Well a little about myself. I'm 44 years old (I know, a gray muzzle) and I have been in the fandom for less then a year. What got me into it is I have a health condition that has left me incontinent and because of this, I have to wear diapers all the time. After about 7 years of it and the constant low self-esteem I decided room try to find a bright side to this. I looked into the world of the ABDL and found it interesting but while there I also learned about baby furs and diaper furs. The idea of a "furry" peaked my interest and I learned more. I eventually chose to join the fandom and have been enjoying it ever since.

If you are reading this journal, you would have seen I have several pieces of art made with my sona in a diaper. Reason for that is when I decided to join, I asked a friend how to pick out what he looks like. I was told to make him as I want to see myself. The very first thing I thought of was with no f%#king diaper. As I continued to add more of my own physical features to him like my build, under bite, tattoo, hair color with peppery gray, I got to thinking deeper. What I wanted that I didn't feel I had was to be happy and confident in spite of the condition. So after a little bit of time, I choose to give him my condition and put him in a diaper. I was so excited watching him come to life and loved the fact he looked so happy even though he was wearing something like that. What I didn't expect was when it came time to share him, I would project my on fear and insecurities on him. I went back to the artist and had her put clothes on him.
Now granted he has helped me to be more comfortable I still feel a lot of anxiety about what I have to wear. At least he is slowly giving me the strength to accept who I am and this, well superficial quark of my body.

Claud the Bear