Me at Rainfurrest 2013! Photos taken by  lostwolf123 and edited by me a little bit! (cropped etc)

Also other photos of the head up closer. https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.375114689170161.105866.373199246028372&type=3

...Experiencing first hand how someone could be disappointed in a mask they might get/have.

I feel like this mask taught me a lot. and wearing it to my first con has opened my eyes to commissioner woes etc. I feel like I'm about to give myself a dissatisfied owner review. And It feels really silly and funny. but I feel like I really have to do this to grow a little.

Okay well first off!!!!

Time frame
~This was made just before RF as a heavily rushed head. As I had many things I should have been doing and feel bad every time I try and make something for myself that was not going to go to fund other projects etc. But I couldn't stand not having anything for myself this far along. And while I couldn't fathom how I was going to bring over my crys monster anthro design into costume form. I changed her design a little. Built actually off of a slightly modded (only the nostrils!) snow leopard base with larger eyes than I would normally use on a snow leopard! (actually was made with the first pull which was really dirty and icky and wouldn't have been used well for anything besides something for me btw)

Aesthetic
~I think the thing I dislike the most about the aesthetic is how FAST I tried to shave it to get it done. (partially to rush it so I wasn't spending too much time on it and also partly to see how it would look in the end because I was way too FLIPPIN excited to have the final product. Also painting the pink in the ears. I dislike painting large areas of fur. I realize at times it's necessary but I am beginning to not be able to stand it at all lol. It looks odd to me. and I really should have used pink fur -_- but I didn't really have any to use 0.0 or at least that would be realistic enough.

Fit
~Somehow even though I MADE IT. FOR MYSELF. it doesn't even fit me snugly enough. LOL. LOL. could be due to rushing it. and just being like. I need this to be done nowwww. also making way for the weight of the horns perhaps I wasn't used to previously. as horns this large are kind of a new thing for me! and it was my choice to use them in lue of smaller horns. I just loved their shape.
Anyhow I think the extra weight altered the displacement of hold on my head in areas?

~Awesome horns with screws are from  jawolf by the way! I love them. and I seriously appreciate being able to use them

Wearing it!
~Welll. I think my biggest problem with wearing it anywhere. is that I am 5 friggin feet tall. and I have two giant horns. If people aren't watching for me. It's very easy to hit people with my head. faces, stomachs, chests whatever is at that height when I'm turning my head. I was so afraid of hurting someone. that it made it very not fun to wear. It was rather warm and sweaty in there really fast. but that was partly because I DIDN'T BRING THE BATTERIES FOR MY FREAKING FAN. FKNSDKLNGKLSFDNL.

Other things
~Before wearing it while actually intending to move around at all. I realized that the top jaw just had to be taken out. Did that. Wore it around a little bit really shortly planning on doing the fursuit parade that day a little later.... After short wear the thread holding the ears back had snapped on one ear. and without anything to fix it I just undid the other ear and went through with floppy DERP ears that I felt I needed to kind of nonchalantly hold back every once in a while.

I honestly was so frustrated after wearing it shortly for the fursuit parade and a little earlier that day. that I felt like I wanted to cry. and I wanted to take it off more often than I wanted to leave it on. I remember I threw it on the bed when I got back to the room from being so frustrated with everything about wearing it ;c

and it made me kind of sad.

and then I realized first hand really how disappointing these things can be when they're not made to utmost quality and comfort all together.

I actually brought several masks with me. and the other masks, eagle and tabby cat were worn by me and friends. and were way more fun to wear around for some reason?

I think the thing about horns though is that you can't be super comfy and have horns on your fursuit at the same time Xb I think that may have been one of my biggest problems. I was just so ready to cry at not feeling like I could walk ANYWHERE safely. without running into someone behind me with my horns. But it's not because of the horns themselves it was because I wanted them on the suit. so I just gotta realize that's what it takes when you have that stuff. I guess I just wanted it all Xb

I may be too harsh on myself since I make these things for people. But I feel like it was an odd experience for me and a new one at that!

I really really want to make sure that these little things I experience trouble with don't happen again. or very accidentally. I want everything to be the best it can be and the best I can make it.

Honestly. as a costume maker. I REALLY REALLY have not had the opportunity to wear any of my creations around for long periods of time. Seriously no more than making a short video. Being able to test out my own works before anything is very important and I'm glad I got to do that! As I spend almost all of my time making things but not really using them. As I don't go out much.

really the other masks like the tabby and the eagle, were really fun to wear and everyone that wore them had a fun time in them. So I'm happy for that :)

I just want to get to where I am the best that I can be! I'm glad to learn from my mistakes and figure out better ways to do things until I don't have any more problems!

And I appreciate everyone that helps me and supports me to do that <3