I apprecite all the comments in my last journal. I cant say if i will get better or I will change my mind as i wish. Life and its meaningless trivialities suffocate me to the point of apathy and the deepest misanthropy. Even my therapist doesn't know how to deal with me. I'm too broken even for that. Kinda funny. I just wish i could have a normal life like everyone and dont think too much about the future. But its too late for that and i think I will never cease to be aware of everything.

Anyway, I don't want to ramble too much. I apprecite all your words, really.