Hello furs.

I have to ask myself a question a lot these days. but i assure myself with the meager backing: "Well, you're doing it for SOME reason right, a good one?"

Yes. i am. All of what I do, I do for a good reason. I have passions, big projects, and ambitious dreams that are hardly able to take off the ground.

part of this is from my literal mental incapability to succeed in those 'extra' ambitious ones. so it boils down to what i CAN do.. ADHD does not help my processing in the slightest, way too many projects to do in a fraction of the time needed.

Lately i've been completely hyper focused on a project, and while it's coming along, i'm here like:
"are people really going to play this project outside of your closest friends?"
"are MORE people really going to support your twitch?"
"is there anything you can do to bring people into it?"
"Is your twitch ever going to replace your job or potential side hustle money if your knees give out??"

Like, these are questions i ask, but i never let bring me down. ultimately i am doing this to have fun.. but if it can someday land me in the same spotlight as say my role model Vinny Vinesauce, I would be overjoyed. I want that casual experience and letting people watch while i talk about random stuff.

Though... there needs to be some ground gained from the amount of effort being put in. while the effort i've shown so far is lackluster, It's the passion that counts. I've tried to better myself, stray away from the spicier side of the internet just to have a bit of public dignity, and tried to show people i'm a genuinely nice and entertaining person deep down that has a lot of interesting aspects.

The goal was to succeed outside of the usual nuance that comes with being a furry. you can do that, yknow? it's not going to stay hidden though, you have to loosen up a pinch to fit in, but i refuse to keep it as a personality anymore. I get so tired of the constant sexual talk or kinks thrown around, it just isn't something i want to be talking about on a public service like twitch.. Certainly not youtube.

anyway i got off topic.

My goal is to show people more of myself as a person and furry, instead of what i was. Most people didn't like that..

uhhh i kinda ran out of things to say.

I can just hope that people start seeing the big idea..