Find tOkKA @

• http://terrible2z.com

• https://www.flickr.com/photos/terrible2z/

• https://linktr.ee/tOkKa


~ t

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-->> .. kinda live in the darkest, coldest, quietest shadows on F.A. but i'll go ahead n' post this here, just in case.

Tokka - commission info on t2z • http://www.terrible2z.com/?p=538



..back to the shadows now. >;'

~ t

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-->> ..many issues past few months.. SOME GOOD; SOME VERY BAD, dark state of mind ..but fighting best i can. tryin' not to give into typical suicidal tenancies and the typical self-destructive &schizophrenic b.s. habits i was infamous for.

i'll continue to upload major and imperative pieces here. Been slow lately tho' .. been very hard, real sad..angry and dark.

Anyway..

Meantime i still frequent regularly .. ::

t2z - Flickr @
http://www.flickr.com/photos/terrible2z/

T.G.R.I. art Tumblr @
http://tokka.tumblr.com/

tOKKa'z Facebook @
http://www.facebook.com/itOkKa

tOkKa'z Twitter @
http://twitter.com/tOkka

GGM @
http://gogreenmachine.org/


Mikey's TMNT @
http://www.mikeystmnt.com/

t2z @
http://terrible2z.com


..thanks.

~ t

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-->> Thanks for faves, ppl.

~ t

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-->> ..not gona do it, not today.

~ t

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-->> To all of you who have supported me and my psychotic endeavors, all you non-haters..

i do appreciate you and thank you.

I don't always say that, but i can't respond to every supportive shout on my front page.

I can here and there but not all of em.

anyway.. again - thank you & i do read all the shouts and appreciate 99.9 % of em except the 1.0% asshole ones.

>;}


~ t

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-->> Shut the f5ck up, you fucking haters !!

You assholes that blatantly continue to jump to conclusions and accuse me of shit and refuse to politely approach me thru PM or whatever and ask me a question regarding your concerns; at this point --


F U C K O F F

- for the LAST TIME .. i'm not a bad person trying to break all the rules.

I'm a fucked up, schizophrenic artist with limited, software, hardware, funding resources doing the fucking bets he can to continue to gain as much exposure as he can like the rest of the artists on here.

I did not ever have the money for all those WACOMS, cameras, portable devices,fancy computers, or extra special software, or even a decent internet connection - all my peers seem to relish in and is just unobtanable for a poor freekish douche like me.

Fuck, if i have multiple shots of different areas of a single piece to pick up the details or different shots of like a Turn-around of a figure, it's specifically to get as many angles for those that DO ENJOY my work, particularly my physical R.L. work that that'll never get to see but digitally.

Sometimes i can do this here n FA with a piece, sometimes i can't and can post 1 or 2 and hyperlink the rest to my Flickr site.

You haters want your fuckin' cake and you wana eat it to and stomp all over it and make a big fuckin' mess and smear the frosting and crumbs all over everyone's faces but your own.

I don't have energy or time for this shit anymore. There's too much life treating anxiety i'm facing right now with a loved 1. This bullshit just adds unnecessary stress to an already chaotic existence.

Either shut up, or back off ..


or follow the simple golden rule that can get you so far in life.. :

TREAT ME AS I'D TREAT YOU.

You wouldn't appreciate me jumping all over your ass and sending you harassing PMs, Automated-threats, Hypocritical posts on my front page, or what have you.

Put your fuckin' head on straight and realize i can be an EXTREMELY NICE person !! !! you got sumin' to say, more that likely this nice Snapper won't bite your head off.

Or freek out and get all anal on me; then i'll freek out and snap like now !!

That simple.

You can't practice trying to stop the monotony of these constant oxy-morons.. and try to practice polite etiquette with me -

then go take your cock to someone else's gallery and spooge all over your keyboard there. Fucking stick that and your tongue ina light socket - i don't care.

There is now " 0 " tolerance for this type of shit i have here.

Keep it up, and i'm going straight to Fender and the mods myself.

I now consider this b.s. harassment.

I HAVE HAD IT !! !!


~ t

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-->> Seems like each time something ' DRAMATIC ' happens here on FA i am getting a little tiny bit better each time at handling and managing the situation.

Least a little bit.

Hmmm- :/

~t

-->> Do 99% of you jump to conclusions and just remove sh8t instantaneously without even giving anyone a FUCKING HEADS UP ??


This is happening minimally .. but goddamm i could be gone for days - some MOD or admin or whatever can threaten to "REMOVE" something ..- so questions asked .. assuming that i posted it for one reason or another due to their magic; cognitive powers.


no questions asked.. they just threaten you or remove the shit immediately!!

I expect this treatment at D.A. .. but each time i think things are getting better here for me on F.A. - - someone jumps the gun; no questions asked .. - n' BOOM ** Removal or threats.


WHAT IN THE HELL ?~?~?~!!


~ t

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-->> i could blame it on the schizophrenia, but at least someone give me a little credit for being cognizant of my struggles.

allot of other schizophrenic persons i've known are not like that.

Still i gota be responsible for what i do.

I'm still so god dammed jaded by my negative experiences at D.A. i hardly trust any place or it's staff on places i post work.

so .. again, i'm sorry.. but i when the communication is just thrown in my face like DA was so notorious for doing to me for so long no matter how often i tried to work with them to solve issues.. overall it left a bitter taste in my mouth.

Now i only use DA to check out my fave artists, friends, photographers, leave minimal feedback, post work and use my print account there, and i refuse to post any updates like journals there. So ..it's not a community to me there.. it's a "Art Drop-off".

:/

Here it is a bit different. and apparently after my years here in 'Furryland' i guess i am still trying to fit in and find my bearings.


~ t

-->> .. let me break from FA - i am so manic and still exhausted.

The Damn SDCC is the hardest business trip of the year for me and has taken it's toll.

I just got back literally hours ago and am still trying to find my head.

i don;t have the energy for this stuff.

I'll come back to it later.

Hopefully i can open up some dialogue with the Staffer.

I'd appreciate it.

Sorry if i flew off the handle.

This is isn't right tho'.

But i don't have the energy for it right now.

~ t

** UPDATE :: I'm trying to establish some communicae with the Admin who did this to find out what happened. So aggravating and confusing . **


-->> ..was gone almost a week, hadn't checked in for a number of days, some FA staffer saw fit to send me a harassing message and took it upon himself to remove 'Something/s' from my gallery without telling me.

So i duno what's missing or removed.

And like on D.A. .. i refuse to put up with drama and bullshit from staff would rather harass you than reason with you and be polite and work out the problems.

Like i have warned, i do not take censorship lightly, those that wish to jump to conclusions and NOT reason with me, drive me to anxiety driven fits over something i didn't do. i will make this a legal a matter if it continues to ridiculous proportions.

It holds true for D.A. and here on F.A.

Do not threaten me please, i don't break the rules intentionally or in any capacity.

If it's your role to do that on any piece you disagree with, you may need to reevaluate some things.

If you feel it's your role to abuse your responsibility and authority; i shall not tolerate it and if worse comes to worse .. take legal action to protect myself.

I am not playing this game here.. not anymore.

It's trivial.. if you would rather continue the same old chaotic communication that has caused so many issues here over the years, i SHALL NOT BE PART OF IT.

Communicate with me and treat me like a human being to help resolve the issue. I don't bite, i'll work with you.

Jesus..

~ t

-->> .. i did not see this coming. : :


I ACTUALLY LIKE IT HERE MORE ON FA than on fucking D.A. !! !!


HOLY SH8T !! !!


-- - i still have allot of the same old issues, confusion, furrballs, and clogged lint traps furraffinity brings. Some shit i just don't get here and still really feel out of place..

HOWEVER


- -- nothin' as bad as what i feel about DA.


Like i said .. DA is like Wal-mart.. a necessary evil .

In fact .. other than seeing some great artists and photographers, designers , ect. - - i am numb to D.A. and what it stands for.

But yeh, like Wal-mart ::

Just cuz i have to shop there and like the employees there does not mean i like the company.

It's close, it's convenient .. it's the fucking grocery store.

DA is there -- 1 million % alienating and popularity contest to the hilt, harassing, BEYOND confusing, contradictory.. and i feel it to be rather burdensome there. Still i have to hang on there as it is suffers the "WAL-MART" effect in it's own regard.

FA may be the lesser of 2 evils ( or weevils - ) ..

hm- - but it is no Deviantart.

That's a good thing.

I may go as far as to say this place may be growing on me a tiny bit after all this time.

Hm - - still duno. But well .. - -

i think about that last one.

I may agree with that statement.

~ t

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-->> in case i missed anyone here ::

Thanks to those that entered my contest the other week.

> http://terrible2z.com/up-MONKEY_updates/t2z - orders.htm

Congrats to the winners !!

~ t

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-->> ..i still barely know why t. eff- i am here.

Guess i've made pals here .. i guess.

~ t

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-->> Hoo boy everyone keeps sayin' on their FA journals .. ::

** Commission Sluts are Full **

ho'boi they sure are !!

We took all them Commission Sluts down to the golden corral and boi it was like a swamp filled with red necks, trailer trash, Denver Bronco Fans and truckers. O it was so gross, at that flannel and b.o.

Bleh .. >X{



and boi them sluts took to the buffet faster than you can FLUFFYFATJackCHIXCOMMISSIONSLUTS !!

And they sucked dry outta the soft-drink machine all the Diet Pepsi and then they ate all the corn !!

There was no food left for the rest of us !!

and the tab was fuggin' like $ 98 and those sluts made such a big, fat rowdy mess the management made us bus our own tables !!

O god and we almost backed over an elder person with a go-cart after loading the sluts back into the horse trailer !!

O' it was horrible.. and we still didn't get to eat ..

but at least the commission sluts were full ..cuz they ate all that corn.


Good gads !!

~ t

"Cereal:geek - animation of the eighties" - in the January 2010 issue of PREVIEWS (( pg.318 ))

> http://gogreenmachine.org/?p=3105

"Tokka's Terrifying 'TOP 13 ' Most Terrible TMNT Villains of all TMNT 25 TIME " prt. 2 & 3


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** PART 2 > http://www.tmnt25.com/blog/2009/11/.....e-part-2-of-3/

*** Part 3 !! > http://www.tmnt25.com/blog/2009/11/773/

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> http://www.flickr.com/photos/terrible2z/4103787692

"Tokka's Terrifying 'TOP 13 ' Most Terrible TMNT Villains of all TMNT 25 TIME " prt. 1


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** CLICK HERE ( if you dare ) !! > http://www.tmnt25.com/blog/2009/11/.....-tmnt-25-time/ **

-->> HOLY COW !!
> http://homotography.blogspot.com/20.....lin-davis.html

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-->> Hmm.. recent argument on FA does make me recall something that should be emphasized.



..no i'm not the one to go on and dictate or set myself as a decent example .. but like it or not ::

The planet really is lacking in compassion.


It really is.

It needs more of it.. compassion is waning.

It's obvious.. ..look around you .. look abroad .

i hope those that are willing to retain or absorb this will think about that.

Do something about that within' their power (?! ).

~t

-->> .. FA has hated me for so long, now after fighting all the bullshit here, accepting defeat that i don't fit in ::

the hatred , gratuitous ignorance regarding me and everything i do , the unique qualities what i represent and the issues i face.

I'm totally numb now to this place.

I offer nothing but electricity to the place , and i simply don't care about being here.
At least 99 %. That 1% are the kid folks who have accepted me and have been kind to open up their minds to what i have to offer. I do love them. Some have even become my friends.

other than that .. it's prolly time to wash myself of this place altogether .

You only get feedback around here if put the cock on the end of a herm - -

the majority of all this and all it has been has been about that shit.

It was here before me, was here after me , and will continue when i am gone from this place.

I hope Fender and company are proud to have one of the most popular porn sites on the net .

Sure i am fine to talk, i know.

Still .. .. ..

sorry i don't care at the moment, and my care for here is gone.

My tolerance to stay here is drastically waning.

Can't do this much longer.

I continue to try to think i'm more than the fag in the basement .. .. -- - it ain't easy with all the psychotic stigma this place provides.

god i can't think.

~t

-->> since i joined FA what seems like a billion years ago now, it's been a rocky road getting fully integrated here. Getting used to it .. and this unique community, the faces, artists , and the extremes.

I do thank the small following i've gotten and appreciate the tiny cult status. In a way it's good for me and much different type of audience that i prolly would have ever tried to meld with.

Sadly it still have not melted all that well here, and i am beyond out of energy to figure " IT OUT " . Part of me doesn't give a fuck. I post shit and move on best as i am able.

Like i've said .. if i stay i stay .. if i go .. i go.

Having met some people here in person has helped..especially Space Fille.

some i've known for years which also helps me feel less outcast.

FA's still gonna have it's presumptions and hateful bitches and there's not a fucking thing i can do about it i guess.


Some of you have taken a chance on me and accepted me.. and for that .. i cannot thank you enough .

I truly hope i am becoming more than just some shizo-fag in a basement.

Some design work, small major publishing things are coming thru my vine. Little bit of hope is there.

Things remain uncertain, hope i can maintain til i can get to a better place without eradicating myself.

whatever, thanks to all who are watching me and faving me here.

I try to watch and reply to ppl best i can't.

But there is just too many to do ALL of it.

Very overwhelming. I am sorry about that.

Still thank you sincerely.

All 4 now.

~t

-->> Yeh here's the fugin' UBISOFT SDCC - TMNT SMASH-UP Fan video .. they edited the interview i did with em with some TMNT fans and the game creators ..

@ http://www.mikeystmnt.com/?p=1584


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