I'm finally ready for a Relationship.
I'll be honest and tell you all what's been happening. I've been depressed and suicidal since 2017. Because of numerous issues, and my pride, I ruined and strained my Relationships and Friendships, which just made everything worse. With one of the former being a long running Relationship. I ruined my life. I shut myself off from everyone, and just stopped communicating. I didn't ask for help, and didn't tell anybody anything. I was just motionless, stood still as everyone else moved forward. I experimented with many things to ease the pain, desperate to find a place for me, to find peace, to be fixed, but nothing worked. I was completely lost, and my Mental Health was non-existent. Like my Soul had left my body, and I was on Autopilot. I just focused on my Work, and not on me, or those close to me.
And I'm now only just slowly coming out of that dark place. I'm answering people again on a regular basis; trying to mend those Friendships I strained. I'm also meeting new people and chatting with them. I've joined a few new Groups and Sites. I'm sharing my Art and Fan Fictions again on my numerous Sites. I'm even drawing more, and rediscovering some of my old Interests and Hobbies. I'm trying to accept who and what I am, and not change myself for others. Heck, I'm planning to Publish my Novel Series soon.
And as a sign of a new, revitalised me, I'm no longer TheDarkestNight51.
I shouldn't be doing everything by myself, and trying to heal myself without help. I should communicate more with people. I'm in a good place now. I'm still healing, trying to sort out faults of mine, but I'm mentally, emotionally, and spiritually ready for anything now. I know I'm ready for a Relationship now, and know what I'm looking for. I'm ready to move forward with my life; no more standing still, no more being held back by the past. No more fear of the past and future. I want to prove to certain people they were wrong.
I would like to thank my friends, and Family, who stayed with me, were patient with me, and those who helped me through a difficult time. Even if it was unknowingly. And I'd like to apologise to all those I hurt, I'm deeply sorry.
I'm doing my best to recover.