this aint formatted in any way, this is just the ramblings of a sad man peering off the end.
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no one actually wants to talk to me, rp with me, game with me, or pretty much anything with me.

i have to be the one to reach out every time, if i didnt no one would talk to me. tried to expand my friends in the suiting/furry community but its all the same, all the effort from me and if i stop they dont bother. then i see in servers how these same people are hyping up how great it is to talk to eachother and talking about ideas with eachother, and it just...makes me tired of it all.
the one group i /thought/ i was part of feels like its closed me out completely. i look away for one second and there's more and more people i dont know being added, everyone sharing art, rp, ideas, joint commissions etc., having a good old time. i build the house and now im evicted from it.

thinking people are actually wanting to talk to me when you do ask me how i am, i give them an answer and they just...ignore me. how much more on the nose can it be.

i just want it to be over, and i know how i'll be able to do it too. i just can't muster the balls to actually go through with it (which im sure everyone is rooting for me to do).