***Dear  Fenra

I don't really know how to tell you this, but The rainbow hedgehogs want to destroy you. I think I realized it when you When I saw the purple monkey In a clown suit and I saw you Sit on my corned beef hash. I'm sure you're Open enough to understand That Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning your Your toe ring but keeping Your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I Told in my confession today about the moose poaching and Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird.

Go milk a cow,

~ ookamitsuki26

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How to do this meme:

***Dear (person of your choice,)

I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it when you (2)(3) and I saw you(4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning your (8) but keeping (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(12),

~(your name)

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1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - The rainbow hedgehogs want to destroy you
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - I'm joining the Convent
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
October - Last year when you peed your pants
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Seafood - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey - The Catholic Priest
Brown - The Montreal Canadiens' goalie
Purple - my corned beef hash
Red - My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink - You are "My Little Pony" collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat - shamed
House- Sterile

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we're related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your balls

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Get sick when I think of your feet
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorities that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Love your sweet, sweet ass
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven't showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I love Oprah
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war.
Snapple/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked out
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I'm off to lead a new life as a lemon
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don't hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Best of luck on the sex change
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - I love Oprah
Italy - Please, don't lick my inner thighs anymore
Russia - you're new world emperor,

i been playing this all day today and i can say that this song truly fits

https://youtu.be/0zRWTQh2poc

i just got to say the person this is to... thank you for everything and i hope maybe one day you will find what you are looking for... i know it will never be me but i hope you will be happy with whoever or whatever... it sucks that i cant be there to see it but this is for the best for a clean break for the both of us

that we end up with so many regets and scars...

well most of mine are on the surface for so many to see.
I guess i have gotten lucky that I got a best friend that can see past that.

which is another thing is friends.
some people like me something have a hard time seeing who is our real friend or the ones that want to use and hurt you.
Real friend actually tell you whats going on even it hurts you.
They dont leave you in the dark about whats really going on.

well it just sucks to see some peoples true colors when you least expect it.
but in the end i have to come to terms with it... again
hopefully can look forward... finally

Anyways in other news! still open for commissions and also birthday is wednesday!
the big 29... wow.
got some big news dealing with something super big...
I am going to wait til wednesday to tell tho!

leaving on that note with this
https://youtu.be/SOw4EfQK72o

Why am i sitting here in so much pain...

all this rage and sadness around me...

fighting this urge to...

I just want to know while i am sitting here curled up in a ball with tearing falling...

Why cant i hate the person that is causing me so much pain...

Its funny how i thought the cuts, rips, and stitches in my heart was finally healing...

I want to hate so much to make this horrible pain to go away or at least easier to deal with...

i just want to run out of tears now...

can someone rescue me somehow from this darkness and find my heart again?

https://youtu.be/xyqQ4iT4IeU

I just want to curl up and cry to make the pain go away now...

Just when my heart was finally healing...

A fucking lie and a lame ass note....

all i want is why and why now...

if you are reading this just tell me and i wont bother you ever again...

just because i havent hear this song in the longest time and this truly means a lot to me

https://youtu.be/jjnmICxvoVY

god i love this song

come on dont be shy note me or make a comment here for a quote and i will tell you how much...

yarn tails
baby blankets
ponchos
doll clothing

i really could use the help honestly

I can't believe I am going to be 29.... @///@

This is for someone that is really close to me and you know who you are...

https://youtu.be/KT1uZUCrLhY

<3

I am open while I am still looking for a job!

I do

yarn tails

Baby blankets

Poncho

Doll ponchos too!

Note me and I can give a price!

If you can't commission me pass the word on! I am feeling creative!

My heart is now finally healing now. It sucks to lose a "friend" but right now it's not possible with how much we are hurting. It's weird but I never felt this calm and ok with everything now...

i need to disappear for a while...

i cant think straight and i dont know what to do anymore....

i just wish i could fix what was going on with my heart.....

I do

yarn tails

baby blankets
examples
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10200181095788740&set=pb.1191966793.-2207520000.1371930289.&type=3&src=https%3A%2F%2Ffbcdn-sphotos-e-a.akamaihd.net%2Fhphotos-ak-ash3%2F13578_10200181095788740_1616539770_n.jpg&size=960%2C717
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ponchos
examples
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10201245375195060&set=pcb.10201245376995105&type=1&theater
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10201245376315088&set=pcb.10201245376995105&type=1&theater

just make a comment or note me please... I really need the help more ever and plus i need to save up for nekocon!

I just got a call about a wedding dress i was paying for...

It sucks to think both me and mari had plans to get married tomorrow...

yeah...

Not mutually agreed at all! Just had to be said X3

Can't sleep too much pain to even try to sleep... Fun

So what's going on?

Don't ask honestly

Can't deal with people with week

If you need me I will be on skype

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4749769/

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As everyone knows, I am seeing a local Brony in my area. He is in the navy but is going to get out in ten months. He is so sweet and funny. We talk about anything from the latest music to how the military is running. We have some fun together too.

Well Thursday he tells me the navy is shipping him out on a sub for six months and he didn't know how I would take it and was scared I would be upset. Well it's sucks but I mean he seems really worth seeing it of it mean work out. He even said that he would be ok if I saw other people and ended up with someone else. Well honestly, there's not much to pick from here. So I told him I would wait and see if we could spend more time together like him picking me up Friday and staying with him til Sunday.

So that's what we did this weekend. We went to dinner Friday and went back to his place. Saturday we went site seeing, watched some YouTube videos, and that night saw This is The End. And today we snuggled on the couch and watched the last unicorn together and we went bowling before he took me home.

We are going to keep doing this til he leaves for the mission(he says if they get the funding to do it so cross your fingers they don't) mid-July. The next weekend coming up is a no go because he has watch duty all week and I am getting my little ones so it works out on that.

I can't wait tho! Plus he will be texting me when he is not on base or on watch.

I hope this really works out honestly

I am looking for a job

but while i am looking i am open for commissions

I do yarn tails
baby blankets
ponchos
and learning a couple of other things

if you want one pm me

it might cost a little extra since i left all my yarn with mari in odessa tx...

could use the help for sure and to keep busy too

Well here are some updates for ya

One no job still... Will keep trying

Two seeing my kids big plus had them this past weekend awesome tho their dad forgot half the stuff they needed but its ok

Three still dealing some depression

Four waiting on my last paycheck which so far no luck but will keep trying

Five had a date Sunday with a local Brony
We went mini golfing and had a meal at Kelly tavern which the fish and chip were bad but the company was great ^\\\^
The whole date we talked from mlp to special effects on old movies like Star Wars and Godzilla.
We had a blast and we got plans to go on another date Saturday.

So yeah that's all the updates

I would to say a few things...

I know that what happen between mari and me was all my fault period. Yes I screwed it up hardcore and stuff... I do deserve no ones respect at all period... So if ya want to say it say it now... Because I want to know it whither you got nothing nice to say to me at all...

Two both me and mari are still friends and I apologized for the wrong I did to hurt hir. I know that hir can't forgive for everything I did but I still want to be there to support hir in anything she choose. I didn't expect hir to still want to talk to me let alone want to be friends.its hir choice whether to be friends with me or not, and the day she choose to not speak to me I will always understand it. I want nothing but the best for her.

So if you got something to say please say it to me ok? I am a big girl and can handle it, plus the fact I know I messed up.