i wanna say it's been a tough 5 years...it feels like i've been slacking off but...in reality i've been honestly been...distracted.

i really do hope people are doing well. i REALLY hate watching people suffer as it seems like things around me deteriorate by the day. i have my happy moments, and i have my sad moments

my close friend dies on me in 2021 just suddenly
i watched a really good movie in 2022 *everything everywhere all at once*

i got a chance to finally go to a bigger furry convention, and meet such a good friend
i had to move out of a toxic situation with my close irl friend that was my roommate

i've fallen out heavily on drawing art
i've been venturing in other artistic endeavors so that i've never not doing anything creative.

i've been trying to work on myself, and it...feels like i'm progressing one way or another...even though it totally does not feel like it

the world frustrates me
i REALLY hate seeing people suffer that it drives me emotionally mad at the state of things

i'm still making new friends though
and making new memories for everyone that interacts with me

i try to help when i can
but sometimes you...gotta know your limit.

but you know...i'm still here. i can still walk, i can still talk, i have a infectious laugh lol, i have my energetic moments for better or worse 💀, i am sleepy, but i can still wake up in the morning.

and i do really wish you all well

i got a linktree now: https://linktr.ee/dudewithgames where it should have updated social information including where to add me on vrchat and dm me on telegram and discord. i'll still be lurking...maybe posting stuff here and there. i want to get back into drawing. it's been...so hard to consistently draw without months of dry spells and not being able to finish anything. and i might request emotional help with getting back into drawing as i honestly don't know why i've been so hard to get on a canvas...other then my energy levels are typically low after work throughout the years and continue to be. *work history is a can of worms i could get into in dms, but the economy *shrugs* i wanna say i should get a better job...but the job market is another can of worms