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Digital Artist | Registered: June 17, 2020 01:33:03 AM
"I am a living nightmare to many."
I'm just your everyday optimistic but tough mamagen with a beast.
Male 22 - Bi - He/Him or She/Her (Either works‚ I don't care)
I'm taken by my twinkie, AshTheArcticFox‚ so don't try us.
I'm also a digital artist, an aviation enthusiast, and a Twitch streamer. I've been in the fandom for 9 years.
I run my server called the Night Furs Realm! Check it out and feel free to join!
The NFR Discord Server
Note: If I'm ever highly aggro, pay attention to my status and keep your distance.
Discord Username: noctis_okamiStats
Comments Earned: 44
Comments Made: 8
Journals: 2
Comments Made: 8
Journals: 2
Featured Journal
2 Years of Absence (G)
a year ago
Wow, 2 years and I have abandoned my FurAffinity page. A lot has changed and I have no idea where to go from here with this.
So, let's get a few things out of the way.
Firstly, I had my reasons as to why I left it abandoned. One is because I got very busy with many things, including personal stuff, as well as a job, my interest within aviation, content creation on Twitch and TikTok (and maybe YouTube), and more upgrades. Secondly, the personal stuff. As not many have known, or probably don't know me whatsoever, I've dealt with huge dramas that completely torn me apart. Let's just call it, The 3 Stabs.
The first stab I've had was from an enemy we know as Max Wolffe. They tried defaming me and labeling me as predator. You can find more about that in my YouTube title where a playlist says "The Max Wolffe Saga." The second stab was from a former friend that I found on VRChat that wanted nothing but to gain a relationship on me when I already have the love of my life. I ended up cutting them off because I could no longer tolerate their shit. And then the third stab, where a former friend that I trusted and was a high rank admin for my server, was found to be a pedophile. We banned them and cut contacts with them, never to see them again. In fact, they have been charged by the court system, and I'm sure they'll never come back, ever.
At this point, as everything happened within a span of perhaps 2 years, I have lost trust. I lost my happiness. My reality, destroyed. My once happier self that wanted to bring smiles, the old me has died. Now my eyes have opened, and all I see now is a battlefield that I traversed when I was blinded. I now see war and pain almost every day. I'm suffering a lot inside and all I can do is stay away from everyone since my trust issues is higher than before. That's why I have not went back to do art stuff, or even post here. I have lost so much motivation that it's unimaginable as to how I'm still standing.
So now, what happens next after everything I went through?
As of this current time, I've been improving and becoming stronger and better than ever. Now instead of being a wolf that I was (which I still keep the wolf self but not it's old personalities), I am now a combat mamagen that lives through the many wars I have been put through. Now I'm a content creator, an aviation enthusiast with a job that is on the aviation field, a gamer, and still am a digital artist. Not as much but maybe sooner.
For the meantime, I will be here, or elsewhere. I might post once in a while, just not frequent as I used to. For those still here, thanks for staying. I was actually ready to give up this platform, but I guess some hopes are still held on. For how long you might say? The answer is unknown.
Thanks for reading.
So, let's get a few things out of the way.
Firstly, I had my reasons as to why I left it abandoned. One is because I got very busy with many things, including personal stuff, as well as a job, my interest within aviation, content creation on Twitch and TikTok (and maybe YouTube), and more upgrades. Secondly, the personal stuff. As not many have known, or probably don't know me whatsoever, I've dealt with huge dramas that completely torn me apart. Let's just call it, The 3 Stabs.
The first stab I've had was from an enemy we know as Max Wolffe. They tried defaming me and labeling me as predator. You can find more about that in my YouTube title where a playlist says "The Max Wolffe Saga." The second stab was from a former friend that I found on VRChat that wanted nothing but to gain a relationship on me when I already have the love of my life. I ended up cutting them off because I could no longer tolerate their shit. And then the third stab, where a former friend that I trusted and was a high rank admin for my server, was found to be a pedophile. We banned them and cut contacts with them, never to see them again. In fact, they have been charged by the court system, and I'm sure they'll never come back, ever.
At this point, as everything happened within a span of perhaps 2 years, I have lost trust. I lost my happiness. My reality, destroyed. My once happier self that wanted to bring smiles, the old me has died. Now my eyes have opened, and all I see now is a battlefield that I traversed when I was blinded. I now see war and pain almost every day. I'm suffering a lot inside and all I can do is stay away from everyone since my trust issues is higher than before. That's why I have not went back to do art stuff, or even post here. I have lost so much motivation that it's unimaginable as to how I'm still standing.
So now, what happens next after everything I went through?
As of this current time, I've been improving and becoming stronger and better than ever. Now instead of being a wolf that I was (which I still keep the wolf self but not it's old personalities), I am now a combat mamagen that lives through the many wars I have been put through. Now I'm a content creator, an aviation enthusiast with a job that is on the aviation field, a gamer, and still am a digital artist. Not as much but maybe sooner.
For the meantime, I will be here, or elsewhere. I might post once in a while, just not frequent as I used to. For those still here, thanks for staying. I was actually ready to give up this platform, but I guess some hopes are still held on. For how long you might say? The answer is unknown.
Thanks for reading.
User Profile
Accepting Trades
No Accepting Commissions
Yes Character Species
Wolf/Mamagen
Favorite Music
Phonk, Breakcore, Indie, Lofi, Synthwave/Chillwave
Favorite TV Shows & Movies
Akira, Ghost in the Shell (1995), Avatar, Zootopia, The Bad Guys
Favorite Games
VRChat, MSFS 2020, Roblox, Apex Legends, Titanfall 2, Lobotomy Corporation
Favorite Gaming Platforms
PC, Nintendo Switch
Favorite Animals
Wolves, foxes, cats, dragons, sharks, hyenas
Favorite Site
Discord, Youtube, Tiktok, Telegram
Favorite Foods & Drinks
Ramen and Pancakes
Favorite Quote
“No beast so fierce but knows some touch of pity. But I know none, and therefore am no beast.” ―William Shakespeare, Richard III
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Thanks anyway, fella!