Went in for Surgery yesterday morning. I was supposed to be out by the afternoon and home… there was some complications and they kept me overnight. Been dosing me with fentanyl and morphine, but not enough to actually do anything for the pain. 2mg for someone my size and weight does nothing but make my hand itch.
Now I have a fever.
I’ve not slept
They came in and finally got me one TINY dose of oxy to see if that would help and let me sleep…finally around 3-4AM I was able to fall asleep till the tech came in at 5 something, said “knock knock as she turned on the brightest light in the world… like.. really?! How about you ACTUALLY knock and that can wake me without being jarred awake by you shouting knock knock and blasting out my eyes with the sun?
Takes my temp,asks me how I am.. I tell her I’m exhausted and in pain and she goes. “Ok, get some sleep”
Then walks out, leaving the light on and the fucking door open.

After almost 45 mins another nurse comes in after I hit the call button and let her know. She says she’s bringing me something for the pain and that they shouldn’t have woke me up like that.

I ask if I need to eat anything with the pain medicine because that was why they were not giving me anything stronger yesterday, so she said “someone will be in to take your breakfast order” about 30+ mins later, someone comes in with a tray of food. That I didn’t order.
And it’s a bunch of stuff I can’t eat.

Black coffe, toast with straberrry jelly, French toast… and sausage.
I can’t drink coffe, I hate strawberry jelly and I need to have low sodium, high potassium food right now. And French toast almost ALWAYS has fucking cinnamon on it… which I’m allergic to.
I can’t wait to get the fuck out of here so I can go home where people actually give a shit about me.


Oh and the REALLY great part that has been making me feel some kinda way: my family didn’t call, text or anything to see how I am or check on me…. But the one guy I work for did.
But you know… “we love you and miss you every day”
Sure… just not enough to ACTUALLY prove that with actions.
Fucking assholes.

Not a whole lot to update on since my last journal.

I'm still not recovered from the COVID. I can barely do anything. I get anywhere from 4-45 mins of activity before my entire body hurts, I'm out of breath and feel like I am tired and exhausted.
Still waiting on a determination from Disability to see if I can get benefits to cover the past year I've been out of work. could be another 6 weeks from now.
I'm trying to be as active as I can to fight back on the weight gain due to not being able to really workout at all, and that's not going great. slowly walking is about all I can really do, and I can't do that for long. We generally try to go to the park nearby and walk around the track (which is about 0.6 miles) and maybe throw a frisbee around a bit. it's not a lot, but the next 2 days I am crazy sore in all my joints and am in pain for the entire day.

Doctors don't have anything for me. They tell me it just takes time, and there's not really anything they know of that will help or make it better faster. Just have to wait and see if I recover. I really want to get back to work as soon as I can. so that maybe I will have some chance of building up my finances to try and recover from being out of work for a year. I used up the downpayment I had saved up for my house to live off this whole time, and that's been gone for a while.
So, I really need the lawsuit money to come in fast and disability to get back to me and get me the past years worth of benefits. if I can get those two things, hopefully I should be good and will be less stressed and can try to focus on getting myself back into shape and being able to actually work again.

Hopefully this all works out soon. Not having been able to work this long is driving me crazy. not to mention not being able to really do much of anything musically.

Just got tested again today as this was just after the 2 week mark.
Positive for COVID.
I still have it.
Still have a really REALLY bad cough that often times hurts and makes me light headed or nearly black out if it’s a long enough fit.
Got a follow up on the 28th with the ENT
Going to see what the doctors have to say. I would love something to make this cough stop or go away… this is torture. My chest and head are killing me.

So, at least another week of no working or leaving the house. :/

So, I had surgury on my skull/sinus area about 6 days ago.
And the people who were looking after me after the surgery tested positive for COVID.
Well, one so far. I just got my test and it’s positive as well.

So now on top of trying to recover from surgery on my head, I have to deal with having COVID.

Got a fever of 100.5 last time I checked, lost my sense of smell, feel achy all over and weak, freezing cold and like I got a real bad flu. Chest hurts and head hurts REAL bad when I cough.

Luckily I’m vaccinated. Otherwise, I likely would have been dead.
Though, with my age and health issues… I’m still very much at risk of things going badly.

So, hopefully I pull through.

If not,

Great big FUCK YOU TO DEATH to all you stupid selfish cunts who haven’t gotten vaccinated and are running around without masks and spreading this shit and putting people at risk and killing people.
I hope you shit your pants on every important date of your life, and you can never get a boner again. I wish for food to taste like sand in your mouth and for you to have a miserable life because you are absolute scum and don’t deserve sympathy.

If I lose friends over this, then you weren’t worth keeping around and I hope you suffer more than I and everyone else who has gotten this does because you don’t give a shit about anyone other than yourself.

Only a little upset about this.
Mostly because I was supposed to start working again this weekend after recovering from surgery. And now I’m lookin at 2 more weeks without work, if not longer depending on how long it takes me to get over this… IF I survive it.

So, I’ve not been around much recently.

Lots going on, long story short is

my parents are losing their home: guy they have been renting from for 10 years is selling the house. My parents have no jobs and just get social security. Not enough to rent anywhere else because at this point the requirements for renting are so fucking insane you need to make 3 times the monthly rent with ONE pay check. So... that’s not going to happen. So I need to buy them a house. Which means all the hard work I’ve done to save up money so that I could buy a house for MYSELF... down the drain so my parents don’t end up being homeless. It’s insanely stressful as our grandparents want to help, but my mother refuses to talk to them over something my grandfather said months ago and apologized for.

My Health: since the car crash, I’ve had high blood pressure. Between whatever happened and the stress I’ve been under constantly... it’s dangerously high. Medication I’ve been taking WAS working.... but not anymore. Which I found out when I had a T.I.A. (Mini stroke) and ended up in the hospital about 3 weeks ago.
I’ve been out of work ever since as my pressure has been hovering between hypertension stage 2 and hypertensive crisis (heart failure) and it’s unsafe for me to drive or be in the high stress environment that my job is.... because I could have a stroke or TIA at any second and if that happens while I’m driving... well, you can guess how that can go.

My doctor is a fucking joke and has prescribed an additional blood pressure medicine that so far has only increased my blood pressure and his brilliant idea is: keep upping the dosage and see how it goes for a few days and try again.
So... my pressure has just been going up, and up, and up and up.... and I feel like my heart is red-lining and could give out at any moment. Feels like someone is sitting on my chest.

And the icing on the shit cake that has been thrown in my face is: I broke a toe on my right foot today.
Which is great considering I badly sprained the big toe on my left foot when I collapsed and was hospitalized 3 weeks ago... which I mentioned to at least 6 people at the hospital AND my doctor and not a SINGLE fucking person looked at it to see if it was broken or dislocated or what.. just. “Oh... ok”. And NOTHING.

I fucking hate doctors. They have all been utter and absolute cunts and I’ve told them what was wrong with me and what should be done to fix it and they all ignore me and then 99% of the time, after so much time is wasted and money spent.... they end up doing what I said they should do from the start... and surprise surprise...it works

So, in case my heart gives out or the damage that’s been done to it over this time is irreversible and I fucking die.... it’s been fun everyone.
I’ve had some good times.
I’ve done some pretty cool shit.
I’m glad to have met a lot of the people that I have met.

But I really think my asshole doctor is going to kill me because he’s not listening to a fucking word I say, which is basically the story of my life, and I really think he’s just going to keep upping the dosage on this medicine that clearly isn’t fucking working until my heart explodes in the middle of the night and I goddamn die.

Today didn’t feel right from the moment I woke up. Something felt off. Was it because I’d gotten 2 hours of sleep and had to go out on an early morning call, or just that I knew something was not right today.

Breakfast was around 2:00PM
We got a call before we could finish.

When we got there to find out That the apartment didn’t belong to the guy who called, but to his brother.
They told me a few details of why they wanted me to unlock the door.

I wish that when I unlocked the door, the apartment was just empty. That he had left to spend the night somewhere and just didn’t want to talk to anyone.
I wish that he was just in bed, with his phone off not wanting to talk to anyone, but would have at least listened to what his mother had to say.

I wish that there wasn’t a 20 year old man, just starting his life that still had his older brother.

I wish that today was different.
I was there with my older brother. He was working with me today to help out. The job came in when we were eating breakfast. My waffle iron broke 3/5th of the way through making waffles.
So the rest of the batter was used to make two small pancakes.
I gave my brother the last 1/4 of my waffle because he really wanted waffles this morning.

This poor kid is never going to share waffles with his brother again.
His mother will never be the same again. Losing her first born child.
Questioning forever and filling herself with those terrible thoughts that we all have when something like this happens.
All those “what if’s”
What if they went there last night?
What if they called us 4 hours sooner?
8 hours sooner?
Or right when the first time he didn’t answer his phone?

It was traumatic for everyone.
His brother
His girlfriend
Their mother and step father who were there because they cared about him and didn’t want him to hurt himself or do something stupid.
And there I am
I’ve had too many people I know and care about take their own lives.
Too many brothers who are now just.... sons.

And to walk into that, his mother asking me... pleading.... wanting to know what happens before I unlocked that door. With those “you’ve seen this before right? We’re worrying over nothing, right? My baby is going to be ok, right?!”
I could FEEL when she knew
When she heard her other son
How his voice sounded
It was palpable. You could feel the break

Then she screamed. Her husband and son had to hold her back while we all frantically scrambled for our phones to dial 911
Asking if anyone knew CPR
I don’t know it.... I should.
I’ve forgotten because I learned it a very long time ago, and never really got to practice it or anything
And I think it’s different now from when I remember it

And with this damn virus, it’s not safe for most things to be done the old fashioned way.

All I could do was stand there, trembling and apologizing because I couldn’t do anything else.
Other than open the door to let this family discover something nobody should ever have to see or experience.

A couple days ago I found out my Grandmothers sister passed away from Covid-19

She was like a second grandmother to me. I spent most summers growing up at their house with my cousin.

I’ve been meaning to see them again since they all moved. But with me needing to move suddenly and with all that’s been going on, I didn’t get the chance. And now I don’t know if I will even be able to say goodbye because I don’t know if there will be a wake or a funeral.

Every day I see more fucking assholes out and about not wearing masks or gloves
Not keeping distance
Or “wearing” a mask that’s pulled down so their mouth and nose is exposed.
I’ve had at least 5 or more people in the last month and a half lose family members from this damn virus.
It takes so much not to scream at these fucking selfish ignorant cunts to wear their shit right to help get this under control.

My brother went to drop off food and supplies to our grandparents, because they couldn’t find any food where they lived and we had asked them for 2 weeks to give us a list so we could get things here as there’s several stores that are fairly well stocked around where I live. He went and got them food. When he went inside to use the bathroom (having them keep in another room and he didn’t touch anything, he had his mask and gloves and all) he looked and they literally had nothing in the fridge other than a half gallon of water and a half stick of butter.
How long were they without food?
How much longer would it have taken for them to literally starve to death because greedy selfish pigs are stockpiling things they don’t NEED?

This country is a fucking mess and the people in it are so goddamn willfully stupid and greedy and we’re dooming ourselves.
This shit is going to last so much longer than it should have.
Every other country in the world will be rid of this and back to normal and full operation and the US will be stuck like this for at least a year because it’s filled with feckless fucking imbeciles.
It’s going to take EVERYONE losing a loved one or several before they fucking take this seriously and it’s going to suck.
People want things to re open and go back to normal, but we’re going to lose half our population from the looks of it, so how the hell is anything ever going to “go back to how it was”?

And I may need to have surgery soon, which is great when I’ve lost nearly 2 months of pay from all this shit.

I hope everyone else is doing better and hanging in there.
I see my doctor today and find out what’s next for me

We got a really nice house about 16-20 mins away from where we used to live.
Almost done getting things unpacked and set up
Just need to get two pieces of furniture up the stairs and then I can complete the top floor

Found a place. Move in Monday.

Now I just need a bunch of help moving all my shit.

So, there’s far too much to go into.

But the long story short is:

I’m being evicted from my home of 14+ years due to the property manager being a childish little cunt.

So, with my work schedule and other things that were schedule during the next 2 months out the window, I now need to pack up my entire life and hope I can find somewhere to live that won’t care that I got evicted for NOT violating the terms of my lease.

And my grandfather is in the hospital.
And one of my old friends just died a few weeks ago.

So.... things really fucking suck.

So, I’ve been going to Physical therapy for a few months, not much improvement. Left arm is still messed up, neck hurts like crazy all the time, I can’t sleep and just feel....wrong.
the past 2 weeks have been hell on earth, everything going wrong. Been trying to get an MRI of neck and shoulder to see what the damage is and why it’s not getting better. But that hasn’t gone well at all.

I’ve been mostly keeping to myself recently. Kinda being a shut-in.
All I do is work and go to Physical therapy.
I’ve hardly gone anywhere or done anything other than that.
My blood pressure is high again, from all the stress and frustration and dealing with completely useless idiots in the medical field as usual.
I’ve lost a bunch of friends. Nobody seems to want to be around me or want me around, so I’ve stopped trying with that and just work all day, come home and sit here doing little to nothing. Maybe play a game, or just watch TV.

So, to make a long story short: Things are not going well and I feel terrible.

I’ve not been around for a few days due to being in the hospital after getting hit by a speeding truck.
I was in my car while on duty, stopped at a light. This guy wasn’t even looking, pretty sure he was on his phone, and didn’t slow down at all.

I’m in severe pain and out of work for some time.

I will update more when I am able.

THE SEXTREME FEST 2017 Tour

This fall ( September 23rd to November 4th) is going to be one hell of a good time!
Here is the Schedule as it stands as of (8/23/2017)

*Saturday 9/23: Las Vegas, NV - Beauty Bar
*Tuesday 9/26: Lawrence, KS - Granada Theatre
*Wednesday 9/27: Louisville, KY - Mercury Ballroom
*Thursday 9/28: Detroit, MI - St. Andrews Hall
*Friday 9/29: Cleveland, OH - Agora Theatre
*Saturday 9/30: Milwaukee, WI - The Rave
*Sunday 10/1: Minneapolis, MN - Amsterdam
Monday 10/2: OFF
*Tuesday 10/3: Denver, CO - Gothic Theatre
*Wednesday 10/4: Salt Lake City, UT - Metro Music Hall
*Thursday 10/5: Boise, ID - Knitting Factory
*Friday 10/6: Portland, OR - Dante's
*Saturday 10/7: Seattle, WA - Showbox @ The Market
*Sunday 10/8: Vancouver, BC (Canada) - Red Room
Monday 10/9: OFF
Tuesday 10/10: San Francisco, CA - Slims
*Wednesday 10/11: Santa Ana, CA - Observatory
*Thursday 10/12: Los Angeles, CA - Fonda Theatre
*Friday 10/13: San Diego, CA - Brick By Brick
Saturday 10/14: Phoenix, AZ - Club Red
Sunday 10/15: El Paso, TX - Tricky Falls
Monday 10/16: Dallas, TX - Trees
Tuesday 10/17: Houston, TX - Scout Bar
Wednesday 10/18: Austin, TX - Elusium
Thursday 10/19: Pensacola, FL - Vinyl Music Hall
Friday 10/20: St. Petersburg, FL - State Theatre
Saturday 10/21: West Palm Beach, FL - Respectable Street
Sunday 10/22: Jacksonville, FL - Maverick's Live
Monday 10/23: Atlanta, GA - Masquerade
Tuesday 10/24: Greensboro, NC - Blind Tiger
Wednesday 10/25: Baltimore, MD - Soundstage
Thursday 10/26: New York, NY - Gramercy Theatre
Friday 10/27: Philadelphia, PA - Trocodero
Saturday 10/28: Pittsburgh, PA - The Rex Theatre
Sunday 10/29: Toledo, OH - Frankie's
Monday 10/30: Toronto, ON (Canada) - Opera House
Tuesday 10/31: Chicago, IL - Bottom Lounge
Wednesday 11/1: Indianapolis, IN - Vogue
Thursday 11/2: St. Louis, MO - The Ready Room
Friday 11/3: Oklahoma City, OK - Diamond Ballroom
Saturday 11/4: Albuquerque, NM - Sunshine Theatre

Dates with * include supporting act: Night Club
Dates without are with supporting act: Wiccid

Now, for some reason it says we (En Esch) are not playing in Philly. I'm not sure why or if that is accurate... I will find out and update as soon as I know.
Wiccid is listed as not playing either. Not sure what the deal is, might be just a limited time frame with the venue... can only handle 3 acts or something? not sure.
Once I know more , as I said, I will update.

So come on out and have a kick ass time and get to meet me and some legendary musical icons!

I'm 93% sure this is happening. So I'm going to post about it here real quick and when I have more solid info, I will update.

I'm going to be on this falls Lords of Acid tour with Combichrist and Christian Death.
I will be drumming for En Esch as we do some songs from his new album, some Slick Idiot stuff and some older songs I'm sure you'll recognize. I'm likely also going to be doing some vocals as well.

This will start September 26th I believe and go till November 4th.
Details can be found online at the Facebook pages of each band and their respective websites.

I will try to update as soon as I have more solid info.

Under my boot
Every snow flake looks the same
Beneath the scars
there's an empty spell
cast in vain

Inside those walls
The little voices know my name
Below black stars
these old dirty streets have no shame

Tear my soul apart
Drown me in your sea of darkness
I'll be your lucky star
if you promise that you'll never let me go

Better
the devil
you know.

Better the devil you know


The squeaky wheel
is the weakest link
in the chain

I see the cut
but I still can't feel the fucking pain
Between these walls
there's a tiny chance I could refrain
Below black stars
an even smaller chance I will complain

Tear my soul apart
Drown me in your sea of darkness
I'll be your lucky star
if you promise that you'll never let me go
to hell
with nothing left to show
Set me on fire
and revel in the glow

Tear my soul apart
Drown me in your sea of darkness
I'll be your lucky star
If you promise that you'll never let me go

Tear my soul apart
Drown me in your sea of darkness
I'll be your lucky star
If you promise that you'll never let me go

Better
the devil
you know.

Better the devil you know...


(Official video: https://www.youtube.com/shared?ci=i54zEfGfpD8 )

I don't count my blessings. I'd rather count the stars
When you think you're happy...
things always falls apart

I can't hear the thunder. I can only hear your heart
Beating after beating. happy in the dark
You feel like no one. like you're not even human at all
The devil you see is the one you believe and he'll give you what you want.
You feel like nothing. like you've got nothing left at all.
Even angels and kings must pay for their sins. it's time to make the call
Break my fall

You could wait forever. if you wait for the storm to pass
You'd be the first in line but when it's time.
you'll be the last

People are evil and i'd be lying if i told you i care
Repeating the beating.
in a human kind despair

You feel like no one. like you're not even human at all
The devil you see is the one you believe and he'll give you what you want.
You feel like nothing. like you've got nothing left at all.
Even angels and kings must suffer the slings. it's time to lose control.

Don't even think you could be happy this way
Don't even think you have a second to spare - there - there you are - there you are

You feel like no one. like you're not even human at all
The devil you see is the one you believe and he'll give you what you want.
You feel like nothing. like you've got nothing left at all.
Even angels and kings must pay for their sins. but you still act nonchalant
'cuz I'll break your fall. I'll break your fall


From SKOLD

this album is hitting me hard lately

To hear this one: https://youtu.be/cphxaDmhbJg

Initial procedure went well.
Hurts like a mother fucker, even with the pain pills they gave me.m
2 weeks till stitches come out and I get results.

So... I won't be there this year.
Because I was scheduled to have surgery friday morning and would be obviously unable to attend as I would need several days to recover, would not be able to walk much after those days and then need to get stitches removed and all that.

But about 45 mins ago or so I get a call that the fucking procedure was canceled and needed to be rescheduled.
for next friday.
or Tuesday afternoon at the earliest.

-.-

So... I COULD have fucking gone.
But considering I had to take time off from work at the last second for surgery and now have to shift all that around.... I dunno.
But, I'm pissed, and now have another 5 days to be freaking out and worrying.

I haven't really been telling people what has been going on with me in this regard.
So... long story short:
I was sick for a while, and then noticed a thing and now need to have said thing removed and tested to see if I have Cancer.
So... yeah.

I don't really want to go into any more detail than that as I don't really know what's going to happen or if it even IS... but... I have been pretty freaked out and worried and all that and now I get 5 more fucking days of this torture and anxiety before going under the knife again.

So, sorry I'm not at AC.... I had to cancel going due to a fucking surgery that got canceled and moved to a time that would have allowed me to fucking go.

Once again, choke on glass the universe, you're a fucking twat.

So, I realize that I hardly ever update this.

Well, that's because I've been busy as shit with several things.
Working has been the main one. Running a business and working with other companies and what not has been a rather time consuming endeavour. However, recent events are shaping things for the future so that I can have more free time and be able to do things and go places and keep in touch with people more often.

More to come later. But for now, know that I haven't forgotten anyone or anything dumb or bad has happened. I've just been really busy with lots of things and spending time with my BF and getting things in place for our future.

I was in Walmart today (because there isn't any other place around where I live that I can get a money order greater than $500 unless I want to pay for several, and fuck that noise) when I was passing through the panty aisle... Because.... Panties.

And found a treasure trove of cute panties.
They have various animals printed on the bottom.
And they have little ears that stick up from the waistband.
I found a Fox
A zebra
A pig
A kitty....
Not sure how many more there are.
But they are all sorts of cute.
And they are less than$3 a pair!

I bought the foxy one for my boyfriend, because Fox. :3
I'm going to check to see if they have them online, so I can order a full set in the appropriate sizes.

If anyone wants pictures, just let me know ^.^

I had a pretty damn good time.
Got to hang with some good friends, made some new ones.
There was a LOT of walking... think I broke a bone in my bad foot... or it popped out or something. Dunno, but walking sucked from Saturday till now.

Got to see my buddy Matthew Ebel and Runtt play some musics and what nots, finally saw Pepper Coyote do his thing. Was rather impressed.
Spent a majority of the con walking my fox around till he had 2 nose bleeds and damn near passed out from suiting for like 20+ hours throughout the weekend.

Got a slick ass Hyena shirt. Finally got the Sheen squezzie ball head thing to go with my Fatigue one. Bought Matthews new album, and every damn CD Pepper and Look Left have made thus far.
Met one damn sexy skirt wearing Shep. Had a lot of laughs. Certainly think I will be going again next year, if everything works out well enough and I am not otherwise occupied.

Great seeing you all and watching all the people having fun and being weird animals.

So, I think I shall be attending this year. I'm like 90% sure I can go. Just waiting on 3 things to go through and if that happens in time, then I will be going.
So, here is that Meme thing or whatever that everyone does when it comes time to AC.

Where will you be staying?
I will be at the main hotel. I think it's the Westin. Right? The one that the convention is actually IN.

What day will you be getting there?
Thursday. Likely in the morning or early afternoon.

How are you traveling?
By those new fangled automobiles that everyone is talking about.

Who are you rooming with?
40oz Hyena, his Husband Bastian, and one other dude who I can't recall his "furry" name at the moment because I drink a lot.

How do you want to be addressed?
By my name. Duh. It's Wulf. Or you can call me "Fun Dumpster", "Horse Dick", Reginald ButtFuckington The Third... probably stick to "Wulf" or "Slick Wulf" or Slick...

Gender?
Cock-Bearer (Male)

Age?
31

What do you look like?
I look like a maniac with a little mohawk, sunglasses, and probably wearing some kind of tactical clothing. or Punk rocks stylings.

Where/how can I find you?
I will be wandering about the dealers room, hitting up any events that interest me (which includes comedy and music stuff) but likely I will be drinking enough to gag a Russian and Laughing it up with my Hyena Bro Mik (40oz)

Do you do requests?
For what? A song? to whip out my dick? Gargle on your knob? Uhmmm.... yes? If I'm drunk enough. (I don't do art, so, this is a pointless question)

Do you do trades?
I'll trade you my underwear for a beer.

Actually, no... most of my undies are worth more than a beer. and I really like em. So, make it a bottle of Vodka and you got a deal!

Do you do commissions?
I will dip my dick in an ink pad and slap it into your sketchbook for several of your Earth Dollars.

Will you have prints, CDs, or merchandise?
I will have none of these things. I can bring something if people REALLY want. But I would need to know like NOW so that I can get them sent to me so that I can bring them. Sounds like a lot of work. so, I think I'll pass.

Will you have Art in the Art Show?
They won't let me display my "Art" in public places. Or private places. Or on international waters. You Inside-Out ONE poodle in a bikini and suddenly you're "Deranged and dangerous" pssshh

Who will you be with?
I will likely be spending time with  40ozhyena  jaxen maybe  Beowulf and  clemfox definitely going to spend time with  Onyxxthefox that faggot  punkwolf if he's going. Totes going to spend some time with  SilverMoonWolf And a plethora of other people I imagine.

probably some time with  2gryphon as we didn't get to hang much last time.


What is your main purpose for attending?
To have fun, see some old friends, make some new ones. Drink a lot and act like a big fuzzy cunt.

Can I talk to you?
If you speak a language that I understand and can communicate in, then yes. Yes you can.

Can I take pictures with you?
Sure, just please ask me first. There might be times and places that I don't want a photo taken.

Can I touch/hug/cuddle you?
If I know you, or say it's ok... sure. That I generally reserve for special people who I'm dating or whatevs. But, it can never hurt to ask.

Can I hang out with you?
Sure, as long as I'm not committed to spending alone time with someone, feel free to ask.

Do you go to parties?
Bitch I AM the party! But, yes. As long as Drinking is the only thing going on. I can't be around smoking. And I'm not talking about cigarettes. Though, I do want to avoid those as well.

Do you fursuit/costume?
Not unless someone is going to be foolish enough to let me wear their suit... if I can fit into it.

What is the best way to reach you?
Stretch your arms out REAL far and wiggle your fingers. OH! Uhm, texting or calling my cell phone is the best way. If you don't have my number, sometimes Twitter is a good way. or E-mail me. or if you see me, just shout really loud in my direction and hope for the best.

Anything else?
Don't sneak up and grab me from behind... had 2 people do this in the past... and it didn't end well. so, approach from the front and identify yourself clearly before trying to touch or grab me.

Other than that... you can all feel free to buy me Drinks. Lately I've not really been able to drink beer. So I've been on a Vodka kick.
I prefer Svedka, 3 olives, Vox, and generally prefer it mixed with something. like Orange juice and sprite/sierra mist or simmilar.
I also love Whiskey. Preferably Jameson Limited Reserve 18 year. But I will settle for the 12 year. That I prefer straight.

I CAN'T drink: Rum, Schnapps, Coke, Dr. Pepper or anything else that has Cinnamon, Nutmeg, clove in it. I'm allergic.
I also can't drink certain red wines. But that's a rarity at a convention. Though I DO love me a nice Moscato (preferably Elmo Di Pio)
I also can't be around weed. I'm Deathly allergic to that. It will legit kill me. So... yeah. Don't do that shit around me or I'll put you through a window.

Other than that, if you're a cute fur suiter who likes to wear skirts (especially if you're a male) then please feel free to come on up and stick that right in my face. :D

Happy Murr-Purr-Furr Fagging everyone!

I'm selling some things right now because work has ground to a halt and I'm dangerously close to loosing everything. Phone, car, home...

So, I've got some things that I'm selling on Craigs list.
Some Laptops, figures, dvds, Video games... Anyway, I shall post some links here.

The only thing that I don't have posted yet is this old Apple Laptop. When I say old, I mean OLD. this is like... one of the first ones ever made. I'm pretty sure there might be some collectors out there who might be interested in this.

Macintosh Powerbook 145B 1983-1992
System software 7.1
Total memory: 4,096K

it has power supply/cord. The battery doesn't really hold a charge for more than 2 seconds, but works when it's plugged in.
has that OLD golf game on it. This is a collectible item and is selling for around $140.00 online from what I've found.
If anyone is a collector or could use it for some sort of project or film... I dunno. Make me an offer.

Everything else is here:


1st laptop that I'm selling http://allentown.craigslist.org/sys.....855535437.html

2nd laptop that I'm selling: http://allentown.craigslist.org/sys.....819560703.html

17" steel alloy wheel from Subaru Outback: http://allentown.craigslist.org/pts.....819556221.html

slide out keyboard case for iPhone: http://allentown.craigslist.org/ele.....819551165.html

Twilight full series hardcover (Don't you judge me!) http://allentown.craigslist.org/bks.....819557641.html

BIG TV: http://allentown.craigslist.org/ele.....819550801.html

Filing cabinet: http://allentown.craigslist.org/fuo.....819553372.html

I've also got a random assortment of 12" G.I. Joes (some Star Wars ones as well) Various other small figures.

I've got a few Airsoft guns that I'm selling.

Karabine 98K Bolt Action Shell ejecting Airsoft gun with 10 shells.
Full Auto/select fire Electric Airsoft H&K MP7
Spring powered M4 (nothing super special)

I've also got several other books such as varius Star Wars Novels, The Redwall series

Various DVDs and Video games. (xbox 360) some Blu-rays

Message me for pictures or details of what I don't have specified here.


I'm doing this because I'm in a very bad spot right now. I lost my job and all the other work that I had has completely stopped. I was supposed to be getting my unemployment MONTHS ago and I've run into several delays with that, I was supposed to have a loan out against one of the lawsuits that I'm involved with but my lawyer can't seem to answer his phone or return any calls and has kept bailing on meetings that we were supposed to have since AUGUST of last year.

I just need to make it one more month and then I should be able to get the ball rolling on all this other stuff. But I just need to make some quick money so that I don't loose my phone an car so that I CAN continue to work.

Please spread, share, tell everyone... I need help and I'm in a shit spot right now...
If anyone is feeling generous enough to donate or loan me money (I know, most people don't want to do that most of you don't know me...) but once I get the last stupid requirement that's holding me back, I am getting at LEAST $10,000.00 hopefully before March or April of this year. I just need to make it that far. :(

I can NOT save images from this site anymore. Every time I try, it says download unsuccessful.
It's really fucking annoying. Like, almost EVERY image now is a .png and even if it's a .jpg not a single thing will download from here anymore.

Did I miss something? Is it FA? Or is it my god awful worthless piece of shit android phone?

I might be a bit silent or in a foul mood for a while.
Just found out my mother has Diabetes. She can barely afford to buy ANY food, and now needs to keep a strict special diet and needs medicine.
So, this is just piled on top of the already overflowing mountain of shit that's stressing me out that worry about daily which has caused me to not sleep for months.

So, I'm probably going to be a bit shorter tempered than usual and more depressed than I've been the past few months.