and they were
[22:07] Lichi Mae: so the dj knew the chick and was just encouraging it
[22:07] Arblst1: damn..
[22:08] Lichi Mae: so he's like 'UP AGAINST DA' WALL!" so she threw and pinned me against the wall, and was dry humping me
[22:08] Lichi Mae: and i'm just like...omg....someone....
[22:08] Lichi Mae: ...
[22:09] Arblst1: i don't even want to say: "just when you thought it couldn't get any worse"
[22:09] Arblst1: because i know it probably did
[22:09] Lichi Mae: so the dj's like 'what's this foo's name?' and bri and her friend yell ' it's fucking matt'
[22:10] Lichi Mae: in high school, and still now, all my friends call me fucking matt
[22:10] Lichi Mae: it's just annoying after a while...
[22:10] Lichi Mae: cuz EVERYONE but u does it
[22:10] Arblst1: i knew bri said that
[22:10] Arblst1: but i didn't know why
[22:10] Lichi Mae: so all the DJ's get on the mike, and chant 'fucking matt'
[22:11] Lichi Mae: and the entire club is cheering me on
[22:11] Arblst1: oh lawd
[22:11] Lichi Mae: and i'm like....i could SO be playing 9Dragons...
[22:11] Arblst1: >.>
[22:11] Arblst1: i just hit oc 1
[22:11] Lichi Mae: rc4
[22:11] Arblst1: going hybrid
[22:11] Lichi Mae: ?
[22:11] Arblst1: medic sucks
[22:11] Lichi Mae: oo
[22:11] Arblst1: i am going hybrid on this toon

[22:12] Arblst1: cuz it's the best soloing class
[22:12] Lichi Mae: i have to say i'm enjoying it
[22:13] Lichi Mae: ok, so the club is chanting that, and the song ends and we walk to sit down, my head buried in my hands, and the club starts clapping
[22:14] Lichi Mae: and some guy comes up, and says he got it all on camera, and that it's going on UTube
[22:14] Lichi Mae: ...
[22:14] Arblst1: i knew it was going to get worse...
[22:14] Arblst1: damn that sucks
[22:14] Lichi Mae: so, i'm just like...on the couch, just tired and lying back
[22:14] Lichi Mae: and PLOP
[22:15] Lichi Mae: she sits on my lap
[22:15] Lichi Mae: ....and she's one big motha fucka
[22:15] Arblst1: Lol
[22:15] Arblst1: ouch
[22:17] Lichi Mae: so she's like just trying to.....i'll leave out a LOT of details, but she gave me a condom, and we were just fooling around, dancing more, and fooling around
[22:17] Lichi Mae: and in these lounges, there are couchs that make booths for privaty
[22:17] Lichi Mae: not for that, but just in general
[22:18] Lichi Mae: and she tells me to fuck her right there....
[22:18] Lichi Mae: and i'm like....um.....i'm good
[22:18] Arblst1: wow
[22:18] Arblst1: yea, no way in hell
[22:18] Lichi Mae: ooooo it goes well in to this morning
[22:18] Arblst1: you were there overnight?
[22:18] Arblst1: oh shi-
[22:19] Lichi Mae: ya, the headlights, remember
[22:19] Arblst1: makes sense too
[22:19] Lichi Mae: so when we did talk, she said she had a lot of weed, so i made a mental note
[22:20] Lichi Mae: it's 11pm and bri has work in the morning, and we leave, and get her #
[22:20] Lichi Mae: so i decide that in the morning, i'll call and get a hookup before i leave
[22:21] Lichi Mae: so sleep, morning....6am
[22:21] Lichi Mae: i wake up from a nightmare, just jump up
[22:21] Lichi Mae: i don't remember what, i just do
[22:21] Lichi Mae: so i can't fall back asleep, and i got like 4 hours
[22:22] Arblst1: after a night like that, i can imagine you would
[22:22] Lichi Mae: so bri's grandma makes me breakfast, i talk to her for a bit, and i have to go run errands, like bank, gas, etc
[22:23] Lichi Mae: so i go out and look at my map...it ends right as the town starts
[22:23] Lichi Mae: so it's not on the map
[22:23] Lichi Mae: so i'm driving around, and i look at my tank
[22:23] Lichi Mae: it's on E
[22:24] Lichi Mae: so i drive to the closest gas station, and look in my wallet
[22:24] Lichi Mae: remember that cover rate for the club?
[22:24] Arblst1: yea
[22:24] Lichi Mae: i have $5
[22:24] Lichi Mae: to get back to SJ
[22:24] Lichi Mae: so i go to use my card
[22:25] Lichi Mae: insuffent funds
[22:25] Lichi Mae: it's all in my savings, not checking
[22:25] Arblst1: need a computer to xfer?
[22:25] Lichi Mae: no, i just needed to find an ATM
[22:25] Lichi Mae: and they didn't know where one was
[22:26] Lichi Mae: so i fill up with what i got and drive down the only street i remember
[22:26] Lichi Mae: i find a station and the letters ATM were in the window
[22:26] Lichi Mae: i think there was a point where i hugged the machine
[22:27] Lichi Mae: so i buy a map and some gum and a drink
[22:27] Lichi Mae: and i decided to call that chick from the club
[22:28] Lichi Mae: to get the hook up, and...finish what she'd promised...
[22:28] Lichi Mae: :< i'm so ashamed
[22:28] Arblst1: i can tell
[22:29] Arblst1: the ellipses give it away
[22:29] Lichi Mae: ;o;
[22:29] Lichi Mae: so i spend an hour trying to find where she lived
[22:29] Lichi Mae: ....
[22:29] Lichi Mae: so i FINALLY find her, and i see her in the light
[22:30] Lichi Mae: ....
[22:30] Lichi Mae: so i'm like....shit...
[22:30] Lichi Mae: can't go back now...
[22:30] Lichi Mae: so she was just talking, and didn't shut up
[22:31] Lichi Mae: and as it turns out, she thought i was 27, and closer to her OWN age...
[22:31] Arblst1: oh my god. lol
[22:31] Lichi Mae: guess a #?
[22:31] Arblst1: 32?
[22:31] Lichi Mae: next week
[22:32] Arblst1: 25
[22:32] Lichi Mae: no, she turns 32 next week
[22:32] Arblst1: oh
[22:32] Arblst1: i thought you meant: pick a number that's next week
[22:32] Lichi Mae: o
[22:33] Lichi Mae: no, her kids, though, are 14 and 7
[22:33] Arblst1: oh shit
[22:33] Lichi Mae: and she was talking about how she's gonna put a hit on her ex husband
[22:33] Arblst1: that's about the time you run
[22:33] Arblst1: lol and that's a bigger red flag
[22:33] Lichi Mae: ya
[22:34] Lichi Mae: but we go to the mall to drop off the camera of evil sin of the nite before at a longs
[22:34] Arblst1: or you could've smashed it to pieces
[22:35] Lichi Mae: and being as a drove a lexus in the ghetto, the niggas and playa be impressed
[22:35] Arblst1: Lol
[22:35] Lichi Mae: so she's like take a pictures behind the wheel
[22:35] Lichi Mae: of her behind the wheel...
[22:36] Lichi Mae: so we switch
[22:36] Lichi Mae: cuz by this point, i'm just....just give me head
[22:36] Lichi Mae: ....then go away
[22:37] Lichi Mae: so she's like, i know a nice place, so i'm like 'ok, let's switch back' and she starts to drive it
[22:37] Lichi Mae: ....
[22:37] Arblst1: tough decision time
[22:38] Arblst1: "don't drive my car" or no head, it would seem
[22:38] Lichi Mae: ya
[22:38] Lichi Mae: but the story goes on
[22:39] Lichi Mae: so she drives to this place behind a graveyard, and a cop car is like less than a block away
[22:40] Arblst1: o.O
[22:40] Lichi Mae: and i'm just like....ok, i need to leave in 15 mins
[22:40] Arblst1: how stupid do you have to be...
[22:40] Arblst1: but it's modesto
[22:40] Arblst1: so i guess i'm not surprised
[22:40] Lichi Mae: cuz i wanted to be out of there by 1
[22:40] Lichi Mae: ya
[22:41] Lichi Mae: she wouldn't shut up at longs, and she was talking the the cashier, and the clerk started to mock her tone, and it when over her head so i was just trying not to laugh
[22:42] Arblst1: lol
[22:42] Lichi Mae: so she's about to start, and a car drives in...
[22:42] Lichi Mae: and i
[22:42] Lichi Mae: i'm like fuck! forget it i need to go
[22:43] Lichi Mae: and she's like nope, let's go somewhere else
[22:43] Lichi Mae: so she's drives my car to a park
[22:43] Lichi Mae: and i finally get the keys back
[22:43] Lichi Mae: so she's like 'let's go walking and there's a spot where we can go
[22:44] Lichi Mae: and i'm just like....w/e.....
[22:44] Lichi Mae: then she was like....remember lacy peterson....this is the park scott killed her at
[22:44] Lichi Mae: ....and i was like.....omg....please don't kill me
[22:45] Arblst1: oh fuck
[22:45] Arblst1: wow not only that, but a total downer
[22:45] Lichi Mae: ya
[22:45] Lichi Mae: not only that, but she shows me the trail he dragged her from, and his house
[22:45] Arblst1: -.-
[22:46] Arblst1: what a fucking psycho
[22:46] Lichi Mae: and u know it's the house too
[22:46] Arblst1: o.O
[22:46] Arblst1: caution tape?
[22:46] Lichi Mae: still has a for sale sign
[22:46] Arblst1: lol wow
[22:46] Lichi Mae: and it's still that same fucking green
[22:47] Arblst1: i can't remember
[22:47] Arblst1: i didn't pay attention
[22:47] Lichi Mae: anyways we walk around and she was telling me when she was 14 her and like 20 friends would go there at night with sleeping bags and have orgies
[22:47] Lichi Mae: ....
[22:48] Lichi Mae: and i'm thinking....ok....i'm just gonna block u out til u go down
[22:48] Lichi Mae: so we get to the spot, and people are there
[22:49] Lichi Mae: and i'm pissed by this time, cuz it's 2:30 and it's been a freaking psycho waste of time, so we walk back
[22:49] Lichi Mae: she sees people walking dogs, and she talks to them, wating more time
[22:49] Lichi Mae: *wasting
[22:49] Arblst1: sigh
[22:49] Lichi Mae: and then she's like omg, i want one
[22:49] Arblst1: NO
[22:49] Arblst1: NONONONONONO lol
[22:50] Lichi Mae: i'll ask my BF to get me one!
[22:50] Lichi Mae: ...O_o
[22:50] Arblst1: yea, i thought so
[22:50] Lichi Mae: and she looks at me
[22:50] Lichi Mae: ...
[22:50] Arblst1: bitch, i don't have the money, and you have yet to put out, so don't call me bf yet
[22:50] Lichi Mae: ya
[22:51] Lichi Mae: so we walk back, and we stop by a tree, and i'm like 'enough is enough' and just wipe it out
[22:51] Lichi Mae: *whip
[22:51] Lichi Mae: so i got head in the middle of the field in the park lacy peterson was killed at in the middle of the afternoon
[22:52] Arblst1: lol...
[22:52] Arblst1: man if you were here right now lol
[22:52] Arblst1: it's so bad that it has to be true. i can't hold a straight face
[22:53] Lichi Mae: lol
[22:53] Lichi Mae: i was gonna straight up fuck her up against the tree
[22:53] Lichi Mae: but the dog people walked by again
[22:53] Lichi Mae: so i'm just like....ok, dick....u've been in control too long
[22:54] Lichi Mae: common sense kicks in
[22:54] Lichi Mae: so i walk fast back to my car
[22:54] Lichi Mae: and she grabs my hand with the keys, and i just grab them back, and take her where she needed to go
[22:55] Lichi Mae: and told her, 'ya, i'll come back when school
[22:55] Lichi Mae: 's on break
[22:55] Lichi Mae: and since i go to school in 'washington', it's hard to get around
[22:55] Lichi Mae: ;3
[22:56] Lichi Mae: so i drive out of the parking lot, and just into oncoming traffic, just floor it and get the fuck out of there
[22:57] Lichi Mae: and i don't stop
[22:57] Lichi Mae: i just head straight to the freeway and drive more than 100 mph all the way home
[22:58] Lichi Mae: screaming into my cellphone to bri 'YTF DO I ONLY MEET PSYCHOS???'
[22:58] Lichi Mae: then i got home and order pizza, smoked and played 9dragons
[22:59] Lichi Mae: and that's about the time you said: [21:29] Arblst1: hey
[22:59] Lichi Mae: and i said: [21:29] Lichi Mae: :V i'm not leaving my room ever again
[22:59] Arblst1: so...how was the head?
[22:59] Lichi Mae: ...meh...



School starts on the 29th. I'm not leaving until then. :<

[21:29] Arblst1: hey
[21:29] Lichi Mae: :V i'm not leaving my room ever again
[21:29] Arblst1: o.O
[21:29] Arblst1: now what'd you do
[21:30] Lichi Mae: it's long...
[21:30] Lichi Mae: so i'm going to the bathroom first
[21:30] Arblst1: lol ok
[21:38] Lichi Mae: h'okay

My Quest for getting Head for the First Time:

[21:39] Lichi Mae: i woke up yesterday, and bri called
[21:39] Lichi Mae: complaining as usual
[21:39] Arblst1: lol
[21:39] Lichi Mae: so i decided just to go to modesto and see her, cuz i haven't seen her in a while
[21:39] Lichi Mae: so i map quest it
[21:39] Lichi Mae: and it's 100 miles from here
[21:40] Lichi Mae: so i'm like...fuck
[21:40] Lichi Mae: so i pack a small bag, and just get in my car 30 minutes later
[21:40] Lichi Mae: i turn it on, and i have my lights automatic when u start the car
[21:41] Lichi Mae: but aparrently, now, if u turn them on, it shifts the entire car into reverse
[21:41] Arblst1: o.O
[21:41] Lichi Mae: so i'm just like...um....
[21:41] Arblst1: uh
[21:42] Lichi Mae: but i figured if i turned off the lights, it'd fix it, and it did
[21:42] Lichi Mae: but now, i can't drive at nite
[21:42] Arblst1: how is that possible
[21:42] Lichi Mae: idk
[21:42] Lichi Mae: it's just the beginning
[21:42] Arblst1: lights should not be connected to the drive train at all
[21:42] Lichi Mae: dude....i know that....i just need to show u to believe it
[21:42] Arblst1: lol
[21:42] Arblst1: ok ok
[21:42] Arblst1: continue
[21:43] Lichi Mae: so i head out
[21:43] Lichi Mae: and 100 miles takes about 2 hours
[21:43] Lichi Mae: 1:45 maybe
[21:43] Lichi Mae: so, i'm going like....120 on I-5
[21:43] Lichi Mae: no...580
[21:44] Lichi Mae: and the turnoff i need is like hidden
[21:44] Lichi Mae: cuz u need to take another one to get to it
[21:44] Lichi Mae: so i see it too late, and it's a offramp thatmakes a loop
[21:45] Lichi Mae: so i slam on the brakes at 80, and being it down to 20 mph and live
[21:45] Lichi Mae: so i've driving more, i get there blah blah
[21:46] Lichi Mae: we pick up one of bri's friends who was in the process of dumping this guy
[21:46] Lichi Mae: just a lot of drama
[21:46] Lichi Mae: ...
[21:46] Lichi Mae: and i'm just there...like...um...
[21:46] Arblst1: "wanna smoke already?" lol
[21:46] Lichi Mae: i was saying that as soon as i got there...
[21:47] Lichi Mae: so the entire time, it was just weird...
[21:47] Arblst1: did bri make you get her
[21:47] Arblst1: the friend.
[21:47] Lichi Mae: no, she drove
[21:47] Arblst1: ah
[21:48] Lichi Mae: and also there's a HUGE gang war between the mexicans and the blacks, like just killing people on the streets
[21:48] Arblst1: uh
[21:48] Arblst1: damn
[21:48] Lichi Mae: so imagine me, bri, and a black chick who was the friend walking around all day
[21:48] Lichi Mae: just people looking all funny
[21:49] Lichi Mae: and i'm like, what? it's not the '50s anymore
[21:49] Arblst1: to their faces?
[21:49] Lichi Mae: a
[21:49] Lichi Mae: *ya
[21:49] Arblst1: [>.<]
[21:49] Lichi Mae: i don't live there, fuck them
[21:49] Arblst1: that's not why i made the face
[21:49] Lichi Mae: so, we were trying to cheer everyone up
[21:50] Lichi Mae: so we went to the mall, which is like.....1/10 of valley fair
[21:50] Lichi Mae: it's like a foot locker, a crappy EB, and spencers
[21:50] Lichi Mae: and a starbucks
[21:51] Arblst1: lol that's not a mall
[21:51] Lichi Mae: to them it is
[21:51] Lichi Mae: u know 120? up to yosemite?
[21:51] Lichi Mae: u don't know, 2 streets off the main road, it's all fields
[21:51] Lichi Mae: that's all the town is
[21:52] Lichi Mae: fields and a BAD ghetto
[21:52] Arblst1: i don't stop when i'm going to yosemite or w/e lol
[21:52] Arblst1: we stop in oakdale, MAYBE, or manteca
[21:52] Lichi Mae: u drive through though
[21:52] Lichi Mae: and it's all fields
[21:53] Arblst1: oakdale gas station is about all i remember
[21:53] Lichi Mae: that's all the town is
[21:53] Lichi Mae: and a walmart and target [*angry*]
[21:53] Lichi Mae: so bri mentions a hookah lounge and it happened to be ladies night, so i just jump up, and decided that that is a must
[21:54] Lichi Mae: so we drive to the lounge, and we smoke a little bit, and go in
[21:54] Lichi Mae: it may have been ladies nite, but men have to pay $20
[21:54] Lichi Mae: ...
[21:54] Arblst1: ow
[21:54] Arblst1: what's the normal cost
[21:54] Lichi Mae: that's important later
[21:54] Lichi Mae: $20
[21:55] Lichi Mae: they are free
[21:55] Arblst1: huh what's free
[21:55] Arblst1: admission?
[21:55] Lichi Mae: o nm, it was 28
[21:55] Lichi Mae: $28
[21:55] Arblst1: you pay for what you smoke?
[21:55] Lichi Mae: for a hookah
[21:55] Arblst1: oh
[21:55] Arblst1: what if you bring your own
[21:55] Lichi Mae: and to get in
[21:55] Arblst1: or not allowed
[21:55] Lichi Mae: no
[21:55] Arblst1: never been to one so i'm just wondering lol
[21:55] Lichi Mae: so there's a cover rate for guys
[21:56] Lichi Mae: plus hookah rental
[21:56] Lichi Mae: so i'm like....shit, i only got so much $
[21:56] Lichi Mae: so i paid, and we sat down
[21:57] Lichi Mae: so we were the first ones there, cuz it was 8, and people don't start to come in til about 9:30
[21:57] Lichi Mae: so we're hanging out, and since it's a small town, everyone knows everyone
[21:58] Lichi Mae: and there are 5 uniformed cops in there cuz of the gang war, and it's a popular place
[21:58] Lichi Mae: so i'm all ready like....'nice...place...?'
[21:59] Arblst1: lol
[21:59] Lichi Mae: so we're there about an hour, and this one big chick sits with us asking to take our pictures
[21:59] Arblst1: uh
[22:00] Lichi Mae: so i just said, 'don't u chicks have enough myspace crap' just as sarcastism
[22:00] Lichi Mae: and they're all like OMG I [<3] MYSPACE, proving my point
[22:01] Lichi Mae: so we're like 'ok, take the pics' and then she told me to put my hand around my gf's waist, and we were like, we're just friends
[22:01] Lichi Mae: so she automatically assumes i'm gay
[22:02] Lichi Mae: so i just stand up and start saying WTF
[22:02] Arblst1: wow
[22:02] Lichi Mae: and i ranted a bit, but i was told to shut up, so they took the pictures
[22:03] Lichi Mae: and then she decided the get in the pictures, with them and acted like i was their pimp
[22:03] Lichi Mae: and she started making moves on me
[22:03] Lichi Mae: ok, since u've never been in a lounge before, it's dark
[22:03] Lichi Mae: very dark
[22:03] Lichi Mae: but i'm desperate, so i was like....meh...y not?
[22:04] Lichi Mae: so the dj's playing rap, like all ghetto dumbasses do, and she says 'let's go dancing' and grabs my arm
[22:05] Arblst1: lol
[22:05] Lichi Mae: and by this time, there are 40+ people in the club
[22:05] Arblst1: oh god
[22:05] Arblst1: i hate dancing
[22:05] Arblst1: -.-
[22:05] Lichi Mae: and two big people on the dance floor freaking
[22:05] Lichi Mae: ...
[22:05] Lichi Mae: ain't pretty
[22:05] Lichi Mae: for anyone
[22:06] Lichi Mae: so i'm trying to dance and just not think that the entire club was watching
[22:06] Lichi Mae: and they were
[22:07] Lichi Mae: so the dj knew the chick and was just encouraging it
[22:07] Arblst1: damn..
[22:08] Lichi Mae: so he's like 'UP AGAINST DA' WALL!" so she threw and pinned me against the wall, and was dry humping me
[22:08] Lichi Mae: and i'm just like...omg....someone....
[22:08] Lichi Mae: ...
[22:09] Arblst1: i don't even want to say: "just when you thought it couldn't get any worse"
[22:09] Arblst1: because i know it probably did
[22:09] Lichi Mae: so the dj's like 'what's this foo's name?' and bri and her friend yell ' it's fucking matt'
[22:10] Lichi Mae: in high school, and still now, all my friends call me fucking matt
[22:10] Lichi Mae: it's just annoying after a while...
[22:10] Lichi Mae: cuz EVERYONE but u does it
[22:10] Arblst1: i knew bri said that
[22:10] Arblst1: but i didn't know why
[22:10] Lichi Mae: so all the DJ's get on the mike, and chant 'fucking matt'
[22:11] Lichi Mae: and the entire club is cheering me on
[22:11] Arblst1: oh lawd
[22:11] Lichi Mae: and i'm like....i could SO be playing 9Dragons...
[22:11] Arblst1: >.>
[22:11] Arblst1: i just hit oc 1
[22:11] Lichi Mae: rc4
[22:11] Arblst1: going hybrid
[22:11] Lichi Mae: ?
[22:11] Arblst1: medic sucks
[22:11] Lichi Mae: oo
[22:11] Arblst1: i am going hybrid on this toon

[22:12] Arblst1: cuz it's the best soloing class
[22:12] Lichi Mae: i have to say i'm enjoying it
[22:13] Lichi Mae: ok, so the club is chanting that, and the song ends and we walk to sit down, my head buried in my hands, and the club starts clapping
[22:14] Lichi Mae: and some guy comes up, and says he got it all on camera, and that it's going on UTube
[22:14] Lichi Mae: ...
[22:14] Arblst1: i knew it was going to get worse...
[22:14] Arblst1: damn that sucks
[22:14] Lichi Mae: so, i'm just like...on the couch, just tired and lying back
[22:14] Lichi Mae: and PLOP
[22:15] Lichi Mae: she sits on my lap
[22:15] Lichi Mae: ....and she's one big motha fucka
[22:15] Arblst1: Lol
[22:15] Arblst1: ouch
[22:17] Lichi Mae: so she's like just trying to.....i'll leave out a LOT of details, but she gave me a condom, and we were just fooling around, dancing more, and fooling around
[22:17] Lichi Mae: and in these lounges, there are couchs that make booths for privaty
[22:17] Lichi Mae: not for that, but just in general
[22:18] Lichi Mae: and she tells me to fuck her right there....
[22:18] Lichi Mae: and i'm like....um.....i'm good
[22:18] Arblst1: wow
[22:18] Arblst1: yea, no way in hell
[22:18] Lichi Mae: ooooo it goes well in to this morning
[22:18] Arblst1: you were there overnight?
[22:18] Arblst1: oh shi-
[22:19] Lichi Mae: ya, the headlights, remember
[22:19] Arblst1: makes sense too
[22:19] Lichi Mae: so when we did talk, she said she had a lot of weed, so i made a mental note
[22:20] Lichi Mae: it's 11pm and bri has work in the morning, and we leave, and get her #
[22:20] Lichi Mae: so i decide that in the morning, i'll call and get a hookup before i leave
[22:21] Lichi Mae: so sleep, morning....6am
[22:21] Lichi Mae: i wake up from a nightmare, just jump up
[22:21] Lichi Mae: i don't remember what, i just do
[22:21] Lichi Mae: so i can't fall back asleep, and i got like 4 hours
[22:22] Arblst1: after a night like that, i can imagine you would
[22:22] Lichi Mae: so bri's grandma makes me breakfast, i talk to her for a bit, and i have to go run errands, like bank, gas, etc
[22:23] Lichi Mae: so i go out and look at my map...it ends right as the town starts
[22:23] Lichi Mae: so it's not on the map
[22:23] Lichi Mae: so i'm driving around, and i look at my tank
[22:23] Lichi Mae: it's on E
[22:24] Lichi Mae: so i drive to the closest gas station, and look in my wallet
[22:24] Lichi Mae: remember that cover rate for the club?
[22:24] Arblst1: yea
[22:24] Lichi Mae: i have $5
[22:24] Lichi Mae: to get back to SJ
[22:24] Lichi Mae: so i go to use my card
[22:25] Lichi Mae: insuffent funds
[22:25] Lichi Mae: it's all in my savings, not checking
[22:25] Arblst1: need a computer to xfer?
[22:25] Lichi Mae: no, i just needed to find an ATM
[22:25] Lichi Mae: and they didn't know where one was
[22:26] Lichi Mae: so i fill up with what i got and drive down the only street i remember
[22:26] Lichi Mae: i find a station and the letters ATM were in the window
[22:26] Lichi Mae: i think there was a point where i hugged the machine
[22:27] Lichi Mae: so i buy a map and some gum and a drink
[22:27] Lichi Mae: and i decided to call that chick from the club
[22:28] Lichi Mae: to get the hook up, and...finish what she'd promised...
[22:28] Lichi Mae: :< i'm so ashamed
[22:28] Arblst1: i can tell
[22:29] Arblst1: the ellipses give it away
[22:29] Lichi Mae: ;o;
[22:29] Lichi Mae: so i spend an hour trying to find where she lived
[22:29] Lichi Mae: ....
[22:29] Lichi Mae: so i FINALLY find her, and i see her in the light
[22:30] Lichi Mae: ....
[22:30] Lichi Mae: so i'm like....shit...
[22:30] Lichi Mae: can't go back now...
[22:30] Lichi Mae: so she was just talking, and didn't shut up
[22:31] Lichi Mae: and as it turns out, she thought i was 27, and closer to her OWN age...
[22:31] Arblst1: oh my god. lol
[22:31] Lichi Mae: guess a #?
[22:31] Arblst1: 32?
[22:31] Lichi Mae: next week
[22:32] Arblst1: 25
[22:32] Lichi Mae: no, she turns 32 next week
[22:32] Arblst1: oh
[22:32] Arblst1: i thought you meant: pick a number that's next week
[22:32] Lichi Mae: o
[22:33] Lichi Mae: no, her kids, though, are 14 and 7
[22:33] Arblst1: oh shit
[22:33] Lichi Mae: and she was talking about how she's gonna put a hit on her ex husband
[22:33] Arblst1: that's about the time you run
[22:33] Arblst1: lol and that's a bigger red flag
[22:33] Lichi Mae: ya
[22:34] Lichi Mae: but we go to the mall to drop off the camera of evil sin of the nite before at a longs
[22:34] Arblst1: or you could've smashed it to pieces
[22:35] Lichi Mae: and being as a drove a lexus in the ghetto, the niggas and playa be impressed
[22:35] Arblst1: Lol
[22:35] Lichi Mae: so she's like take a pictures behind the wheel
[22:35] Lichi Mae: of her behind the wheel...
[22:36] Lichi Mae: so we switch
[22:36] Lichi Mae: cuz by this point, i'm just....just give me head
[22:36] Lichi Mae: ....then go away
[22:37] Lichi Mae: so she's like, i know a nice place, so i'm like 'ok, let's switch back' and she starts to drive it
[22:37] Lichi Mae: ....
[22:37] Arblst1: tough decision time
[22:38] Arblst1: "don't drive my car" or no head, it would seem
[22:38] Lichi Mae: ya
[22:38] Lichi Mae: but the story goes on
[22:39] Lichi Mae: so she drives to this place behind a graveyard, and a cop car is like less than a block away
[22:40] Arblst1: o.O
[22:40] Lichi Mae: and i'm just like....ok, i need to leave in 15 mins
[22:40] Arblst1: how stupid do you have to be...
[22:40] Arblst1: but it's modesto
[22:40] Arblst1: so i guess i'm not surprised
[22:40] Lichi Mae: cuz i wanted to be out of there by 1
[22:40] Lichi Mae: ya
[22:41] Lichi Mae: she wouldn't shut up at longs, and she was talking the the cashier, and the clerk started to mock her tone, and it when over her head so i was just trying not to laugh
[22:42] Arblst1: lol
[22:42] Lichi Mae: so she's about to start, and a car drives in...
[22:42] Lichi Mae: and i
[22:42] Lichi Mae: i'm like fuck! forget it i need to go
[22:43] Lichi Mae: and she's like nope, let's go somewhere else
[22:43] Lichi Mae: so she's drives my car to a park
[22:43] Lichi Mae: and i finally get the keys back
[22:43] Lichi Mae: so she's like 'let's go walking and there's a spot where we can go
[22:44] Lichi Mae: and i'm just like....w/e.....
[22:44] Lichi Mae: then she was like....remember lacy peterson....this is the park scott killed her at
[22:44] Lichi Mae: ....and i was like.....omg....please don't kill me
[22:45] Arblst1: oh fuck
[22:45] Arblst1: wow not only that, but a total downer
[22:45] Lichi Mae: ya
[22:45] Lichi Mae: not only that, but she shows me the trail he dragged her from, and his house
[22:45] Arblst1: -.-
[22:46] Arblst1: what a fucking psycho
[22:46] Lichi Mae: and u know it's the house too
[22:46] Arblst1: o.O
[22:46] Arblst1: caution tape?
[22:46] Lichi Mae: still has a for sale sign
[22:46] Arblst1: lol wow
[22:46] Lichi Mae: and it's still that same fucking green
[22:47] Arblst1: i can't remember
[22:47] Arblst1: i didn't pay attention
[22:47] Lichi Mae: anyways we walk around and she was telling me when she was 14 her and like 20 friends would go there at night with sleeping bags and have orgies
[22:47] Lichi Mae: ....
[22:48] Lichi Mae: and i'm thinking....ok....i'm just gonna block u out til u go down
[22:48] Lichi Mae: so we get to the spot, and people are there
[22:49] Lichi Mae: and i'm pissed by this time, cuz it's 2:30 and it's been a freaking psycho waste of time, so we walk back
[22:49] Lichi Mae: she sees people walking dogs, and she talks to them, wating more time
[22:49] Lichi Mae: *wasting
[22:49] Arblst1: sigh
[22:49] Lichi Mae: and then she's like omg, i want one
[22:49] Arblst1: NO
[22:49] Arblst1: NONONONONONO lol
[22:50] Lichi Mae: i'll ask my BF to get me one!
[22:50] Lichi Mae: ...O_o
[22:50] Arblst1: yea, i thought so
[22:50] Lichi Mae: and she looks at me
[22:50] Lichi Mae: ...
[22:50] Arblst1: bitch, i don't have the money, and you have yet to put out, so don't call me bf yet
[22:50] Lichi Mae: ya
[22:51] Lichi Mae: so we walk back, and we stop by a tree, and i'm like 'enough is enough' and just wipe it out
[22:51] Lichi Mae: *whip
[22:51] Lichi Mae: so i got head in the middle of the field in the park lacy peterson was killed at in the middle of the afternoon
[22:52] Arblst1: lol...
[22:52] Arblst1: man if you were here right now lol
[22:52] Arblst1: it's so bad that it has to be true. i can't hold a straight face
[22:53] Lichi Mae: lol
[22:53] Lichi Mae: i was gonna straight up fuck her up against the tree
[22:53] Lichi Mae: but the dog people walked by again
[22:53] Lichi Mae: so i'm just like....ok, dick....u've been in control too long
[22:54] Lichi Mae: common sense kicks in
[22:54] Lichi Mae: so i walk fast back to my car
[22:54] Lichi Mae: and she grabs my hand with the keys, and i just grab them back, and take her where she needed to go
[22:55] Lichi Mae: and told her, 'ya, i'll come back when school
[22:55] Lichi Mae: 's on break
[22:55] Lichi Mae: and since i go to school in 'washington', it's hard to get around
[22:55] Lichi Mae: ;3
[22:56] Lichi Mae: so i drive out of the parking lot, and just into oncoming traffic, just floor it and get the fuck out of there
[22:57] Lichi Mae: and i don't stop
[22:57] Lichi Mae: i just head straight to the freeway and drive more than 100 mph all the way home
[22:58] Lichi Mae: screaming into my cellphone to bri 'YTF DO I ONLY MEET PSYCHOS???'
[22:58] Lichi Mae: then i got home and order pizza, smoked and played 9dragons
[22:59] Lichi Mae: and that's about the time you said: [21:29] Arblst1: hey
[22:59] Lichi Mae: and i said: [21:29] Lichi Mae: :V i'm not leaving my room ever again
[22:59] Arblst1: so...how was the head?
[22:59] Lichi Mae: ...meh...



School starts on the 29th. I'm not leaving until then. :<

With who have you done it with?

[x] With a chick
[x] With two chicks
[x] With a guy
[x] With two guys

[x] With a guy and a girl

[x] In a group over 5
[x] With someone half your age or less (she was 5 years old, and walked in and got in on the action too)
[x] With someone twice your age or more (I’m going with over 60, but I’m not sure)
[x] With a stranger
[x] With a neighbor
[] With a teacher
[x] With an animal (my dog and cat, and my friend’s dog)
[x] By yourself

Where have you done it?

[x] Your room
[x] Your closet
[x] Someone else’s room
[x] Someone else’s closet
[x] On a couch
[x] On the floor
[x] Kitchen
[x] Living room
[x] Bathroom
[x] Car
[x] Truck
[] Van
[x] Parking lot
[x] Swimming pool
[x] Hot tub
[x] At a party
[x] Neighbor’s house
[x] At work
[x] At school; if so, where?

Bathroom, parking lot, during class (skipped for it, and inside of the classroom during class): High School

Roof: Elementary School

Quad: College

Man…I’ve done it everywhere. :O





I like to smoke pot in lots of places and with a lot of people. :3

Okay, so I figured out that if I study for a final, I fail, but if I don't, I pass quite well. V:

I also found a gift for Michele that was cheap, some art stuff cheap as hell, and I drew my first porn for FA. :3

On to the partying! :V

I need motivation. Someone kick my ass for me. I might help. D:

Was he a victim of treachery by a friend or did he choose to be betrayed? If it was his will that he be betrayed than what is the culpability of the person who betrayed him?

"For God so loved the world, that he gave his his greatest human, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not this man into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved."


As we go through live, we really have to give thanks to him.

Of course, I'm speaking of the one and only Tupac Shakur.

Show some love. <3



:3~

For anyone else that's in love, and can't do shit about it. This journal's for you.

A lot of people are in the same position, and pray that the day will come that the person we love will return the same feelings. It's our fall, and our strength.

(Note: Works for any gender, I know lots of girls that it can work for. So it can be taken in a general sense. :V)

The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl�s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they�re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don�t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn�t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you�d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn�t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing �serious� between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: �oh, but we�re just friends!� And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you�re nice like that.

The nice guys don�t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don�t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can�t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as �oh, he�s too nice to date� or �he would be a good boyfriend but he�s not for me� or �he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn�t possibly ask him out!� or the most frustrating of all: �no, it would ruin our friendship.� Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can�t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I�m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn�t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you�re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, insane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgment, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.



So stay strong...God knows some of us still have the strength to fight on. :<

First off, I wanna say that I'm okay after setting my arm on fire this week. Fire Is BAD! D:<
It didn't damage the skin as much as it felt like. :V

Anyways, sorry I haven't been submitting, or anything. I've been in a art block and a general funk for about a month or so, and then after writing another journal about how love hurts and thinking about it, I'm just depressed as hell. I usually get like this around Christmas, but I think the first Christmas without my mom is gonna be the hardest. I just don't wanna feel alone...I mean, I don't think anyone does, but I just mean...you know? Ugh.

...I had a lot more to say, but I don't wanna type anymore.

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I ran into  NecroDrone13 at Denny's last night and she told me about FA. So I joined. :V

My main site is on SheezyArt, because I still have to get use to all the weird shit I've seen on this site... >_>

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So much sex. X_o

Like a moneyshot in the eye. ;o;