Hey, followers! Good to see you :3 I've missed our talks, and missed the joy of regular creation.
The past year has been exceptionally hard to get through, and i'm not even through it all yet.
I'm breaking my quiet isolatory routine and getting back into a regular schedule of doing art, streaming, and being present.
Most importantly, I have commissions open for good this time- i'm not going to stop offering them whether i get too many requests, or too little. In the short term, expect to see me working hard to make things for others instead of purely personal projects!

In the long term, I have a cryptic announcement to make. The sharpest-eyed among you may have noticed a small handful of posts with similar suspicious tags. These are just the first drafts- the barest whispers- the faintest scents- the first experimental tail-dips into producing visuals for an upcoming project, titled "Delta" for now. I'm afraid not too much else is free to be shared at the moment, but those of you who care have probably sussed out enough to last you for a little bit! The world of Delta is expanding each day, so be sure to make "space" for it within your attentions sometime in the future.

Most of my time is spent hanging out with friends or sharing what i'm working on in Picarto streams- FA is just a place to post finished products for me. If you'd like to hang out and meet the pack, or (coming soon) get exclusive looks at upcoming projects, don't be afraid to poke your head into my discord server!
The Waffden: https://discord.gg/y5GFAcx

Maybe you found my FA because you saw one of my cartoons on discord/reddit/god knows where. If that's the case, welcome! Maybe you found my FA because you searched "generic green wolf headshot to use as my profile picture" into google and the first result you were unfortunate enough to see was of my sad face. If that's the case, welcome! Leave your shoes by the door (only bare paws allowed indoors), snacks are in the kitchen and d&d is starting in five minutes.

While you're at it, go ahead and refill your health and mana, and don't forget to quicksave. It's been a long journey, you deserve a rest.

...to drawing video game related furry art. Few things bring me more satisfaction than drawing myself and my friend's sonas as our video game characters to commemorate our time spent blasting monsters/ hunting diamonds/getting fucked over by other squads. If you've looked through my gallery you've probably seen that a good portion of it is dedicated to such tomfoolery.
Now that (I feel like) I'm at a point in my life where I can, once again, devote more time to art, I've "opened up commission slots" so that I can both do something that I love for people who will love it in a way that I can make money.
Not that I know how to get people to commission me or anything, but just like last time we'll see how it goes.

I just discovered they added radhazard symbols to the "nuke" buttons and i couldn't be happier.
i guess i like the new format now, it feels good and modern.
still hate the logo with a passion and a healthy dose of fear.

after using the new FA for a few minutes iv'e decided its actually kind of pleasing, what with a "dark theme vibe" and all that
Logo's artist doesnt fucking know how to draw a raccoon though.

Yeah nope i hate it i hate it yes you know what im talking about

Wishing all of you a pleasant December and new year, full of food, family, fun, and food.

Well? ive spent three days on this journal and i still dont know how to say things in a cut-and-clear way.
In short, things ive been dealing with (or more like being FORCED to deal with) havent gone away or lessened like i wanted them to, and to top it all up new stuff is there that i didnt think could even fit into the list of Reasons Why I Cant Figure Out How To Be A Normal Furry Artist Who Draws Every Day And Loves Their Work And Makes Cool Stuff For Everyone Around them. In long,... i really dont know how to vomit all the things i wanna say into a little paragraph to be read by the five people who peek at my homepage.

Basically, im not doing commissions anymore. Its not that i was overwhelmed by stuff and didnt (havent) had time to work on the few commissions i actually got , the problem was that the work actually wasn't getting done. All ive had is time, but all ive been doing is, rally, just lots of nothing. I dont understand it, i want to spend all my free time doing art, but i just dont anymore. I guess since art is one of the most valued parts of my life, its one of the first things to go when the big D hits. I just dont have the emotional energy? the emotional endurance? im not happy enough to pour myself into my "work" like i need to. Hell, its a week or more into november and im not even halfway through Inktober, which was a super big thing that i was excited to do. So, im not gonna be officially open to commissions. Ive been delaying coming onto FA and making the big announcement to all 3 of the people who follow me for many days, cause... idk. same whole lethargy deal with every other aspect of my life, i guess.

Will i do commissions in the future? yeah, i guess. but idk. until i can change some things about my life and fix some stuff about myself, i dont know how long it is until i can feel happy or whole again enough to even want to try and be a "professional artist". Im not very good at pretending.

...are they gone? Okay, now that most of the randos have gotten bored and left... thanks, guys. im serious. thanks to the few people who no matter what have stuck close to me or at least just shown some decent kindness despite my constant efforts to retreat and close myself off from the world. You know who you are. And even if you dont know who you are, remember that one time you messaged me randomly on discord just to share a meme? i do. It helped.

This whole journal is probably pretty chaotic and hard to follow but i guess it doesnt really matter, im just typing things as i think them cause i need to get them out. I guess my art is gonna take on kind of a change, im not doing much of the colorful fun stuff i used to do, lately its all just been really emotional black and white stuff, i guess i liked what ive been doing for inktober, its so easy to just get a base emotion out on a canvas in black and white, sometimes color makes everything blend together too easily. Im gonna keep doing art and uploading it as much as i can, but its probably gonna be really personal stuff since i kinda have a lot i need to work through and vent about. i want to keep forcing myself art, cause frankly, i'd rather lose my will to live before i lose the will to keep drawing.
lol thats a funny joke cause its actually happening.
so if you care i guess, stay tuned, im definitely going to finish inktober and then post whatever crazy stuff i force myself to draw next.

TL:DR
Im depressed and my entire life is taking a toll because of it so im kinda deciding to not be focused on art rn since i dont have enough oomph in me to keep the facade up. I guess im not doing commissions but i guess im still gonna be uploading art cause i really want to use my art as a way of working through my problems. Thank you to those who have helped me without knowing and thank you to those who have read this shitpile and managed to kinda understand what im trying to say. Cause i sure dont.

It's October, no matter what this month means to you, and that means spooky skeletons, plenty of milk, and strange ladies flying around on household brooms claiming to be arcane sorcerers. Whatever, Glenda, we all know about your horned abyssal sugar daddy and his love of the blood of mortals, blah blah blah. Keep your mystery flavor "surprise" potions outa my drinks please.
In any case, salt in a ring around your house or not, the season is nigh for commissions. That's right, my dockers are open, my coffers whetted, my pens newly cut. In the words of a true master: 'time-uh ta get thayut bread hyuck'
Mmh... brings tears to my eyes just typing the words.

Hello.
It me.
Nobody likes having to write one of these journals.
For the past handful of months, i've been dealing with a lot of things that have impacted my life in big ways, like 1) the rigors of life as a college student 2) a touch of anxiety disorder making day-to-day life a little more spicy 3) the soul-draining effects of depression 4) dropping out of college in the name of just keeping myself from getting any worse 5) a bunch of other really bad decisions. I joke, not because I'm ashamed of my issues, but because i just dont know how to talk about them seriously anymore. Regardless, i've been set back, both in terms of my career as a creative individual, and in terms of my plans for my life. To those of you who can relate, i guess you know how it is better than i can say it. And to those of you who have been of help to me in any way in the past few months, thank you so much, i can't even begin to describe how grateful i am.
"Now that you have your feet back under you for the most part, what are you gonna do?" That's a really good question, and i guess the only answer i have is that now i plan on making my art more than just a hobby. I'd like to actually open commissions like I've always wanted to, and I'll be doing that as soon as I figure out how that's best done. I've been on FA for about a year now, I think, and honestly a lot has changed in 12 months. For the first time in a long while, I actually feel like I have the ability to pursue things i want to pursue, even if it was a rough hike to get here.
Do stay tuned, as ill be offering commissions fairly soon! I feel proud of where my art skills are right now, and I hope people will feel the same way!

Yup, its been a tough year so far. Needless to say, I'm behind on uploads and work. You know how it is, artists block, feeling too bored to do art most of the time, the usual excuses. Don't panic though, I'm still alive!

Well... 2018 has been a real rollercoaster for me, as I'm sure it has been for many of you.
Its been a real journey for me, and i can confidently say i am not the same person who went into this year!
*holds up a glass*

Here's to hoping 2019 holds everything for us and more!

With Xmas just around the corner, its time to get into that holiday spirit! Go outside and eat some snow!
Just kidding you shouldn't do that to sno you don't kno ;3

While i have been posting assorted electronic pieces recently to get my FA gallery caught up on the kinds of stuff iv'e been working on, my physical sketchbooks are filled with all sorts of interesting things! Soon, I'll begin uploading glimpses into my fun (and sometimes strange) sketchbooks.
Have a good holiday season!

Why hello there :3
As of today, Ive decided to really try and start using FA! If any one has noticed, Ive been posting a ton of things in a short period of time... I want to upload some of the few things ive made in the past and get those out of the way so I can begin sharing the things I'm currently working on.
Wow... some of my old stuff is hilarious...

Well this is... um... new. You don't see a lot of modern websites with this kind of layout in mainstream media anymore.
Anyways, Hi FA, I'm Zack, nice to meetcha.
I hope whomever reads this is reading back to my first post and thinking "oh wow Zachary's first journal how quaint compared to all the neat stuff he's shown off since then". Because, right now as I write this, I haven't even updated my profile picture yet.
go figure.