Hey everyone going be re-posting a post a game company sent out to help our wild life in my county from the bush fires please read below and thank you for tho's who donate god bless <3.
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Help to save Kao’s home!
100% profit from Kao the Kangaroo: Round 2 sales will be donated to the Australian bushfire relief.

At the very moment, the whole world is watching Australia suffer due to the unprecedented, disastrous bushfire activity.

We want to unite with Australia in this especially difficult hour as it is really hard to stay idly and watch this catastrophe. We feel obliged to help, as Australia with its wildlife is the motherland of Kao the Kangaroo.

From January 9th until January 19th, 2020 all the profit (100%) from sales of Kao the Kangaroo: Round 2 on Steam will be donated to the WIRES (NSW Wildlife Information, Rescue and Education Service Inc.)
The sales report and the wire transfer confirmation will be openly available afterward.


It is a great feeling to start the new year with a good deed on your account!

Please, help us to spread the word #Kao4Australia

https://store.steampowered.com/app/.....garoo_Round_2/

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The steam game link above is the game 100% profits being sent to wild life so thank you once again for helping us over here the bush fires are very bad as there is thick smock out side of even my home and i'm not close to the bush fires tho it is within my state seeming to be burning away a lot of wild life.

i should of posted of this 3 weeks ago but i'v been busy with getting things sorted out in my life awhile i get things ready at home to recover from surgery and now its time as tomorrow i ll have surgery i'll be getting my gulbladder removed so i'll be put to sleep late in the afternoon.

And i'll be at the hospital for the whole day and be staying there one night, I'll most likely be coming home the following day i'm quite nervous about surgery tho since its biggest surgery i'v ever had as i'm worried i might die haha everyone says i'm worrying over nothing but i guess i'm kinda paranoid person when it comes to things like this.

But anyways just the quick update on why i'v been like dead silent on here, so i hope i'll make it out ok tomorrow and hopefully........my poor belly is not scared badly

T_T'''''''''''''''''''''''my body!'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''


I'll make sure to read up on all the support i get from anyone who see's and leaves a comment down below,

Tho please don't feel that your obligated or pressured in leaving a comment this is more for a news update but i'm always happy to read up on any loving support you guys always give.

If by any chance something does happen to me and something go's wrong i like to say a final thanks for your support everyone and i'm happy i met wonderful people and made new friends along the way! I hope to hear back from me soon when i recover!.

Hey all abby here its been awhile hasn't it?,

So not sure if anyone wounded where I went off to to be honest i'm probably easily forgotten person since i'm no big artist or some famous person >.< but this journal is for tho's who tend to stay in touch with me and for tho's thank you and miss you all <3.

So whats been going on well I'v booked a appointment to go see the surgeon to take care of my gallbladder stones and it took months until i finally able to see this surgeon and once we were in the room i asked a bunch of questions about the risks and the chances and blood clots and dying in surgery and after all that after my questions was answered i new myself i was going ask to have my gallbladder removed to begin with.

but i ended up throwing up in the sink next to us in the surgeons room so lets recap i kinda thrown up in the room with the surgeon from him telling me i must get my gallbladder removed for multiple reasons one due to me able to get cancer and two they will come back sooner and worse and i would need ether anther keyhole surgery or to totally remove the gallbladder.

I wanted my gallbladder removed anyways because i wont be able to handle the pressure of having it removed in the future its safe to say i don't handle surgery well it sometimes makes me question how i will handle a sex change in the future when i ever get around to it but to be honest i am willing to die for that sex change over dying over a stupid gallbladder.....

But with that all said my Anti Josie past away as well recently my poor anti she was having a hard life in her old age at 90 so she was having it rough it came to time when her liver was shutting down and it was getting bad for her and she past away recently so i will be attending her funeral in up soon.

And finally we will be moving house soon as well to a smaller house but a house non the less from a unit to a house you'd think the house would be bigger but its not, sadly not theses type of homes.

So thats all thats been going on in my life at the moment so hope to see some old faces again its been a long time so hope no one has forgotten about me ^^

Hey all i know i'v been quite for so long have not uploaded any art work of my own or commissioned art work, the reason to me being gone for so long is good few reasons mostly ends to the main reason in the end,

So i'v been sick lately and not a typical cold or what not i mean....like physically sick unwell throwing up sweating on forward getting bad back pains and even having severe pain in my back and my stomach ever since June 2017 around September i had my grist major attack twice one on the first week then next on the second week it was so painful i wanted to die to be honest : /.

I ended up going to the doctors and booking myself in for an ultrasound to for my body to see if i got gallbladder stones and what do they find i do...i do happen to have gallbladder stones 17 MM big as well thats about 2 inches big stones from my measurements that i did with a ruler,

In any case i been starving myself to prevent this pain to happen its like scales if eat too less you get bad hunger pains and can set off chain reaction to stones ironically as you move about in pain from not eating ===> sets of the stones from moving but if you eat to much you end up bloated and that ends up setting off the stones as well,

Not only that if don't go to the bathroom regularly and do your stuff you know pee and poop XD lol...your bladder and what not presses against your gallbladder and when it does surprise surprise pain hits yeah because pressing and even moving the stones at times,

So i'm stuck at a fighting battle to make sure i eat enough but do not over eat,

I also need to make sure i go to the bathroom regularly or pain hits again

I also gotta make sure i eat proper foods that wont set of the pain as well like doctor said not allowed to eat fried foods

I also cant bend over in certain ways or pain hits and i am in that horrific pain again,

So with that said its been a nightmare i don't look forward to the surgery but i am planing to have them removed but scared out of mind to do it regardless now other reasons why i also been gone well simple really big family events Christmas gathering with 10+ family members keep in mind my family are Italian and my sister boyfriend is Indian,

So you know your gonna have a big family gathering lol then after Christmas day was boxing day this was the true big family gathering where all my family and sisters boyfriends family and friends all came to my sisters house there was like 20+ people >.< then finally it was over.............for a week lol me my dad my mum and brother all went on a road trip for new year,

We had my brother driving with my dad teaching him how to drive a manual car so there was a lot of bunny hopping in the middle of the road and lights lol.......scary i tell yeah driving all the way up north like hours drive 8 hours to first stop then 2 days latter 3 hours to next stop then 5 hours to the next stop then 8 hours back home,

Thats 2 days per stop we stayed at on the second day of the one week holiday i actually ended up in a small hospital in a small town when my gallbladder stones flared up after me bending al the way down to look under a long wide wooden bench chair on a river steam boat cruise dad took us on to find my mums purse as she lost it, this had my card in it to and i do not wanna lose that ._.''',

This was at the time i did not realize i can't bend forward to much because of my stones i ended up having pain and i mean bad........pain you don't even know how painful the stones are if you never had them, anyways bad pains happen few minutes after doing that i ended up throwing up on a vary minimum rocking boat because of the stones then after finally got off after an hour or so on it and went back to where we stayed had a shower trying to stop the bad pain and boy was it bad it did not stop,

I ended up thinking might of coursed internal bleeding in my gallbladder from bending over to hard and was on the phone with my sister crying telling her all about this thinking i need to go to the hospital in a small town in a small hospital me being so far from my own home town and in far of me having surgery here and now,

And keep in mind this was on the VERY first day of the new year so all the shops most of them anyway were closed and most people working were not working so i ended up being driven to the hospital by my dad and got out into the emergency room and ohhhhhhh boy was it packed with people almost every seat but funny enough no one seemed to be in pain like????? AT ALL but me now don't wanna sound selfish or rude but i needed to go into the hospital here and now as at the time i was in so much pain i barely could breath or think to myself i almost felt like was going pass out,

They said there beds were full and i had to wait and did i wait alright 3 hours i waited then i was finally seen by a nurse and she used a tiny finger clip on my finger to see my heat rate and it was going through the roof i was moaning and squirming in pain and having 1 hand face palming my face and in tears... she checked my blood pressure as well,

She asked few questions i answered them and then she put me on a wheel chair explaining the hospital is full she going try and find spare bed for me when its available anyways i waited moaning and squirming in my wheel chair as i am put back in the emergency waiting room after few hours of waiting.....the pain slowly dyed down and the doors opens down into the hall,

As a older lady around 38 i'd say, called me my name Abby........bah bah..........."like if she had a long and stressful day i felt bad adding onto her already long and hard day even tho she was not the one seeing me she just called out to me, anyways my mum wheels me in and i get into my bed and wait another 30 minutes........or an hour....

And finally.........a doctor comes and see's me his an Indian doctor thats hard to understand but he means well tho his talking to me and err as he talking he sorta also spitting on my face.... ( GROSS ! ) but i try put on a slight smile even tho i am like errr god such long wait pain is already dyed down thank god tho and barely can understand this doctor and the guy spitting on my face XD he doesn't mean to tho don't get me wrong his a nice guy ! :P,

Its just if you put yourself in my shoes you'll know why i am bothered by it so much i'm OCD and got germophobia don't like touching most things with my hands and what not so can understand why having someone else spit on your face would totally mess with me >.< !,

ANYWAYSS..........moving on....i push that aside and focused on the task at hand my problem i ask him if i need surgery or any kind he said if the pain is gone and all that i wont need anything to help with the pain other the pain killers to help with smaller amounts of pain i was keep having as for the surgery no need for it since i am on my second day holiday and he did not want to ruin it for us,

And i was so far from home and on top of that most of the pain died down but......he said to take it easy for now on, and the hospital was full and i don't think there was much doctors around to preform surgery anyways it was the first day of the new year so they probably on break??? well maybe i am not sure i know som gt paid alot to work on new year day for surgery but was not sure for this small hospital you see maybe my home town year for sure since where i am from we got all the stuff you would ever need but in the country its bit more well you know out of luck in the country in small towns,

And the sucky part was about being in hospital is as well my dad booked tickets for all of us to watch a movie in the small towns old theater and since i ended up in hospital my dad had to refund my mums and my tickets and my brother and my dad only got to see the movie SAD DAY i am a movie buff and i totally felt left out and jelly :P but................my sister said once i get back home she wants to go see the movie and said we both can watch it at home so you know what? ABBY GETS TO SEETHE MOVIE ON BIGGER AND BETTER SEATS AND BIGGER SCREEN WOOOOOO :D my dad and brother made out they were jelly about it n the way home to make me feel better <3 its nice of them,


anyways now i am finally home and resting for few weeks after 2 weeks of resting going watch this movie with my sister then go to the doctors to book myself into seeing a specialist for the gallbladder stones that he or she will do there thing check me out i guess it cost me bit to see them and then book myself into get the stones removed at a point in time,

If my stones act up again and i end up in hospital sooner then i guess i get the stones removed sooner to in a much bigger emergency room well this time i going be taken in by ambulance because you get into a bed quicker that way and i am covered when i do use them wont cost me an arm or a leg, but if i don't end up getting the pains before the booked date for surgery then i guess by that time i'd be going into hospital to get the stones removed normally with out rush to the emergency room,

So thats whats been going on in my shity life lol and i feel bad to because last furcon i made a bet i'd draw a new found friend an art work head shot of his character but i ended up falling sick through out the year getting worse and by time it hit June it was when it all began its actual pains instead of me feeling sick like throwing up and all that,

I haven't even spoke to him since the furcon because of me feeling bad about it and me being also sick just been trying deal with the whole throwing up the bathroom thing and all that it really does cripple you : / and its just another thing to add to my already problems with my body like bones and OCD and disorders,

I'm not perfect in fact i'm far from perfect and i tend to feel like i am burden on people but i really enjoy my friends around me and it does mean the world when they understand my problems but i'm glad i do not have any problems that effect the people around me well apart from me needing help since i'm sick more then ever tho,

Anyways i am just rambling on right now feel free to leave any comment below since i miss all you guys who follow me i really go i'm sorry been gone so long i really am looking out for the comments to hear back from everyone of you since its been so long ! thanks love you all :D



<3 Abby <3

So its my birthday guys and i'm yet again one year older sad day :( but yep its my birthday nothing special here i guess :P lol

Hey all this poor girl needs help i'm here to help spread the word about this as she suffering in quite bit of pain and been through some hardship from it and struggling with money to pay for it with that i'm doing all i can to lend a hand myself <3

So my watchers who's reading this thank you for taking and interest god bless your hearts and please consider spreading the word i'm considering trying donate at lest 50 usd to her if things go well its not much but its all i can give at the moment with the things i already had planed to pay for awhile ago i wont go into details,

With that said sorry for big delay on the watchers raffle that i posted good awhile back the reasons behind it is i'v been supporting Furlana a lot for past few months helping her out with her wedding as much as i can on my end :) and she has been busy doing commissions as well as the ones i'v gotten or still getting from her in the future to help pay for the wedding,

And all that with that said i will be doing the raffle again if it hits 300 by time me and furlana get around doing it i might consider and talk it over with lana to see if we can pull off another big one like the first 100th watchers that had 5 people in it ,

So with that said i'm going to help To_Be_A_Bird by spreading the word and seeing if i can send over 50 usd and hopefully that helps even how small that is, I feel bad i can't send over more as i'v invested in time and money into other things to help more then i can at this very moment but she needs help in next 5-10 days as it is written in her post,

So over all if you all can donate money or spread the word for To_Be_A_Bird please consider it thank you for reading and caring and sharing god bless your hearts <3 !

Hey guys so I'v hit 200 watchers and I'm preparing myself for a small raffle I'm still decideing what the prizes will be it most likely will be small since I'm broke af at the moment in terms of things going on but I'm happy to draw art for the winners,

And with that said I'm thinking something small and on an easier scale for me since its summer still and its hot and I can't use my table much or draw much in the heat and sometimes I'm just sick now and then,

So with that said keep a look out on the Raffle journal I'll be designing soon like my 100th Raffle journal with the rules and what not and color text :P and this is the type of head shot drawing's i'm considering drawing

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19657277/

Witch took me a week to draw with a refeance to a side view of the face so done pretty well on that at the time,

So depending on the anthro character hopefully I'm able to draw them and do some justice to them winners I'm not very skilled in drawing anything but canines felines and cows as I'v drawn them more then anything else but I'm always up for a challenge :),

So with that said expect the winners to be around only 1-2 people as each 100th watcher count I'l do something small tho I plan to do another big raffle commission with same if not more people like I did on my 100th watcher raffle since it was my first raffle and first 100th mark I hit :P,

So on the far future keep an eye for that and hopefully i'm still alive haha :P

Here is the 100th watcher commission if anyone has not yet seen it to give of an example what the 1k may bring :)

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22538050/

Other then all of that if you guys got any suggestions on future small raffle prizes like keep doing head shots / or busts / anything else feel free to leave a comment and I'll be sure to do my best to get back to you guys <3 thanks I do read my comments and I do reply to everyone I can ! <3 ty all for supporting me hope to hear from you all

100 Watchers ! time for a Raffle!, So I'v been keeping a secret and thought about what to do when I hit the 100th mark on watchers so....I thought it would be fun and fair if I did a Raffle pick for all my watchers,

I'v seen others do them before on stream or journals so I'd like to do one myself for all my watchers you guys saw something special in me,
special enough to watch me so thank you I only I didn't think I was really worth watching at this point but it seems I was wrong but it means a lot to me guys 😍,

I hope we all can share my experience in drawing art and one day soon me doing commissions for others that being said to the fun part ! 😇
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The Raffle rules go like this so its fair for everyone <3 and its very simple all you gotta do guys i leave a comment below anything! with in few weeks possible a full month I'll pick out 4 people!,

Each person will be with in a big art commission of my choice and location to celebrate the 100th commission now your choices you'll be asked if you are 1 of the 4 picked to win the Raffle are,


1. Is this raffle commission entry free and being with in the commission free? and will it cost me anything at all?: The answer is NOPE its 100% FREE to enter 100% FREE to be in the art commission at NO cost what so ever and this could very well be a really good detailed art piece to :)

2. When will the Free Raffle end?: The Raffle will end at September 15th so comment down blow to claim your entry

3. What do I have to do to enter?: Comment below to enter and link if possible your refeance or extreme an detail of your character design // look and most of all you MUST be a watcher ! of mine so its only fair to my watchers that they get a chance at it and I'll be checking who is and is not my watcher...<.<....>.>

4. I highly recommend a Reference sheet to get your character in there if you got any sort of refeance sheet or any form of refeance you can gather if you got no solid art refeance you must give an extreme detail of how you look and we'll see what we can do and I'll get back to you about it :)

5. It can only be SFW art commission as its for everyone's eyes to see sorry!

6. if you don't want to keep your spot in the Raffle or the art commission must tell me before I begin the commission to avoid any issues if this is the case I'll pick someone else within the comments list within 24's to replace you after confining that you don't want your free spot in the commission so don't worry guys! ^_^

7. To avoid most "will not do's" from artist lists and allow us to get an easy commission going,

I can't and will not accept the following below

⚠ No micro, Macro, diaper/cub, inflation, vore, hyper, extreme/excessive gore/violence, Sonic, MLP, Pokemon No scat, No water watersports Internal shots, and sadly no feral's sorry I like feral's :( ⚠

8, And finally once you are picked and I note you I'll need to to get back to me with in 24 hours is the most I can spare as artists journals and commissions open and close spots all the time and I'd like to quickly get the winners and confirm the winners quickly to lock in our spot in a commission.

And guys I'v gotta make sure what you want on your part that I can allow is 100% confirmed by your part so no one will be upset or have a problem with the commission once its finalised and done by the artist that's very important,

Term of Service

9. If you are picked as one of the winners and wish to be in the commission you agree to the terms of use me and the three other winners that they have full rights to upload the commission with your character in it, I will be discussing with the artist about if its alright for myself and the winners to have permission to upload it on there FA with full credit to the artist,

10. You agree to the terms of this raffle and rules that you will give credit to the artist and to the raffle sponsor ( me ) who put time and effort into making the art and for paying for the art and you agree to the terms of crediting each FA character in the commission with :*iconNAME*: to display who are the winners in the commission and the sponsor and the artist.

11. If you win a place holder as one of the winners in the raffle and you want to be a part of the commission then you fully agree to the terms of service of this raffle and I will not be held responsible for theses who did not read and follow the rules

Things to know about the commission

Will this commission be free for us?: Yes it'll be free so no cost on your end! woo :P

How long it will take to be made?: depends on the artists :)

Will you have a say in what position you like to be in and what clothes your wearing?: Yes you will! as long as the artist is happy to do it to :)

Will and how will I get the copy of the commission once its finished?: two ways! one the artist will send it to you by given name I give them how they will send it to you is up to them or I can send it to you via E-mail or can just right click on the commission in my FA and copy it onto your computer and upload it to your FA only if your the winner! and very important here guys if you have permission by me and the artist to upload it to your FA,

Can I upload the commission to my FA once I get it?: Yes! if only me and the artist give permission to do so I don't mind personally :)

So guys good luck! :D

Raffle Winners 4 // 4 Coming Soon... September 15th

The artist who will be drawing and doing the commission for the winners and myself in the commission art work will be found above the raffle winners

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Artist: furlana
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congratulations Raffle Winners!

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1. Seaweed

2. AzureParagon

3. mewlover187

4. furlana
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I can't upload my story yet as I was going to do it tonight but I don't have Microsoft word to help me save it to a certain file type and correct any spelling errors and make it so its in a decent format for FA to read and display in text instead of downloading the file itself,

I like to have it allow the FA users to read it off FA itself and me to have a icon for the story but sadly I son't have an icon i like to use but more importantly office works to do what I need to do in order to post it I honestly did not know it was this much work for a story to be uploaded to FA : /

Sorry all :(

I mean I can upload it but you all would need to download the text file in order to read it : /

There isn't a way where can read it off FA it forces you to download the file onto your pc and read it from a text file?? O_o??? because I was hoping it'll allow you read it off the site o.O? please answer soon like to know as quick as i can >.<

Edit: Ok so I'v looked into it I need to get myself office word to to theses the way I want it to be done :P that sucks bit of a delay >.<

So...I'm finally posting my... my written story's I'v did thanks to a nice friend of mine she talked me into it as I was holding back on posting it as I was planing redoing it from the very beginning,

So doing so I'm releasing first set of the story that isn't where it would start off this story was based around my own personal digital diary and was inspired by many many things in my past life from movies to shows and games and cartoons and anime :P

I written this to let out my emotions and rage but also keep my mind off my real life issues and problems and hard ships I was going through in high school and suffering depression and such witch ended up making my story :P

That I'll post soon and I'v wanted to do something special one of a kind to its no normal book of any kind its done in my own way that not sure if others have done it in a similar fashion but hopefully not I worked really hard on this on my own time just to blow off steam and people oddly enough liked it on a web site that is no longer existent as it was for my world of warcraft guild that had one tab for story's and I was the only one posting them hehe,

So that being said anyone looking forward to this story? please answer below in the comments :)

no really please do I'm soooo lonely ._.

I'v been dieing to know something how does a massive battleship in space be slower then a tiny fighter in space if there is no gravity in space for one object to be heavier dus slower would be way'd down by gravity yes? so in space there is no gravity THERE FOR shouldn't be no reduced speed or increased wight to an object AKA spaceship :P,

So if a spaceship had same thrusters as the fighter wouldn't it by reason go same speed but in bigger ships thrusters are bigger yet they go slower then a fighter can you explain the complexity behind such things? XD
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So?? boys and girls lets see who can answer me this intelligent yet complex answer to pass your text I'v expect you all studied for this test did you not? "smacks wooden ruler in hand"


Anyone? :)

So I'v just bought zootopia! "jumps up and down with excitement like little 6 year old" :P I really love the movie like I did with frozen or bolt but most of all right now I feel more attached to zootopia then frozen or bolt with the characters and the life culture the world it has this home this good feel vibe to it a world,

I wish exited :P and I love to see more of or have a show with Judy or Nick and all the fun loving characters in a show or movie any ways I own the DVD to zootopia so it will forever be close to my heart :P <.<...>.>

Gah I wish I was 6 years old again or little younger being an grown up can suck and watching theses movies brings me back to things I enjoy the most when I was so little :D

zootopia!

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>.< Finding an artist I'm looking for who can prejudice the same or close to same detail as my wolf reference sheet is not easy I'v got tabs open of commission artists in line from like first to the last,

So far 2 are down and waiting on a reply from one, If there not able to commission me I have to go with the next best one to my liking,

There all good artists but its the vibe that the wolf reference sheet I'v got made for myself gives myself and probably others who look at it that tells and gives everyone the right realistic idea of my personality and facial expressions,

So I'm looking for that type of detail so future art work of my wolf or cow art or a fursuit will be close to a perfect reference even if a reference cost 200-250 hell I'll even pay 300 at most if it gets the job done well ^_^

With that being said I'm exited for the next step for my new ref sheet when it comes along I just wish the same artist was able to do the cow one but the poor girl is so stressed and over worked with her own life job,

We talk each other on skype when she can respond to my skype chat's she one of the most caring and sweet hearted person I'v met on FA that I'v gotten to know well within the time we been talking she put her time and effort and love and care in making a careful and well detailed and might I say perfect reference sheet for me,

Now don't get me wrong its not some super advanced cluttered highly detailed reference sheet out there like some I'v seen that show's off feral and private parts and details on parts of your body,

What makes it truly special is the faecal expressions and the time and love put into it to give it that personality and soul and vibe that it reflects inner personality

So now I'm after the same care and love and detail in the next reference sheet :P

Wish me luck! <3

yay i am yet another year older >.< save me....o.o

Hey guy's I safely landed in new Zealand other day been super busy and seeing family will post some photos :P so of right now its almost 2 am and I'll be heading of to bed for my dad's friends yacht we be sailing outside of Auckland city in new Zealand.

Then after that we maybe going to the city in the sky tower the following day then to a movie theater an old one at that to see it my dad talks about it a lot lol,

After that we be heading off to my anti's house on a farm with 2 most adorably cute friendly cows on the farm and spending a week there then heading further north up in north island,

From there not sure what elase we'll be doing on following week once we done all that but I'll try update my journal when I can and upload some photos along the way <3.

Hey All I'm bit in a rush so I'll keep this short for now I'll be going away to new Zealand as of today with my family for one whole month We'll be getting internet for our laptops so I can keep in touch with friends and my school to study and that means FA as well,

That being said you guys won't see me on for a bit until then I am very nervous and exited at the same time its my first time out of country on a holiday so I'm bit scared and panicking the aeroplane will go down in middle of the sea,

Or something will happen >.<!! so I hope it does not as it would totally suck if this is last time someone hears form me lol >.<!

So now that's all wrapped up in a nice little bow hope to see and hear from you again in the near future :P

I'll miss you all <3


<3 Abby <3

At tafe today my teacher was discussing self esteem and how one boy who go's to the same tafe as we do made this video he was in our class as well watching this with us and at the end he told us to ignore the downsides of life and stay positive,

So we watched a video made by Tom a young man who go's to my tafe each day in work ed he has a carer to look over him all the time but he walks on his own 2 feet now with extreme tunnel vision from what happend to him in his past and now he recoverd from almost from death that you can see in the video,

I go to 2 class's that have mixed with young teenagers and adults to sometimes some old adults who need to relearn there stuff they all seem to including myself have disability's and learning problems and such to separate them from most of the normal people in our high schools today,


As for myself I'm 22 years of age and transgender male who is working towards being female and its no easy way of doing as I am dealing with severe OCD and depression having a phobia of needles witch does slow down my process of getting hormones and making me less of what i want to be to be happy in the world,

As i experienced something traumatic with needles when i was little and few other things that stand in my way of being happy so I'm no normal or smart talented girl in the world but I do tend to try and draw something grate and wonderful like the artists on FA even tho no one notices me at all I hope one day they do when I can make up for it and show them I'm worth something to be watched and talked to for


with that being said i hope this this video will help inspire others like it did for myself and try feel little better about yourself about who and what you are even tho life may kicked you down and you feel your worth nothing to anyone its not true :) this made me sad then happy and inspired me and hope others and to share this video with others to help others in the world :)

please watch and share :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWLA-E-wGkM







I'm glad it had a happy ending!

Hey all I'm back not that many people read this at all but I'm been unwell and sick and busy and other stuff like there was a point where I was in the back of the ambulance end of last year and that was a big ordeal for me,

I was there for awhile >.< like being at the hospital for awhile kinda sucked but.....the nurses and doctors made it better for me I had to have needles and stuff and err I gotta tell yeah I ant no fan of them,

I actually have a phobia of it iin fact so it was very stressing for me that being said after all that long time and drama and doctors and busy stuff with life I'm back and like riding a bike lol as they say?

Errr it gives me sore chest and panic attacks now I think back about it as I write this...but yeah big thing for me so feel free to say hi to me or maybe not its cool :P but it makes my world bigger better brighter place knowing I have people who care for little old me well I'm not that old ._. anyways thanks for reading

Hey you guys :P sorry for anyone who may or may not read this little to non would have anyway's but anyone who took an interest in me or considered me as someone of a friend to one to another and wounding what's been going on I know I'm not big or poppler in the furry fandom and that does not matter nore is my art good enough to be noticed by many again which again doe s not matter as we all start off somewhere right some better then others :P I'm not the type to lie so here are the short list that will say what I been up to then I'll explain the interesting parts in detail that worth reading :P.

1. My little brothers birthday
2. Christmases
3. Conference ( fur con )
3. gone on a family road trip just after the fur con to South Australia from Vic for 2 weeks driven to port linked and back to Melbourne city :P
4. playing games.....lots........and....lots of games >.< sorry I'm just a girl gamer \.O./ "shrugs"
5. Doing Art work on my new Tablet that I finally gotten for myself after hard saving
6. drawing a body reference for my best friend ans getting things worked out with an artist to try and get me and him drawn for a get well card since he had surgery
7. and most of all from all that I'v listed and way before battling my sickness that live with which happens to be well not sure which I'm getting bloods tests and what not to find out why all my bones hurt and get stiff and why my chest plate feels like its been punched hard and tight where feels like if i move in a certen way it send sharp pain behind that plate your heart is giving you huge amounts of pain and attacks which tenses up your muscles which leads to worse things such as hrd to bereave and...
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With that being said I'll be uploading some of my art on how I make my art which is pretty standard from others I'm sure and you can see how a piece of crap turns into well that ok art work that you all get gaze your eyes ah pond :P
and some other old art work I'v done with out my tablet that I may of should of uploaded it......just never really gave it the idea to do so. with that being said I highly dealt anyone took the time to read my lame and poor spelling and boring update :P but art will come on my page soon whoever is interested in it thanks for watching :P <3

Ps Sorry about the spelling I'm dyslexic and well there no excuse for me but I did't grow up in a perfect world but no one does right but school was terrible for me so i never hd the best eradication (thanks for google crone to fix spelling <3 ) ah I can't spell it too lazy to Google it the best schooling lets go with that :P Thanks for understanding love yah all :P

Getting a tablet soon so yay I can do my art work on it and further my work on it to improve and draw more sharper and detailed things in less amount of time once more the tablet i am getting is listed below. ^_^

http://www.wacom.com/en/au/creative/cintiq-13-hd

Hey everyone its little here I'm been working on some art for someone who did one for me for Christmas and i am almost done with it just need draw her character after so many delays hic ups like Christmas new year and the furcon i had to post pone the art work over that short time i put about an hr or 2 in each day which was few days a week over the that month or so doing so now at the point adding her in just depresses me and frustrates me that i can't do what i image how it would look like in my head you can only do so much with a mouse and windows 7 paint and it just depress me to see this happen after so much time in it i worried to much i think i want to ask for help or advice on how to draw things in sortin ways this is first time i think i am doing a 2D type of 1 sided face body looking in front of them self then it being 3D facing you kinda deal if that makes sense which in returns brings me to this point i don't want to make her look bad or stupid nore ugly i hate say it but i am a perfectionist it like gotta be perfect or just drop it walk away but trying not lose hope i always keep at it until i finish it at some sort of good degree but this one is getting to me i van't get past doing the airs on a side angle with out them looking wierd sigh i just hope when i surprise her with this gift when its done she will like it i been trying really hard on it and love new challenges drawing new furs when i am free or up for it just hate see all this work die form me not able draw the ears, it was the muzzle that i had trouble with first then the ears now oh boy : / >.<

So here is some of the things I wish for Christmas I don't ask for much in real life as i have everything a normal person could want or need...kinda :P i kinda do need few things but...I'll be buying them for myself one day its a life goal ^^ any ways here is a few things below


1. an feral wolf icon of me

2. a nice feral art drawing of me with nice background and bright color to it

3. more visitors on my FA I fee a little lone and left out :( I draw art I love and I love hear from people what there impressions are about it and to see people to pop in and take a look <3 because i love hear what i can improve on and if its good or bad

4. be age regressed to a little girl or baby art of me, I'm also into age regression :P its fun and trilling with new experiences to await you in the feature when that happens and love to have someone take care of me also ^^

5. shrinking me extremely tiny art of me being shrinked down i also like shrinking again whole trill and experiences and the whole world changes and love being in awkward situation like age regression and shrinking its always fun to have something that can never happen....happen

6. Photoshop for my art work i been using windows 7 paint for past years jut never went out buy Photoshop as it was on my to do list but have other things putting it behind which i had grater need to spend the money on sadly : /

7. graphic tablet for drawing my old one is a toy and the pen das not want to respond at all so I'm planing on getting myself this one day but would be nice if Santa left it under my tree :) but its one my life goals to get myself it

http://www.wacom.com/en/au/creative/cintiq-13-hd <== I'll be getting this one before I get the one below in latter years to come

http://www.wacom.com/en/au/creative.....iq-22-hd-touch

8. a Razzer Naga Mouse to help me play my games better and easier as I am challenged in doing big tasks so i find small easy ways to make my tasks i do in real life and in games easier based on my disability i have in real life i find things like this help me alot as i have learning disability and ADD :P like how i use auto correct all the time in google and google crone <3 thanks for understanding ^^

http://www.razerzone.com/au-en/store/razer-naga

9. Text out loud is another program that makes my life easier as i find it hard to read books and to keep an interest in reading books as i prefer movies with big boom boom pow pow haha then trying use my imagination which i use lot but find books little too boring ironically i made a story using my imagination which i did't finish as i kinda lost little interest in it but its a good story i had in my mind here is text out loud

http://www.nextup.com/TextAloud/rea.....isability.html

10. my biggest wish was i wish i was born as a female i dont offen talk about this as i feel like i may be judged by others or embarrassed or just reminds me of the depressing life i must go though and live but i am transgender and i wish i was female as most transgender would feel the same way considering how much pain suffering and work we must go though to be normal and not live a normal life as others may already live like having relationships and such or going out shoping buying girls cloths its a little hard on some of us especially me i am shy to go out buy girls cloths as a guy alone in a big shopping canter so my wish is i wish was reborn as a female sometimes i wish i want even born at all and never existed is probably why i like age regression so much too just probably the idea of being regressed to the point of non existnces is one of them floating around in my head : / sigh....

Hey all i like to give a big shout out to  Cashier for drawing me out of good will and made it as a gift for me, its real sweet of him for doing so, so i like to give it the attention for other to check it out, this is one and only non requested drawings of me that someone drawn of me with out my knowing and gift me it, so it makes it even more special so thank you Cashier for doing so i hope to return the faver one day soon, i use simple windows paint to draw my art i know....hard to believe right?....ironically it takes me good few weeks to work with that simple program to make anything good and fluid colours and what not but my farm drawing worked out well for it being done by paint which you all can see blow and also Cashier! drawing of his one which was done after mine farm then the here the gift drawing he did there is a funny story behind ALL of this guy's as we both some how drawn the same thing with us not even aware of i did mine first then latter down the track so i hear from Cashier! he also did the same one which i found off a furry web site which led me to his FA and there almost the same style now then the links are below i hope you all enjoy them give them much love and attention please do leave commits it makes us artists happy see what you all have to say I'm' myself can't believe i call myself an artist but i guess considering i did do some nice art in the past why not hehe enjoy all ^^ thanks for reading


 Little.Paws Little Paws or Hooves Farm ==> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9548053/

 Cashier Cat to Cow ***GIF Animation*** ==> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11150264/

 Cashier Caught trespassing ==> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11505138/

Omg my fat cat slowly spots something and stares at it then i'm like Huh???.....then i stare out the window at her an she walks up to a Christmas beetle and sniffs it.... I am like mmm??? I walk little to the side to look behind what was blocking my view it was a small round stick wooden stick my parents put there anyway walk to side look at bug as stick was in front of the big bug and i see this big Christmas beetle! it was light brown and walks like a crab haha really cute then i begin to call out for mum, mum??? hey mum??, mum is not around i am like errr....so i walk off to find her and I find my dad instead he explains she went out to take care of something i am like no way really.... go outside dad take a look at the Christmas beetle my dad says back to me huh??? i say go....... go take a look outside he says huh wha?? outside.... i am like omg just go outside there is a Christmas beetle come on... i go outside with my dad to take a look and its gone....it only took 10 seconds of my time to find my dad talk to him and walk back with him outside to see it instead finding the Christmas beetle! i find my cat however laying on her side and starring at us with a pleased happy look like a look that says it all.... :P

My fat cat: oh....yah....i eaten it....or did I?

i hope she did't eat : / so cute tho always looks at me inccantly :P

if anyone got any interesting things that relate to this feel free to comment below ^^ love to hear it :P <3 merry Christmas to you all ^^,/!